No Going Back

[Bar Kochba]

Driving to work the other day, I heard a song on the radio that brought back many memories. A lot of music does this, sparking associations with certain times in my life, as I am sure it does for many people. Anyhow, it reminded me of how different I am now. I used to be asleep, my mind solely on selfish aims which were detrimental to myself and those around me. I was a mindless automaton, oblivious to the bigger picture. I can no more go back to sleep than I can suck my thumb again. I may still be an automaton, but I am trying to change that and its the hardest work I have ever done. But to me its worth it. Even tho I cannot share my work with anyone around me, I at least have this place which I am grateful for. I used to long to be oblivious to objective reality, to go back to sleep. No more thinking that nonsense! Regardless of how much progress I can make in this life, I will continue on with my best efforts.

 

[Laura]

Amen, BK.

 

[Eongar]

Already Mourvieff said:

One who is committed to a path should be aware that this is a journey without return.

I happened to several situations in my life, things that I loved before and now I seem a waste of time. And you know you can not go back, because that's not going to fill.

No going back.

 

[Bar Kochba]

Laura, Eongar, I never knew what "no going back" meant until a few months ago. Actually, little over a year ago when I took a chance and moved my family to another state, away from all family, friends, and security. I felt it needed to happen, I had faith in my decison. And I feel life is harder but better. No matter how much I studied, I could not make positive permanent changes in my life. I always slipped back to being cynical, negative, and looked for pity from others for my situation. Nothing was ever my fault; everything happened to me to "force" me to act a certain way. But when I purposely took a major risk with faith that it was the right thing to do, my attitude gradually and permanentjy changed. Doing the work throughout this time enabled me to succeed with my aims. While I am far from being anything other than a machine, at least I have the tools to progress towards my chief aim: mastery of myself plus preperation for whatever lies ahead!

 

[Breton]

Driving to work the other day, I heard a song on the radio that brought back many memories. A lot of music does this, sparking associations with certain times in my life, as I am sure it does for many people. Anyhow, it reminded me of how different I am now. I used to be asleep, my mind solely on selfish aims which were detrimental to myself and those around me. I was a mindless automaton, oblivious to the bigger picture. I can no more go back to sleep than I can suck my thumb again. I may still be an automaton, but I am trying to change that and its the hardest work I have ever done. But to me its worth it. Even tho I cannot share my work with anyone around me, I at least have this place which I am grateful for. I used to long to be oblivious to objective reality, to go back to sleep. No more thinking that nonsense! Regardless of how much progress I can make in this life, I will continue on with my best efforts.

I feel the same way, Bar Kochba.
Thanks for writing this.

 

[no-mans-land]

Driving to work the other day, I heard a song on the radio that brought back many memories. A lot of music does this, sparking associations with certain times in my life, as I am sure it does for many people. Anyhow, it reminded me of how different I am now. I used to be asleep, my mind solely on selfish aims which were detrimental to myself and those around me. I was a mindless automaton, oblivious to the bigger picture. I can no more go back to sleep than I can suck my thumb again. I may still be an automaton, but I am trying to change that and its the hardest work I have ever done. But to me its worth it. Even tho I cannot share my work with anyone around me, I at least have this place which I am grateful for. I used to long to be oblivious to objective reality, to go back to sleep. No more thinking that nonsense! Regardless of how much progress I can make in this life, I will continue on with my best efforts.

Yes, it is hard to see that there is no way to share and to see the suffering all around makes it even harder. Everyone moans in pain in one way or another and all I can do is keep quiet and provide an open hand for those who ask while the struggle with the self reaching new heights every day.

There is no going back. Thank you for this words.

 

[Julius]

long time no nostalgia for the past awaking dreams..

you have put it into the right words.

 

[Lilou]

Everyone moans in pain in one way or another and all I can do is keep quiet and provide an open hand for those who ask while the struggle with the self reaching new heights every day.

Seeing all this pain and suffering makes it even more important to spread the word on the EE breathing! Oxygen is vital for health and healing. If we cannot impart knowledge to those still asleep, we can at least offer assistance from a health perspective. Over time, doing EE, these folks will literally become smarter and with any luck, seek the knowledge at their own pace.

I see this as a way to do the work and help others (covertly, with strategic enclosure). So for those who ask, EE may be a talking point, instead of just remaining quiet.