efeuvete
Padawan Learner
Here it is an experience I would like to share:
First, it is not an easy task for me to accept that the fact of dying can be "followed" for whatever I "used to be" not deserving a soul (If I am "Slept Enough", A la Gurdjieff/Ouspensky, which, by the way, doesn't seem very unusual). That obviously, must be because I'm not sure at all of being now "awaken enough".
Second, as far as I've managed to "Work the Work" I must admit that some egos of mine that I've had to put down, looks to me now from "Somehow relearned" up to really inert, forgotten. Then, when I remember how these almost forgotten ones, used to be "so alive"... they look to me now as "personal dead dudes"; Therefore, ones really without a soul, as old clothes used to do what today is clearly nonsense. And I insist: They used to be "so alive"...
And third, I must admit that I, I, was the one who took the soul out of them. (Me?... What me?)
So, "As above so below", looking at what I'm saying here, I can go now to my first point again feeling a little bit stronger.
Do you think I'm cheating myself too much?
First, it is not an easy task for me to accept that the fact of dying can be "followed" for whatever I "used to be" not deserving a soul (If I am "Slept Enough", A la Gurdjieff/Ouspensky, which, by the way, doesn't seem very unusual). That obviously, must be because I'm not sure at all of being now "awaken enough".
Second, as far as I've managed to "Work the Work" I must admit that some egos of mine that I've had to put down, looks to me now from "Somehow relearned" up to really inert, forgotten. Then, when I remember how these almost forgotten ones, used to be "so alive"... they look to me now as "personal dead dudes"; Therefore, ones really without a soul, as old clothes used to do what today is clearly nonsense. And I insist: They used to be "so alive"...
And third, I must admit that I, I, was the one who took the soul out of them. (Me?... What me?)
So, "As above so below", looking at what I'm saying here, I can go now to my first point again feeling a little bit stronger.
Do you think I'm cheating myself too much?