Al Today
The Living Force
Good morning. I'm starting out writing my thoughts down, let's see if I end up posting this.
Today is Sunday. My wife is on the 5th day of 12 hour days working at the county hospital. We're so far out that her facility is the only medical facility in the county. And be the way, it's the largest employer of the county. Besides farmin', there ain't much to do for "work". The county airport is a grass runway and frequently by the crop-dusters. Right now it's the middle of winter. I'm sitting in my kitchen looking outta large window. Gotta have a smoke and enjoy the nothing to do. Snow, cold, cloudy but still bright enough for sunglasses, and now it looks like rain coming in the distance. Go figure. For entertainment I turned on the am radio to see what's going on out "there". Maybe hear some news.
Well, out here in cornville, everything shuts down on Sunday. Earlier today I needed some smokes, so I drove through what they call here "uptown", mostly all the businesses are closed. What used to be an old movie theater is now some church that appears many go to. That's the cars I see parked "uptown". I'm in the middle of a "bible belt". so, back at my window, lighting up a smoke, I turned on the radio. Outta the five(5) stations pre-programmed on my radio, three(3) were having church. Oh boy. But I thought to listen for entertainment. Then I started having uncomfortable thoughts.
Some years ago, I used intellect in church. I believed in prayer but not how I was shown. Deity has always never been satisfactorily explained to me from these now current bible religions. I went through the motions, but the results were not according to doctine. At one church, I used to participate in sunday morning meetings, being part of the upper hierarchy, discuss issues and people, and then we'd pray. Cause we were of course guided by the "spirit" ya know. And after prayer we'd make a decision. Looking around I knew damn well none of us were being guided by the big guy. We'd end up using intellect to resolve the issue at hand.
Back to my uncomfortable thoughts...
Listening to church on the radio, I entertained thoughts about what I have learned about in the last few years. The inner workings of my mind, how sleeping sheeple are, and psycopathy. Given the desire to control others, the possibility to control others for gain is sickeningly simple.
That's all...
edit add: I used to give sunday talks/sermons to the congregation. What was uncomfortable is thinking how I can now twist the "word" for my benefit. And the "fun" that could be gathered. Pass me the barf bag...
Today is Sunday. My wife is on the 5th day of 12 hour days working at the county hospital. We're so far out that her facility is the only medical facility in the county. And be the way, it's the largest employer of the county. Besides farmin', there ain't much to do for "work". The county airport is a grass runway and frequently by the crop-dusters. Right now it's the middle of winter. I'm sitting in my kitchen looking outta large window. Gotta have a smoke and enjoy the nothing to do. Snow, cold, cloudy but still bright enough for sunglasses, and now it looks like rain coming in the distance. Go figure. For entertainment I turned on the am radio to see what's going on out "there". Maybe hear some news.
Well, out here in cornville, everything shuts down on Sunday. Earlier today I needed some smokes, so I drove through what they call here "uptown", mostly all the businesses are closed. What used to be an old movie theater is now some church that appears many go to. That's the cars I see parked "uptown". I'm in the middle of a "bible belt". so, back at my window, lighting up a smoke, I turned on the radio. Outta the five(5) stations pre-programmed on my radio, three(3) were having church. Oh boy. But I thought to listen for entertainment. Then I started having uncomfortable thoughts.
Some years ago, I used intellect in church. I believed in prayer but not how I was shown. Deity has always never been satisfactorily explained to me from these now current bible religions. I went through the motions, but the results were not according to doctine. At one church, I used to participate in sunday morning meetings, being part of the upper hierarchy, discuss issues and people, and then we'd pray. Cause we were of course guided by the "spirit" ya know. And after prayer we'd make a decision. Looking around I knew damn well none of us were being guided by the big guy. We'd end up using intellect to resolve the issue at hand.
Back to my uncomfortable thoughts...
Listening to church on the radio, I entertained thoughts about what I have learned about in the last few years. The inner workings of my mind, how sleeping sheeple are, and psycopathy. Given the desire to control others, the possibility to control others for gain is sickeningly simple.
That's all...
edit add: I used to give sunday talks/sermons to the congregation. What was uncomfortable is thinking how I can now twist the "word" for my benefit. And the "fun" that could be gathered. Pass me the barf bag...
