I believe that the following “dream” is a product of a question that was developing in my mind while reading The Wave and was considering asking the forum. The question was:
“What is the difference in how it feels to be STS or STO?”
Apparently we are all STS in this dimension so that implies to me that no matter what heroic or self sacrificing acts or behaviours we engage in where others benefit, the reasons that we engage in these acts are because doing so either makes us feel good or helps us to avoid feeling bad. So we essentially do it all for ourselves. So how would it feel differently to an STO being?
In the early morning in that delicious time between being fully asleep and fully awake the words “People are programmed not to feel neutral” come to me. I’m not sure you’d call this a ‘dream’ because I’m not sure I was technically asleep.
These words raised some other dilemmas for me:
I don’t know if these words are were given to me by any outside forces, and if they were, were those forces STS or STO?
I know that I often give the appearance of calm neutrality and because I’ve had difficulty getting in touch with my own emotions and feeling the full extent of them. So are the words a construct of my own ego that is working against my own personal growth?
Or could it be that to an STO being it truly feels “neutral” to engage in heroic or self sacrificing acts, that service to others is just doing or helping automatically with no change in emotion – or emotionlessness?
If so the above takes me into a whole different line of questioning. If 3D STS is free will, then does that indicate in a black and white way that both 4D STO and STS do not have free will, that they have no choice in how they act and behave once they get into that realm?
Phew! So much to learn.
“What is the difference in how it feels to be STS or STO?”
Apparently we are all STS in this dimension so that implies to me that no matter what heroic or self sacrificing acts or behaviours we engage in where others benefit, the reasons that we engage in these acts are because doing so either makes us feel good or helps us to avoid feeling bad. So we essentially do it all for ourselves. So how would it feel differently to an STO being?
In the early morning in that delicious time between being fully asleep and fully awake the words “People are programmed not to feel neutral” come to me. I’m not sure you’d call this a ‘dream’ because I’m not sure I was technically asleep.
These words raised some other dilemmas for me:
I don’t know if these words are were given to me by any outside forces, and if they were, were those forces STS or STO?
I know that I often give the appearance of calm neutrality and because I’ve had difficulty getting in touch with my own emotions and feeling the full extent of them. So are the words a construct of my own ego that is working against my own personal growth?
Or could it be that to an STO being it truly feels “neutral” to engage in heroic or self sacrificing acts, that service to others is just doing or helping automatically with no change in emotion – or emotionlessness?
If so the above takes me into a whole different line of questioning. If 3D STS is free will, then does that indicate in a black and white way that both 4D STO and STS do not have free will, that they have no choice in how they act and behave once they get into that realm?
Phew! So much to learn.
