Out of a Stephan King Novel

[Kimber]

I don't give much time or research to dreams other than reading the forum. I had a dream that has left me
shaken and it has been over a year ago. I also have a repeating dream in which I am performing a exorcism
and it goes real bad. I would like to share the dream I had over a year ago. I have read- WWRWW. I don't
think its the dark man dream. any insight is welcome.

I 'wake' I am inside a very, very large house. I am sitting in a elaborate eighteenth century bedroom. I am taking
a meal by the fire with an older beautiful lady. She is my teacher, she is instructing me. I do not recall what we are
discussing. Then she suddenly stands and tells me its time for me to go, and gestures her hand to the wall and says -
look. I can see through the wall. Its a dark forest, it is night time. There are many people carring torches and they
are coming towards the house in all directions. Suddenly I am climbing stairs, steep stairs, its dark and narrow. And
I climb and climb. Now I am on I assume the rooftop. I am standing at the edge with someone. I know him but I don't
know him. And we look to the sky in front of us. Its pink then it changes. It becomes chaotic, churning, all colors ,
spirals. I tell myself I am seeing Creation itself, the deep, the void and it is so beautiful, I cannot describe it. I look
to the person with me. I tell him mentally, Lets jump, I want to jump into the whole of creation. He would not. And I
know if he would not than I could not either. And as I thought this I felt a solar wind, but not wind pressing upon us until
we were laying at a ninety degree angle still observing the 'whole of the void of creation' I turned to him, I had to tell
him that I would find him, that I would always find him. Then it was over , I found myself walking down steep stairs.
When I got to the bottom they led into a large entranceway/foyer with large oak double doors leading outside. I opened
the door, went down the steps to a dirt road. The sun was setting and I found myself in a desert, in front of the house
a road ran in both directions as far as I could see, a few people were gathered to the right, they were walking towards the setting sun. I looked the other direction, thinking-this is like a stephen king movie. And I am not much for following the crowd, I will go this direction, opposite of the setting sun. I woke up in a sweat with a headache. I think about this dream from time to time and I don't know why it bothers me so much.

 

[RedFox]

Hi Kimber

I think about this dream from time to time and I don't know why it bothers me so much.

The whole dreams pretty chaotic and emotionally charged....in that it packed quite a punch and left and impression.
The first thing that you might consider is that the C's say dreams are an excellent source of disinformation....this is something to keep in mind.
If a dream is emotionally charged (like this one) its usually best to look at the emotions behind the events rather than the events themselves....as they may or may not tell you more about yourself.
The crowd (presumably an angry one?) turning up and you climbing steep narrow stairs may be related to anxiety and running from an element of self (usually an emotional trauma from the past).
The pink sky becoming churning and chaotic.......pink being feminine, being hidden under chaos.....perhaps you have a negative self image regarding the feminine?

I tell myself I am seeing Creation itself, the deep, the void and it is so beautiful, I cannot describe it. I look
to the person with me. I tell him mentally, Lets jump, I want to jump into the whole of creation. He would not. And I
know if he would not than I could not either.

I do not know if it was beautiful or if perhaps your life has distorted your impression of what beauty is....this may be something to consider because the world as it stands does tend to have a corrupting/distorting influence on people.
The reference does 'void' is a little worrying in context with 'jumping into it' (it seems like giving in/giving up). Perhaps you have learnt to identify with darkness and loosing yourself in it? Instead of trying to find the 'pink sky' again (it is there under the chaos).

I had to tell him that I would find him, that I would always find him.

Perhaps you are looking for a missing element of yourself....rather than someone external???

The sun was setting and I found myself in a desert, in front of the house a road ran in both directions as far as I could see, a few people were gathered to the right, they were walking towards the setting sun. I looked the other direction, thinking-this is like a stephen king movie. And I am not much for following the crowd, I will go this direction, opposite of the setting sun. I woke up in a sweat with a headache.

What was it that reminded you of a stephen king movie??
Going the opposite way from the sun in context with the above suggests you could possibly be identifying with the darker elements of life.....

Have you read the Big 5 psychology books?? Or perhaps started doing the E-E breathing program (although I have a feeling you may want to proceed slowly with that)?? Both of these I think may help you get to the bottom of why it bothers you so. :)