Just as depressing to me is to recognize that I too can't take a joke anymore. Is this another aspect of ponerization? Friends are always telling me to lighten up. I'm so edgy lately and I keep blaming myself and spots in my psyche that aren't "healed" and yet, when I sit down to ponder, there is a profound sense of grief that runs so deep.
It's taken so much energy to suppress this monumental grief, you know, to keep it all "balanced". I'm tired of fighting it anymore. It seems that now, I just blurt out what I'm really thinking and offending people right and left. It's not that I mean to provoke them but some of my views, comments and questions really irritate some people. Of course, most of the time I do practice external consideration. I'm really angry and disgusted with the world as it is. Is there anything humorous anymore?
To see this video of people acquiescing to such inane requests, makes me think of a cancer mastisizing across the world called No Self Will. Chilling to think of how easily we "goyim' are corralled....
