SMM
The Living Force
In Aprill 2011 I inhaled a sharp metal enclosure piece [for septum piercing... ridiculously fatal] which vastly impacted my digestive tract, left temporal lobe, vascular system & many - if not all - other systems in my body. As a result, lymphic glands were swollen, abdomen was distended [would not be surprised if a hole was punctured in my colon as a result], brain jagged up; I suffered severe aphasia/dysphasia, chest pains, muscle loss, pins & needles in arms & legs, disorientation, wheezing coughs & had difficulty breathing, among the symptoms I recall due to severity. A trapped nerve in my shoulder/collarbone afflicted my entire left arm, wrist & hand which periodically went paralysed.
I went straight to the ER who took X-rays & said they could find nothing. There were a few nights/mornings in my sleep where I'd wake up because I'd stopped breathing momentarily or suffered extreme wheezing coughs & called an ambulance. My hair & nails stopped growing, or started to thin & fall out, as a result of malnutrition as I couldn't digest anything. I was in & out of panic states & was so weak, a lot of my time was spent laying down, typically knitting & reading.
According to CAT scans, there was brain atrophy & abnormally high electrical/neural activity which resulted in the doctors who had taken the scans prescribing carbamazipine [anti-convulsants] & my aunt got me some magnesium. I haven't been the same since - the lead up to the incident contributed to that also I think. I still have a lump on the left side of my neck - although I don't think it's a swollen gland, it seems connected to my vascular system, & have an odd sensation that the left side of my body is split from my right. It interferes with functioning generally osit but has improved greatly over time.
I've seen my doctor, or GP as they are referred to in the
Perusing through Ascorbic acid & Hemochromatosis & Autoimmune Conditions, along with other diet & health related material. Time wise, I haven't been able to read as much as I would like. I started taking liposomal vitamin C & have been doing so for around 2 weeks; the packs can be found here.
Things have improved over time, particularly with diet changes. I have been able to gain [& keep] muscle in my left arm, which hasn't been the case for a while following the incident, although structurally there's a difference between the two arms & my neck can feel the pressure. The lump in my neck has decreased but now the right side seems to have noticed the difference & feels pulled.
WRT brain imbalances, well.. processing language, sounds - general input - has been severely difficult. Too much sound or intense lights/environments, or sensory input, affect me greatly. Processing bodily sensations became almost impossible until I embarked on diet changes & practicing EE has helped imo. There was an odd re-emerging feeling of being "chained in my head" - as if in a coma, where I could move but connections were faulty so lead to limited range of activity i.e. the things I knew I could do, or required not a lot of mental input, like dancing. In essence I think parts of my brain were overactive whilst others went dormant. Like communication, it felt like I couldn't string a coherent series of words together - at least wasn't pronounce them. As soon as motor functions kicked in, the brain would almost go silent, as though no thought processes were present. However, when physically inert, there was no order to thoughts/bodily sensations... they just rolled on & I had no way of stopping them.
A very confusing experience. I felt so viral, I think I stopped sharing what I was going through altogether [or trying] out of fear of being thought a nutcase. The doctors in the UK were convinced [& are until this day, with merely an X-ray as evidence] that nothing was wrong with me, or that I was experiencing exam anxiety. I "self-medicated" with Valium & alcohol at the time - no good despite apparent mental ease & enabling me to do more physically around the house i.e. attend to laundry, clean, etc. I didn't speak much, just smiled as if everything was A-OK, whilst inside I'd have the most bizarre of sensations or reactions to stimulation & would then have to drown everything out with music [I listened to a vast range - some almost obsessively on the bus, danced, played guitar]. My cortex [left side I think] was also partially damaged & this affected rational faculties significantly.
This incident, & the lead up to it, significantly shaped me - or rather, distorted - & I've judged myself since. The combination of changes implemented from going through diet & health section have taken a sort of welding effect.
Essentially I further lost contact or connection from external environment. A staggering amount of drowning out or numbing of sensations was done to get me through the day. I'd have strange visuals [blood on the walls for example... I don't know whether they'd fit into hallucinations], I can't differentiate whether I heard voices - if I did, they were definitely internal - because for the most part I never gave it much regard. I tried acupuncture, at my aunt's incentive, as I had a bed-wetting problem due to inability to control muscles [an on-going situation which was exacerbated by the incident]. When I was 2 years old, I had an illness which caused severe epileptic seizures/fever & brain development was affected by this. No one told me emotional development went hand-in-hand with brain development haha. No doctor could figure it out, the one who claimed he was able to would have administered a lethal injection which had been found to lead to death almost instantly [from studies done on those who had received it] so settled on a "witch doctor" - who sacrificed a chicken & administered some herbal stuff - for treatment.
Wondering about the argument of letting something that took place at some point in time define you? There is infinite applications for that.
The post is twofold in purpose I guess. First, toxicity - especially metal - has dire consequences. How would inhaling a 2 by 1mm sharp piece of steel affect the body?
Reading of the ailments & what is presented here, plus personal experience, highlights the significance of detoxing & health. This is something I hope to look into more - profound changes have occurred so far, I really thought "not in this life time". & sharing, accepting mistakes & making changes. I realise how detrimental holding things in can be in some instances [in my case, I revert to "chained in my head" or regress to taking everything as an existential crisis], so that can be applied generically, but I see many suffer in similar ways or worse; some changes aren't easy to make & the process comes with its own uncertainties but, if that's the choice made/aim, with it comes responsibility.
