I write because I have not written...

[Mililea]

Share impressions and troubles: thoughts, worries, fears, etc. Not doing this “dramatically changes the inner landscape and can even shut down the receptors so that you are more subject to STS manipulation of thoughts and feelings via mechanical means.”

Normally I can talk very well about my sensitivities. In this case, it did not work for a few days and I can not assess at all why that was so.

We came home from our vacation in Italy last Sunday. On Monday I had to go back to work. At first I blamed my feelings on the fact that I was still half stuck in my vacation. You probably know that, the first day after a vacation is usually a bit strange. But it didn't stop, I felt a bit like depressed, didn't want to see and hear anyone and was even really unjustifiably annoyed at times towards my husband.
I explained to him that I myself do not know exactly where it comes from and apologized.

Since that day I wanted to write a post about it and I had also planned to write some other posts, for example about my experiences on vacation. I couldn't get it done. I tried it on paper and sat in front of the computer.... The paper stayed white, I couldn't get a clear thought.
I also couldn't describe the problem properly. I was simply frightened by the condition.

I kept my head above water by reading novels and kept saying POTS to myself in my mind and asking the cosmic spirit for help to show me what was going wrong. My thoughts fluctuated between:

1. my diet on vacation was very bad.... two weeks of pasta and gelati and croissants.... actually without a guilty conscience, because I could have continued my diet there only with great effort. Is it possible that I am either actually having symptoms like this due to the sudden addition of carbs, gluten and sugar?
2. my husband had his second Astra Zeneca vaccination on Monday - I don't know if it had any influence on me. If so I think only psychologically

I'm still not sure what it was, but it was really hard work inside me to keep up the frequency and get back to my center. Since yesterday morning everything is good again. I am writing this simply also because I realized that I should have written it much earlier. Maybe also just a short sentence about it, because I think with a bit of inquiring on your part I would have gotten back into the flow. It was really a lesson to me, because what I did was not networking. Thank you all for being around

If I managed to write this post, I might manage to write a travelogue in the next few days as well.

 

[Seppo Ilmarinen]

Is it possible that I am either actually having symptoms like this due to the sudden addition of carbs, gluten and sugar?

This is good observation, it's definitely possible that carb/gluten/sugar withdraw symptoms could have played some role with your emotional state after the holiday. It's more difficult to have optimal diet when traveling, but staying at least gluten free could be beneficial aim in the future (bigger challenge in Italy for sure!).

 

[brandon]

Yes, I think the change in diet could cause the change in mental/emotional state.. especially gluten. The few times I've inadvertently eaten wheat-containing food since quitting, I was amazed by how strong my reaction to it was..not very subtle at all.. felt like I'd been drugged, and then had a "hangover" for at least a day afterwards..

There could also maybe be environmental factors.. like how the C's have talked about stuff like, buildup of electromagnetic waves in buildings causing "brain fog" (if I recall correctly).. I imagine the varying EM environments you'd move through while traveling or staying in different places could have a large effect..

Anyway glad things are feeling more normal again :) Sounds like it was pretty much unavoidable!

 

[seek10]

We came home from our vacation in Italy last Sunday. On Monday I had to go back to work. At first I blamed my feelings on the fact that I was still half stuck in my vacation. You probably know that, the first day after a vacation is usually a bit strange. But it didn't stop, I felt a bit like depressed, didn't want to see and hear anyone and was even really unjustifiably annoyed at times towards my husband.
I explained to him that I myself do not know exactly where it comes from and apologized.

I think it is normal to have hangover from the vacation. At our work, we tend to be sluggish for few hours after 3 day break from work( in reality we are still sitting in the same place, same monitor etc. during the break). If you had a very good time during vacation, the contrast will make anybody sort of depressed. Add Gluten stuff which may take 6 months for the effects to completely disappear. Guilt that one should remember the feelings but couldn't etc. surely add up. One also needs to add how Wave can accentuate the feelings.

May be some more may exist. Take your own time and try to recollect thoughts, emotions, fears, worries etc and write it down.

 

[Natus Videre]

Since that day I wanted to write a post about it and I had also planned to write some other posts, for example about my experiences on vacation. I couldn't get it done. I tried it on paper and sat in front of the computer.... The paper stayed white, I couldn't get a clear thought.
I also couldn't describe the problem properly. I was simply frightened by the condition.

I also recently went through a "dark cloud" that stayed on top of my head for a few days. Irritated, I cleaned my room, unplugged the computer, and grabbed a pencil and a piece of paper. I started drawing a few shapes and was surprised at how abstract and mathematical they looked like! Almost like crop circles! This gave me a clue about the nature of my depressive state: a battle between two logical ideas. My mind was telling me: "please, choose an idea, I cannot take this anymore!" It was like having two spinning disks colliding with each other each time I weighed the pluses and the minuses.

