Negotiating life through attacks

[truth seeker]

For the last 3 years or so I been experiencing non stop attacks. These attacks are mostly character assassination and bullying. This is done by people I don't know and they occur all day everyday whether I leave the apartment or not.

When I'm at home, what I'm perceiving is people yelling and talking constantly. They say the most disgusting things imaginable (think of the most racist and sexist words). If I go out on the terrace, it goes from being completely peaceful and quiet to a cacophony of angry, nasty people, door slamming, cars honking, dogs barking, babies crying, etc.

If I go out (which is rare now), it's all of the above with the addition of it now being directly in my face. People in supermarkets, sidewalks, cars etc. constantly cutting in front of me. The synchronous and constant nature of this is exhausting.

While I made the decision a while back to deal with this situation with good humor and to learn from it, it is nevertheless wearying. I do what I can to take good care of myself and still see the universe as an incredibly generous "place". Many wonderful things have happened that wouldn't have if not for this craziness.

I don't care about what others think of me and am not hurt by what is said, I just want to be able to have a few moments of peace sometimes. I am meditating and that helps, but how does one deal with the constant and seemingly physical nature of this? If it was every now and again, it wouldn't be so bad but the constant stalking (although I don't care for the word, it is the correct one) really feels like too much sometimes.

Does anyone have any suggestions as to how to negotiate your life through this? I currently employ, looking directly at people which stops some of it for a while, but then they just start yelling from windows and down the street. This is my perception anyway.

I've always been an introvert. Perhaps this is why this particular tactic is being used? Anyway, any help would be greatly appreciated.

 

[Joe]

For the last 3 years or so I been experiencing non stop attacks. These attacks are mostly character assassination and bullying. This is done by people I don't know and they occur all day everyday whether I leave the apartment or not.

When I'm at home, what I'm perceiving is people yelling and talking constantly. They say the most disgusting things imaginable (think of the most racist and sexist words). If I go out on the terrace, it goes from being completely peaceful and quiet to a cacophony of angry, nasty people, door slamming, cars honking, dogs barking, babies crying, etc.

Are you saying that when you are in your apartment alone that you actually see and hear people in the apartment yelling at you?

When you go out on the terrace, if you live in a city, then it seems normal that you would hear city noises like cars and people etc.

Maybe you would benefit from practicing Eíriú Eolas?

See this thread for details

http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=12837.0

 

[RedFox]

Hi Truth Seeker

Are you saying that, outside is peaceful until you go out (on to the terrace/outside)?
Are these 'attacks' always directed at you, or is it just around you?

As an experiment, have you gone into libraries (which people are meant to be quiet in) to see what happens? How about a park?
A break to the countryside even?

 

[truth seeker]

Perceval - Sorry for the confusion. I hear people outside. If I look out the window, sometimes I'll catch them saying what they're saying and they'll either give me a really dirty look or laugh (I'm perfectly serious.). Keep in mind that I don't know any of these people. The terrace is perfectly quiet until I sit outside. Then the noise begins. Believe me, I know how this sounds. I've spoken to other people who are also going through this and they relay the same stories.

RedFox - I've experimented with this in every way possible. Everywhere I go, there is harassment. In libraries (where it's relatively empty), people seem to find ways to constantly bump into me. The same on the street.

I don't believe that it's everyone. I don't believe that everyone is aware of what's going on. Some are just unconscious.

I'm 40 and have lived a relatively boring life up until 3 years ago. I've never sought out attention or have been paranoid. It's basically a huge amount of synchronous behavior going on. At first, I was completely freaked out by it. Now, it's almost become normal but I'm still tired of it.

It could be hyperdimensional forces working through people, hyperdimensional holographs, my perception being messed with or a combination.

Thanks for your patience with this.