Secondly, a huge thanks for the materials provided & research done by everyone into matters of concern!
I've been meaning to share this for a while but "the cat had my tongue" ;) No, I didn't have the mental clarity to write it out.
Has anyone experienced anything similar?
I went straight to the ER who took X-rays & said they could find nothing. There were a few nights/mornings in my sleep where I'd wake up because I'd stopped breathing momentarily or suffered extreme wheezing coughs & called an ambulance. My hair & nails stopped growing, or started to thin & fall out, as a result of malnutrition as I couldn't digest anything. I was in & out of panic states & was so weak, a lot of my time was spent laying down, typically knitting & reading.
According to CAT scans, there was brain atrophy & abnormally high electrical/neural activity which resulted in the doctors who had taken the scans prescribing carbamazipine [anti-convulsants] & my aunt got me some magnesium. I haven't been the same since - the lead up to the incident contributed to that also I think. I still have a lump on the left side of my neck - although I don't think it's a swollen gland, it seems connected to my vascular system, & have an odd sensation that the left side of my body is split from my right. It interferes with functioning generally osit but has improved greatly over time.
I've seen my doctor, or GP as they are referred to in the
Perusing through Ascorbic acid & Hemochromatosis & Autoimmune Conditions, along with other diet & health related material. Time wise, I haven't been able to read as much as I would like. I started taking liposomal vitamin C & have been doing so for around 2 weeks; the packs can be found here.
Things have improved over time, particularly with diet changes. I have been able to gain [& keep] muscle in my left arm, which hasn't been the case for a while following the incident, although structurally there's a difference between the two arms & my neck can feel the pressure. The lump in my neck has decreased but now the right side seems to have noticed the difference & feels pulled.
WRT brain imbalances, well.. processing language, sounds - general input - has been severely difficult. Too much sound or intense lights/environments, or sensory input, affect me greatly. Processing bodily sensations became almost impossible until I embarked on diet changes & practicing EE has helped imo. There was an odd re-emerging feeling of being "chained in my head" - as if in a coma, where I could move but connections were faulty so lead to limited range of activity i.e. the things I knew I could do, or required not a lot of mental input, like dancing. In essence I think parts of my brain were overactive whilst others went dormant. Like communication, it felt like I couldn't string a coherent series of words together - at least wasn't pronounce them. As soon as motor functions kicked in, the brain would almost go silent, as though no thought processes were present. However, when physically inert, there was no order to thoughts/bodily sensations... they just rolled on & I had no way of stopping them.
A very confusing experience. I felt so viral, I think I stopped sharing what I was going through altogether [or trying] out of fear of being thought a nutcase. The doctors in the UK were convinced [& are until this day, with merely an X-ray as evidence] that nothing was wrong with me, or that I was experiencing exam anxiety. I "self-medicated" with Valium & alcohol at the time - no good despite apparent mental ease & enabling me to do more physically around the house i.e. attend to laundry, clean, etc. I didn't speak much, just smiled as if everything was A-OK, whilst inside I'd have the most bizarre of sensations or reactions to stimulation & would then have to drown everything out with music [I listened to a vast range - some almost obsessively on the bus, danced, played guitar]. My cortex [left side I think] was also partially damaged & this affected rational faculties significantly.
This incident, & the lead up to it, significantly shaped me - or rather, distorted - & I've judged myself since. The combination of changes implemented from going through diet & health section have taken a sort of welding effect.
Essentially I further lost contact or connection from external environment. A staggering amount of drowning out or numbing of sensations was done to get me through the day. I'd have strange visuals [blood on the walls for example... I don't know whether they'd fit into hallucinations], I can't differentiate whether I heard voices - if I did, they were definitely internal - because for the most part I never gave it much regard. I tried acupuncture, at my aunt's incentive, as I had a bed-wetting problem due to inability to control muscles [an on-going situation which was exacerbated by the incident]. When I was 2 years old, I had an illness which caused severe epileptic seizures/fever & brain development was affected by this. No one told me emotional development went hand-in-hand with brain development haha. No doctor could figure it out, the one who claimed he was able to would have administered a lethal injection which had been found to lead to death almost instantly [from studies done on those who had received it] so settled on a "witch doctor" - who sacrificed a chicken & administered some herbal stuff - for treatment.
Wondering about the argument of letting something that took place at some point in time define you? There is infinite applications for that.
The post is twofold in purpose I guess. First, toxicity - especially metal - has dire consequences. How would inhaling a 2 by 1mm sharp piece of steel affect the body?
Reading of the ailments & what is presented here, plus personal experience, highlights the significance of detoxing & health. This is something I hope to look into more - profound changes have occurred so far, I really thought "not in this life time". & sharing, accepting mistakes & making changes. I realise how detrimental holding things in can be in some instances [in my case, I revert to "chained in my head" or regress to taking everything as an existential crisis], so that can be applied generically, but I see many suffer in similar ways or worse; some changes aren't easy to make & the process comes with its own uncertainties but, if that's the choice made/aim, with it comes responsibility.
Secondly, a huge thanks for the materials provided & research done by everyone into matters of concern!
I've been meaning to share this for a while but "the cat had my tongue" ;) No, I didn't have the mental clarity to write it out.
Has anyone experienced anything similar?


:)