There are many forms of expression, some may be more suitable depending on your mental state.
Next time, grab a and draw anything that comes to your mind!

 

[Alejo]

Thanks for sharing Mililea,

I think you have a very good idea as to what may be causing your state, not sure how difficult the situation is at home with the vaccine, that could be a source of stress depending on how things are running in the household.

Then, diet.. that's a big one, the deviation from your diet probably had more of an effect on your mental state and your emotional one. Whenever I've faltered on my dietary choices I get the same lack of energy and motivation, not to mention the mental fog that can last for a while.

So it may be a combination of things, and sometimes it does take a simple push through the fogginess to do what you need to despite how you feel. It happens to me sometimes with different tasks and chores that I am dreading, sometimes all it takes is to push myself a bit against my tendencies to get things done, and suddenly the blockage dissipates.

It reminds me of what Laura wrote in The Wave on the chapter where the twisted sister is discussed, and how she simply pushed through and swam, despite what she felt she couldn't do. Now, that doesn't apply to every situation because respite does have it's essential place in our lives, but when respite tends to become the norm, really making ourselves uncomfortable for a while can mean the difference between doing and not doing something

Glad things are starting to get back to normal and perhaps let this event be a reminder of what effects swaying too far for too long from your diet can have, as I think the rest of reasons you propose were unavoidable.

 

[naorma]

Normally I can talk very well about my sensitivities. In this case, it did not work for a few days and I can not assess at all why that was so.

We came home from our vacation in Italy last Sunday. On Monday I had to go back to work. At first I blamed my feelings on the fact that I was still half stuck in my vacation. You probably know that, the first day after a vacation is usually a bit strange. But it didn't stop, I felt a bit like depressed, didn't want to see and hear anyone and was even really unjustifiably annoyed at times towards my husband.
I explained to him that I myself do not know exactly where it comes from and apologized.

Since that day I wanted to write a post about it and I had also planned to write some other posts, for example about my experiences on vacation. I couldn't get it done. I tried it on paper and sat in front of the computer.... The paper stayed white, I couldn't get a clear thought.
I also couldn't describe the problem properly. I was simply frightened by the condition.

I kept my head above water by reading novels and kept saying POTS to myself in my mind and asking the cosmic spirit for help to show me what was going wrong. My thoughts fluctuated between:

1. my diet on vacation was very bad.... two weeks of pasta and gelati and croissants.... actually without a guilty conscience, because I could have continued my diet there only with great effort. Is it possible that I am either actually having symptoms like this due to the sudden addition of carbs, gluten and sugar?
2. my husband had his second Astra Zeneca vaccination on Monday - I don't know if it had any influence on me. If so I think only psychologically

I'm still not sure what it was, but it was really hard work inside me to keep up the frequency and get back to my center. Since yesterday morning everything is good again. I am writing this simply also because I realized that I should have written it much earlier. Maybe also just a short sentence about it, because I think with a bit of inquiring on your part I would have gotten back into the flow. It was really a lesson to me, because what I did was not networking. Thank you all for being around

If I managed to write this post, I might manage to write a travelogue in the next few days as well.

As mentioned before I can also say from my experience that eating carbs does not do one good. You are describing symptoms I had when I ate a pizza during a family meeting. I felt depressed, very unwell and swore to myself I will never do this again. And everytime when I have my little failures in diet it takes me three days to get these stuff out of my body (and mind as well). Since you ate carbs for a while I think your body needed a while to get regulated again . . .

 

[Eboard10]

I feel you Mililea! I have to confess that whenever I travel to Italy with family I tend to indulge on the occasional spaghetti alle vongole, sorbetto al limone, and cream-filled cornetto with a cappuccio in the morning. I always get a sense of guilt and feel heavier on the stomach afterwards but the feeling is mostly temporary.

You seem to be quite aware of the possible reasons for your state. Like you say, it could be a combination of holidays having ended, longer-term effects of carb-binging and your concern about your husband. That would be enough to put most people in a bad state for a few days.

Glad to know it’s over now and that you’re feeling better. Sharing your story will serve me as a reminder not to fall for those pesky treats next time I travel!

 

[Mililea]

It's more difficult to have optimal diet when traveling, but staying at least gluten free could be beneficial aim in the future (bigger challenge in Italy for sure!).

Oh you are so right... it is very hard to do that in italy, but not impossible... especially in a hotel for people with disabilities, they have lots of people with special wishes. I should have just said something, but I didn't because I thought for this time it won't be so bad. Very, very naive, as I know now.

