Taking my first breath in the new reality, I made a conscious choice to limit my participation in this deception foisted on mankind. I consciously decided that I was no longer going to lie — to myself or to anyone else — about how I felt or what I wanted. I was no longer going to lie about what I liked or didn’t like or what I did or did not want to do. I was no longer going to lie to myself that my suffering and sacrifices had any benefit for anyone whatsoever; because it was clear to me that this was not true. It was all an illusion or delusion. In short, I was no longer going to lie to myself about reality at all.
When I looked at a flower I was going to remember the decay and death in the soil from which the flower drew its nourishment. When I looked at a cat or a dog, I was going to remember the fleas and parasites and killing and eating of other creatures that goes on all the time in the animal world. When I looked at a beautiful and peaceful lake, I was going to remember the loads of disease causing organisms multiplying prolifically beneath the shining, mirrored surface.
Sounds pretty bizarre, yes? But it had a strange effect.
Because I was no longer lying to myself about anything that existed, least of all myself, my nature, my being, I was free to choose what to manifest in every instant. Knowing that all of these shadows existed within me, in my very DNA, my flesh, my evolved self; knowing that I had experienced many lifetimes dealing death and destruction on my own, or suffering the same at the hands of others, I was free to choose. And further, I knew that the choice was free! If I had chosen to follow the path of STS, to dive back into the illusion, there would be no blame. As Ra said: The ALL blinks neither at the darkness nor at the light.
There was no longer any blame for anything. It was just what is. This is nature. This is God. And God has two faces: Good and Evil. We can love them both, but we can choose which face we manifest, while always loving unconditionally both faces.
This state of the world is masterfully depicted in Tennessee Williams’ play Suddenly Last Summer ... <snip>
I knew I was “Seeing God”. But, in the end, my choice was to love Him anyway. More than that, my choice was to make manifest those aspects of God in myself, that were of Love and Beauty and Truth as a free will choice. I was not choosing out of fear, even a hidden fear, such as is present in most people who adhere to the love and light routine and eschew any knowledge of the darkness.
If one were present at such an event as the hatching of the turtles, would it be right to rescue the turtles, to kill or scare away the birds? Both represent aspects, or Faces, of God, and both have a right to exist in their own context and to survive in their own way, so it would be wrong to interfere. But I would be hoping that some of the baby turtles would have the sense to wait until dark to make their dash to the sea! Perhaps I might walk back and forth along the beach to act as a “scarecrow” against the devouring birds. Perhaps that is how knowledge can work in our lives? Perhaps that is how the Cassiopaeans relate to us — only with somewhat more complexity.
When you love your cat or dog, do you love them less for eating or killing other creatures? So what that he doesn’t need to do it in his nice, warm, human home where dinner comes in a can. Leave him outdoors and on his own for a bit and he will soon enough eat whatever is there. Will you then reject him, love him less, or pretend that he — and dogs in general — do not exist?
Is this consuming aspect of our reality less acceptable when it reaches a conscious level, such as that of human beings? Are we not still to love all that exists as part of Nature, as part of God, and to accept it and allow it to be as it is — even while managing the delicate aspect of ensuring our own continuing right to exist and be?
And, if we do this, and further, if we choose to limit our participation in the consuming aspect to as great a degree as possible, can we think that we have learned one of the most valuable lessons of our reality? The lesson of what Love truly is? That Love is to love ALL, unconditionally, with no need or desire to change anything? That only in this state of Love — objective Love — can we truly have Free Will?
In point of fact, that is the true meaning of the much-touted “unconditional love”. If you are going to love anything or anybody in spite of what it is or what they do, thinking that your love changes something, then you do not love unconditionally. You are loving your illusion of what might be, not what is.
Further, loving unconditionally means to love the self in the same way. If your “unconditional love” of another means that you must act in any way other than what is authentic to you, then you haven’t gotten it. Further, if this other person does not love you in the same way, allowing you to be fully accepted as you are, and you think that by continuing to hold them close and love them unconditionally, that they will finally figure it out and change, then you have already violated the law of unconditional love. In terms of daily living, you can only live in unconditional love with another who understands it in exactly the same way you do.
I realized this. And I made my choice, as I said, to limit my participation in the lies and delusions to as great an extent as possible. This meant that I could no longer remain in close relationships that were less than fully reciprocal in terms of this kind of love. I understood clearly that this probably meant living entirely alone and loving the world and others unconditionally from a distance which was the only way I could see that it would be possible in practical terms. I could see that allowing myself to be used for energy food in a personal relationship of compromises was not in the best interests of anyone I loved, nor was it in my best interests. (And the same applies in practical considerations of law and order as well.)
Thus, I made the decisions I made, acted on them, and the result was nothing short of amazing.