 

[Gimpy]

Perceval - Sorry for the confusion. I hear people outside. If I look out the window, sometimes I'll catch them saying what they're saying and they'll either give me a really dirty look or laugh (I'm perfectly serious.). Keep in mind that I don't know any of these people. The terrace is perfectly quiet until I sit outside. Then the noise begins. Believe me, I know how this sounds. I've spoken to other people who are also going through this and they relay the same stories.

RedFox - I've experimented with this in every way possible. Everywhere I go, there is harassment. In libraries (where it's relatively empty), people seem to find ways to constantly bump into me. The same on the street.

I don't believe that it's everyone. I don't believe that everyone is aware of what's going on. Some are just unconscious.

I'm 40 and have lived a relatively boring life up until 3 years ago. I've never sought out attention or have been paranoid. It's basically a huge amount of synchronous behavior going on. At first, I was completely freaked out by it. Now, it's almost become normal but I'm still tired of it.

It could be hyperdimensional forces working through people, hyperdimensional holographs, my perception being messed with or a combination.

Thanks for your patience with this.

This was my life through late teens to mid 30's fwiw. While visiting a friend in the Pacific Northwest, he remarked "something seems out to get rid of you.", this was after a car nearly side swiped me in a parking lot we were walking through. He pulled me out of the way, also noting that the driver wasn't even looking in our direction. It had gone on so long, all I did at that time was laugh about it, and say "Welcome to my life."

The more 'invested' you are in programs that are currently running your life, and how comfortable you are with same, can determine how long you stay in this kind of situation. I had some pretty dysfunctional ideas about my life at that time, along with all kinds of self importance and just plain bullheadedness. It took a long time and some hard work to get to the point that I recognized what was going on: my inner state became reflected in my day to day life.

If you expect it, you will reflect it, and it will come right back at you.

 

[RedFox]

Thanks for the additional data Truth Seeker.
Well I can't say I've run into this much myself. I did go through a long period of the exact opposite....people avoiding me etc
But in the end I figured out it was me that was avoiding people. Thinking back I wonder how much was actually people reacting to me and avoiding me, because I was (Subconsciously) going out of my way to avoid people, and get my fix of 'victim'.

fwiw what I wrote in the Workplace Bully thread may help? They may be at least worth considering/experimenting with.....this is at least what I'd try in your situation

The way I understand it is that there can be no feeding dynamic if there is nothing to feed off....
Things that can be fed off are generally hidden from our awareness, either completely or in plane sight (i.e. identifying with it)....once they are brought into awareness and owned/processed they loose power inside you, at which point they are no longer a source of 'food' for others...
As Jung put it, the shadow self. It is the projection of unknown parts of the self onto others that cause these dynamics to occur.
So any time I am 'made' to feel something or to react strongly, I've used it ever since as a guide, as a mirror to hidden myself.
It takes two to feed.....
...................
Could it be then that 'I have been keeping my cool with her attitude towards me for a long time.' should read 'I have been ignoring her attitude towards me for a long time.'
This is important because it is basically avoiding the dynamic of the situation (both internally and externally) rather than objectively observing it and yourself.

If she prods your emotions, let them be! It is fantastic to have someone do so because it is an opportunity to find out something you where not aware of about yourself. It is the uncovering of old wounds and scars that need to be healed.
Once healed (explored/expressed/integrated), she will not prod you there any more, because there is no longer anything in you to prod.

Use emotional prods as a way to self remember.

The other thing to think about is, if this is an attack then:
a) Why? It may be designed to stop you persuing the work.....may also be worth considering General Law may be coming into play.
b) How? What is being brought up inside (there is generally a pay off involved in an attack, that the 'attacker' is looking to provoke)? What thoughts and feelings and behaviours do these events trigger? Once identified, are they useful or negative, do they need to be healed or removed? Explored and monitored?

Hope this is of help :)

 

[John G]

I'm 40 and have lived a relatively boring life up until 3 years ago. I've never sought out attention or have been paranoid. It's basically a huge amount of synchronous behavior going on. At first, I was completely freaked out by it. Now, it's almost become normal but I'm still tired of it.