The few times I've inadvertently eaten wheat-containing food since quitting, I was amazed by how strong my reaction to it was..

That was the point, I didn´t expect that... but maybe that was just right to avoid falling into the trap again.

May be some more may exist. Take your own time and try to recollect thoughts, emotions, fears, worries etc and write it down.

Maybe it was the novels and released too many emotions, I read four on vacation. Thank you for your words , I could imagine that in many of us there are still things lying dormant that we are not yet aware of. But which scratch the surface from time to time.

There are many forms of expression, some may be more suitable depending on your mental state.
Next time, grab a and draw anything that comes to your mind!

For me it's mostly music and especially singing. Here I can let out my emotions completely uninhibited and afterwards I feel better. Painting often only works when I am very energized.

It reminds me of what Laura wrote in The Wave on the chapter where the twisted sister is discussed, and how she simply pushed through and swam, despite what she felt she couldn't do. Now, that doesn't apply to every situation because respite does have it's essential place in our lives, but when respite tends to become the norm, really making ourselves uncomfortable for a while can mean the difference between doing and not doing something

I looked for it a bit this morning before work, but didn't have enough time. It occurred to me that I could actually start all over again with the Wave series, because I know a lot more other things within the last year and can better understand the things that are written in it. Many, many thanks for the hint.

Since you ate carbs for a while I think your body needed a while to get regulated again . . .

Oh yes... I continue the diet and detox as best I can with some supplements, lots of water, EE and my sauna blanket.

I feel you Mililea! I have to confess that whenever I travel to Italy with family I tend to indulge on the occasional spaghetti alle vongole, sorbetto al limone, and cream-filled cornetto with a cappuccio in the morning. I always get a sense of guilt and feel heavier on the stomach afterwards but the feeling is mostly temporary.

The joke is, towards the end of the vacation, I found that even in Italy, gluten-free pasta is available in restaurants. I will try that next time (if there is a next time ) Otherwise, I just enjoy more country and people. Many, many thanks for your responses, it did me a world of good and I'm glad I still wrote the post.

A little extra... I have never seen such huge lemons in my life:

The saying is a bit trite, but somehow fitting sometimes: If life gives you lemons, make lemonade out of them! (Naturally without sugar )

 

[Alejo]

Oh you are so right... it is very hard to do that in italy, but not impossible... especially in a hotel for people with disabilities, they have lots of people with special wishes. I should have just said something, but I didn't because I thought for this time it won't be so bad. Very, very naive, as I know now.

Indeed, not to sound tragic or anything as you seem aware of it, more of a reminder. But this made me think of that other thing that Laura said in The Wave that has stuck with me for a while, something along the lines of "When one says yes to someone that doesn't deserve it, a part of ourselves dies" or something along those lines. The message behind it is, when one agrees or says yes when one should say no, we suffer for it

 

[Mililea]

Indeed, not to sound tragic or anything as you seem aware of it, more of a reminder. But this made me think of that other thing that Laura said in The Wave that has stuck with me for a while, something along the lines of "When one says yes to someone that doesn't deserve it, a part of ourselves dies" or something along those lines. The message behind it is, when one agrees or says yes when one should say no, we suffer for it

Oh you are so right... and if you are honest with yourself, you already feel it at this very moment... after all it is a lesson, I guess I have learned it now hopefully.
Thank you so much, you really always make very good reminders to think about.

 

[Ant22]

Oh you are so right... it is very hard to do that in italy, but not impossible... especially in a hotel for people with disabilities, they have lots of people with special wishes. I should have just said something, but I didn't because I thought for this time it won't be so bad. Very, very naive, as I know now.

I am one of those people who respond strongly to gluten, but my reaction isn't a digestive one. Although there is some digestive discomfort, gluten seems to aggressively affect my nervous system more than anything else. It gives me fatigue and brain fogs for a few days, often even weeks, and it makes me feel very down, sad and borderline depressed. And I am not a depressive type. I haven't had gluten for years now but I remember this weird yucky feeling in my chest that made me feel like there was no point to life. I wasn't suicidal, I just felt hopeless, sad and couldn't be bothered to do anything. I haven't had that feeling since I removed gluten from my diet - even the events of 2020 haven't brought it back.

My neurological response to gluten isn't surprising given that gluten is a neurotoxin that affects the brain and cuts off the blood flow to the frontal cortex. No wonder the term 'grain brain' has been coined.

I've been gluten free from around 2012/2013. It started as a 3-month experiment to see if removing gluten would make a difference - and it did. It didn't resolve all my problems but many of my symptoms disappeared or diminished.

