Hi All,
Ever since I returned from Japan last June, I feel like I got plugged right back into the Matrix... actually I still am. So after my visa expired, I had to return home and I even had my old job waiting for me! Turns out they were super duper busy and all I feel like I did was work work and pay off debts. I'd managed to find some time to read the SoTT and sorta try n keep up with the forum but my aspirations to post more and participate were not coming to fruition.
A friend said to me, "Crazy to think we were in Tokyo exactly this time last year". Yup, it's quite something alright. Even more so when I really really wanted to stay but decided at the time to follow the "signboards the universe drops on your head" to paraphrase Laura (thank you for that!). With all that's been happening in Japan (very worried about my friends, Aya and her family) I feel like this is a wake up call to pull myself out of this lull.
I guess to update everyone on what I've been doing (or rather not doing), I pretty much got sucked back into a meaningless life of A influences and other petty distractions. I had tons of 'friends' to visit when I got back, then working my but off 60+ hours a week, then not wanting to do anything else but go out and drink n party the odd free weekend all the while knowing it's all just a waste of time. I felt like I fell off the wagon big time! Fake life is so addicting!
Now I haven't been totally slacking. I've managed to avoid wheat, sugar & dairy a lot of the time, and cook a lot more, buy organic when I can, stocked up on supplements (DMSO on it's way), etc. There's a lot more that needs to be done... I still can't quite get a full 2 weeks where I totally isolate something because I still haven't figured out a way to eat healthy on business trips. I don't have access to kitchens and can't really take food on the plane (and even that would only last a couple of days). Best thing I've figured out is eat the healthiest option... usually turns out to be the salmon with veggies if at a restaurant.
The one thing (and probably the most important) I have been slacking on is EE. I've done the full program twice since I've come back, and the shortened version a few times here and there. I do remember when I was doing EE steadily something was going on inside of me, but it's now gone dormant, I think. Well, I do cry more nowadays (sad movies and situations and things feel really, really sad) but not sure if there's other factors. So either way, gotta get back in the groove.
I feel pretty weird to be posting this (it's probably good 'ole predator squirming around) and I've come to the realization I'm way weaker than I thought I was. So can't promise more participation, but I know it's long overdue and hopefully I can muster enough 'will' to do so.
Well, that's my little update, not sure what else I can add at the moment so I'll leave it at that!
Thanks for listening~
Ever since I returned from Japan last June, I feel like I got plugged right back into the Matrix... actually I still am. So after my visa expired, I had to return home and I even had my old job waiting for me! Turns out they were super duper busy and all I feel like I did was work work and pay off debts. I'd managed to find some time to read the SoTT and sorta try n keep up with the forum but my aspirations to post more and participate were not coming to fruition.
A friend said to me, "Crazy to think we were in Tokyo exactly this time last year". Yup, it's quite something alright. Even more so when I really really wanted to stay but decided at the time to follow the "signboards the universe drops on your head" to paraphrase Laura (thank you for that!). With all that's been happening in Japan (very worried about my friends, Aya and her family) I feel like this is a wake up call to pull myself out of this lull.
I guess to update everyone on what I've been doing (or rather not doing), I pretty much got sucked back into a meaningless life of A influences and other petty distractions. I had tons of 'friends' to visit when I got back, then working my but off 60+ hours a week, then not wanting to do anything else but go out and drink n party the odd free weekend all the while knowing it's all just a waste of time. I felt like I fell off the wagon big time! Fake life is so addicting!
Now I haven't been totally slacking. I've managed to avoid wheat, sugar & dairy a lot of the time, and cook a lot more, buy organic when I can, stocked up on supplements (DMSO on it's way), etc. There's a lot more that needs to be done... I still can't quite get a full 2 weeks where I totally isolate something because I still haven't figured out a way to eat healthy on business trips. I don't have access to kitchens and can't really take food on the plane (and even that would only last a couple of days). Best thing I've figured out is eat the healthiest option... usually turns out to be the salmon with veggies if at a restaurant.
The one thing (and probably the most important) I have been slacking on is EE. I've done the full program twice since I've come back, and the shortened version a few times here and there. I do remember when I was doing EE steadily something was going on inside of me, but it's now gone dormant, I think. Well, I do cry more nowadays (sad movies and situations and things feel really, really sad) but not sure if there's other factors. So either way, gotta get back in the groove.
I feel pretty weird to be posting this (it's probably good 'ole predator squirming around) and I've come to the realization I'm way weaker than I thought I was. So can't promise more participation, but I know it's long overdue and hopefully I can muster enough 'will' to do so.
Well, that's my little update, not sure what else I can add at the moment so I'll leave it at that!
Thanks for listening~