It could be hyperdimensional forces working through people, hyperdimensional holographs, my perception being messed with or a combination.

Just being on this forum is about as attention getting as you can get, don't know if you started something three years ago related to being in this forum now but three years ago is when things started happening for me and that's exactly when I came here. Sometimes I think that the earthly powers that be do remote viewing stuff related to Cass/Sott so "synchronous" doesn't surprise me even if it's just earthly but whatever hyperdimensional technology may be used by who for what is just a hypothesis to keep in mind as you deal with the present. That breathing stuff mentioned earlier in this thread, besides being stress reducing, might have some hyperdimensional benefits too.

 

[truth seeker]

Bluelamp - I started coming to this forum about 2 months ago. I was pretty much just kind of stagnant in my life not really understanding why the world was the way it was/is. I accidentally came across the C's transcripts online sometime last September while looking for some answers. Oddly enough, if I wasn't going through this, I never would have come down this path.

I have been meditating for the last 5-6 weeks and over the last few days, have incorporated the breathing techniques which is helping.

Red Fox - Thanks so much for the link and yes, what you said is incredibly helpful. The advice that you and Anart gave in particular speak to me.

The way I understand it is that there can be no feeding dynamic if there is nothing to feed off....
Things that can be fed off are generally hidden from our awareness, either completely or in plane sight (i.e. identifying with it)....once they are brought into awareness and owned/processed they loose power inside you, at which point they are no longer a source of 'food' for others...
As Jung put it, the shadow self. It is the projection of unknown parts of the self onto others that cause these dynamics to occur.
So any time I am 'made' to feel something or to react strongly, I've used it ever since as a guide, as a mirror to hidden myself.
It takes two to feed.....

I am fully aware that there is feeding going on and thought that I was stopping the source, but perhaps there is something missing. And yes, in this situation as with all others, I choose to see it as a learning opportunity. When I look back on my life from this vantage point, I can see that this was going on for a good part of my life only nowhere as big as it is now. It's as if this lesson will not allow itself to be ignored any longer.

Gimpy - That's funny. I've had friends say to me, "Why do these things always seem to happen to you?". I never knew and couldn't figure it out. I did what I though was right and never bothered anyone. For the longest time, I played the "good girl" until somewhere in my 30's. Then I started becoming more comfortable with expressing myself, not aggressively but just looking out for my needs.

This is a big lesson in my life. Trying to not anticipate this will be quite a challenge but it can only get better with practice.

 

[truth seeker]

Bluelamp - I just reread my answer to you and thought it sounded kind of flat. I didn't mean it to. Thanks so much for the advice! I'll have to look up remote viewing so that I can understand it better...

 

[John G]

Bluelamp - I just reread my answer to you and thought it sounded kind of flat. I didn't mean it to. Thanks so much for the advice! I'll have to look up remote viewing so that I can understand it better...

Your post sounded fine to me, I'd really have to be biased against you to read anything bad in what you wrote. Your previous posts and my own experiences have me biased towards you, so if I'm not being objective it would be in your favor actually. I personally don't know a lot about remote viewing either, it's probably not a hugely important thing to research in detail. I was just referring to the general idea from this 2003 transcript:

A: Stop and think about the possibility that your work was known in advance and all the preparations were made in advance to make the charge of cult mean what it does today.

Q: (L) Was it done via time travel?

A: Not necessary. "Mass dreams of the future" anyone?

Q: (L) That's a book where people get progressed into the future and see the future. It's kind of like time travel in your head. (JH) Is that sort of like remote viewing?

A: Oh indeed!
Q: (L) So they can see the future, which has something to do with the Montauk project. And they obviously sought to do something about the future by adjusting the present, in a way. (JH) Do the guys in the Aviary have anything to do with it?

A: You would not believe how many are involved. Many innocently of course.