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Padawan Learner
Just a few days before the April transcript, I was arguing with and fighting myself all day. Saying stuff like; "Don't lie to yourself" and saying back "what am I lying about. The struggle went on almost the whole day. By that evening I was able to understand what was surfacing! I realized that all my life, I felt sorry for myself...
Oh pity me, these things cannot happen to me! "Me so speshul"
I think that because of that program, I decided that there was no need to communicate, with anyone! So I might have had maybe 1 friend throughout my whole life.
Yeah and my life reflects that now!!! Since I'm not totally sure about "giving something of yourself" what it entails, here is something that I wrote in my journal a little over a year ago. If anyone has any insights, they are most welcome!
Questions to Myself
Where is joy found?
In the heart?
Where do you find courage?
Is it the intent of your actions?
Is all that you know, just the intellect?
No beginning, and no end.
Step by step,
Spiritual children we are.
What defines spirit?
Knowing that all of the above,
Dwells inside?
Seeking answers?
The goal of eternity?
Is that consciousness?
This other one, is from the other day. I was reading the 2nd installment of Connecting the Dots, was upset at what the PTB are doing in the Mideast, had to stop and write!!!
I cannot imagine a world without psychopaths-can you?. A world where brother isn't against brother, where hate disguised as everything except what it truly is doesn't exist.
The carefree world of the child, constantly being molded by Authoritarians, that are everywhere that you turn.
Doesn't anyone ever stop to think what they are doing to others? Everyone seems to get in line and march to the same tune, over and over again.
they all seem to be part of some hated machine, live by hate, die by hate. This hated machine will one day implode upon itself.
If there is anyone left to pick up the pieces, lets hope it is people of conscience, people who have a will of their own. People that don't have to think about peace, because it is something that is inside of them- that something, that is them!!!!!!
Writing is hard work!!! Broke a sweat. Thank you for reading!
Oh pity me, these things cannot happen to me! "Me so speshul"
I think that because of that program, I decided that there was no need to communicate, with anyone! So I might have had maybe 1 friend throughout my whole life.
Yeah and my life reflects that now!!! Since I'm not totally sure about "giving something of yourself" what it entails, here is something that I wrote in my journal a little over a year ago. If anyone has any insights, they are most welcome!
Questions to Myself
Where is joy found?
In the heart?
Where do you find courage?
Is it the intent of your actions?
Is all that you know, just the intellect?
No beginning, and no end.
Step by step,
Spiritual children we are.
What defines spirit?
Knowing that all of the above,
Dwells inside?
Seeking answers?
The goal of eternity?
Is that consciousness?
This other one, is from the other day. I was reading the 2nd installment of Connecting the Dots, was upset at what the PTB are doing in the Mideast, had to stop and write!!!
I cannot imagine a world without psychopaths-can you?. A world where brother isn't against brother, where hate disguised as everything except what it truly is doesn't exist.
The carefree world of the child, constantly being molded by Authoritarians, that are everywhere that you turn.
Doesn't anyone ever stop to think what they are doing to others? Everyone seems to get in line and march to the same tune, over and over again.
they all seem to be part of some hated machine, live by hate, die by hate. This hated machine will one day implode upon itself.
If there is anyone left to pick up the pieces, lets hope it is people of conscience, people who have a will of their own. People that don't have to think about peace, because it is something that is inside of them- that something, that is them!!!!!!
Writing is hard work!!! Broke a sweat. Thank you for reading!