The thing is that if someone has always had gluten it's hard to pinpoint it as a source of issues. But once it is removed and the body starts healing the reaction to gluten consumption following a longer gluten free period can be quite dramatic. The body doesn't always respond the same way it did when we used to consume it daily, but much more strongly. Given that gluten intolerance isn't always easy to detect some doctors suggest removing gluten and observing the reaction to its consumption following a break from it. If it's an intense one then it's likely gluten should be removed permanently. I certainly don't have such a reaction to other foods I sometimes don't consume for months on end.

I found a few SOTT articles about gluten's impact on our brain you may be interested in:

'Gluten Brain': Wheat cuts off blood flow to the frontal cortex

Wheat consumption has been linked to psychiatric conditions like schizophrenia for over 60 years, but recent research indicates the mind-altering properties of this popular food are, in part, caused by it cutting off blood flow to the frontal...

www.sott.net

Gluten Sensitivity and Vertigo/Meniere's Disease

Gluten is a known neurotoxin, and for many patients with gluten sensitivity, nervous system diseases are the only symptoms that manifest. Some neurologists have studied the connection in depth. To date, gluten has been shown to cause lesions in...

www.sott.net

Six signs you're gluten intolerant - and don't even know it

More than 55 diseases have been linked to gluten, the protein found in wheat, rye, and barley. It's estimated that 99% of the people who have either gluten intolerance or celiac disease are never diagnosed. It is also estimated that as much as...

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Does gluten have any effect on non-celiacs?

The headlines are everywhere: gluten sensitivity doesn't actually exist, and anyone who thinks they have it is a liar, delusional, dumb, or all three. The message isn't a new one, but the stories do point to a new study from a group of...

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Gluten & Your Nervous System - Depression, Brain Abnormalities, and Neuropathy

For years scientists have been investigating the detrimental effects of gluten on brain and nerve tissue. A recent study published in the Journal of Neurology, Neurosurgery, and Psychiatry is just one more piece of evidence pointing to this...

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Gluten makes you crazy

"Gluten Free": No it's not a wellness fad. And its elimination may very well be the key to resolving what would otherwise be a chronic and disabling psychiatric condition. Maybe you've heard of the books Wheat Belly or Grain Brain. Maybe you've...

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This is your brain on gluten

"If you could make just three simple changes in your life to prevent, or even reverse, memory loss and other brain disorders, wouldn't you?" So asks Dr. David Perlmutter, in promotion of his PBS special Brain Change, coming soon to your regional...

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What's behind 'Grain Brain': Are gluten and carbs wrecking our brains and our health?

Celiac disease is widely known to cause digestive problems. That's just the tip of the iceberg, according to the book Grain Brain: The Surprising Truth about Wheat, Carbs, and Sugar--Your Brain's Silent Killers, by David Perlmutter. The...

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Gluten Attack: Is gluten attacking your brain?

Not long after her diagnosis, Sarah Bosse realized her case of celiac disease was not typical. Bosse had joined a support group for newly diagnosed celiacs and was surprised by what she saw at the first few meetings. "They were working full-time...

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And if we are on the topic of dietary impact on our mental wellness, dairy is another villain that should be avoided. It also affects the brain negatively, and since we are speaking about gluten, it turns out dairy consumption can be a trigger too as cows are fed grains:

Gluten in dairy products?

Giving up gluten in the diet can be a challenge for some people. How would you feel if I said that in order to be TRUE gluten free, you have to give up processed dairy foods? Cheese, yogurt, milk, butter, sour cream, etc. Could feeding cattle...

www.sott.net

Edit: typo & clarity

 

[naorma]

I was thinking of you today since I am going to visit my daughter in Switzerland. Even staying in a private household being on keto is not quite easy. Cheese, bread, noodles, grains, vegetables and salads are on the menu there. So in a way I am excluded from eating common food. Which is not a problem, because they all accept my way of eating, but nevertheless it is a different situation.
I am taking some lard and bacon with me. What I will not do this time: I have been there very often and on my first day I always had some bread and cheese or bought a Brezel at the railway station. Meanwhile - and I think that goes back to doing regularly EE - I am not going to do this - even on the nighttrain I will only take the salami and bacon they offer, leaving rolls and bread behind. I very strongly feel that it would do me no good anymore.
Sometimes I feel it makes you lonesome but on the other hand I enjoy not being so attached to meals and eating. And eating itself has become less important. I do prepare good food but I see eating only as "keeping the system working" and this makes life a lot easier! If I have 150 grams of really fat bacon a day I am very satisfied!