This is a long post here and am trusting that I have figured some of this dream out. Had to do some deep thinking here. I don't want to impose or just make noise so I hope that it may help others as well.
Trevrizent said:
When you re-experience the experiences in the dream, do they remind you of anything in life?
Yes, struggle. Looking and working for solutions to problems. Seeking out help from others and finding exclusion from the majority. Helping oneself and those immediately around.
The setting, what does it feel like there?
The setting for the most part was dismal. Was in nature though isolated. Survival was the basic instinct. The human encounter was threatening as was the gators. It reminds me of what “may” come. At present, it reminds me of our current world affairs. It is hard to trust others though one keeps trying and giving the benefit of the doubt.
Does it remind you of anything in current life, any situation in life?
Yes it could very well portray my current life situation. In respect to that I am waiting for a change that is instigated by the PTB (i.e. the bank that holds my mortgage to sell the house I live in). Having to leave it in the first place after 11 years of working very hard to maintain it. My battle to rectify the situation and being unable to maintain my status quo. Coming to terms with all, it is what it is. Focusing on the gifts and not the loss. What may lie ahead by clearing out the old and making way for the new. Just about letting go of wishful thinking and sacred cows.
By searching for “supplies” in the dream I equate it to looking for solutions to the basic problems. Finding a possible source for supplies (answer to problems) only to be turned away in hostility. This could be my relentless search for employment that never manifest with a job offer. The work and time put into looking and applying for work only to be ignored, rejected or preyed upon by scams. Around the time of the dream I stopped looking and put the effort into my art work. This has brought some success and income.
Who is ‘my husband’ (tell me on the basis that I don’t know ‘my husband), what is ‘my husband’ like? What kind of personality? What does ‘my husband’ mean to you? What kind of person might you consider ‘my husband’ to be like?
My husband has been a source of strength, guidance and protection. He is very creative and a doer. Smart and aware. Has a handle on life. Was a medic in Vietnam and a cop for 13 years and has basic instincts of survival. Out going, kind and generous and can be very reclusive and introverted at the same time. A bit of an enigma.
What is ‘my husband’ like in your dream? What is ‘survival colony’ doing in your dream?
He was very much himself in the dream. Knowing what was needed and doing it. No talking or discussion involved. “Hey we need this lets go get it.”
Surviving. There were not many people maybe 20. We had shelter, but we needed something. There must have been food because we were on a main waterway. As water was not an issue either. We were gathered by the small boat and telling those around us we were going to find “supplies” What they were I do not recall.
What is your working, etc., relationship with ‘my husband’ like?
We worked together in the dream as we do in life. Doing what was necessary for the good of all. I did not want to be parted from him so I went on the hunt for supplies with him. He did not object. In life when we are not together for whatever reason, he always tells me to be watchful and careful.
Is there some part of you that is like ‘my husband’?
Again he may represent qualities I would like to see in myself as far as strength, guidance and protection. Knowing right away what to do in any given situation and doing it. Maybe I have them and do not see if for myself.
Ask similar questions about ‘survival colony; and another well established colony’.
The well established colony reminded me of pirate town or a settlers town. A bit unlawful, but had some organization. There were maybe 100 – 200 people that were not welcoming of strangers, even for trade. Not that we had anything for trade. Also brings up the question again of what were we looking for? Were we just scavenging. Not expecting to see people at all? Maybe this is how I view the outside world. Not very helpful and can be at times dangerous.
Positive characters are about strengths and achievements.
At the start we were positive we would find something to aid our situation. Being we were sheltered and fed for the most part.
Negative characters represent conflicts in life (personification of attitudes, beliefs, habits, etc)
The flight and fight for our lives. Not understanding why they would not help us. Probably in relation again to my financial position. Why would the bank not work with us to save our house. They would rather get us out, sell it for pennies on the dollar for a tax write off. I see the representation here of our ponerologic system first hand. Not finding work probably because of so many out of work here. And could be my credit report. Employers check that now and could use it against you as far as offering a job.
What does the ‘small fishing boat’ mean to you? How does it ‘work’? What is it used for? (ask on the basis that I know nothing about it)
The small fishing boat was an asset. Had fuel and was a means to gain supplies. Could only fit four people so only two of us went. Though again we did not bring anything for trade.
What is the small fishing boat’ like in your dream? How do you feel about it?
It was in good condition and worked. It was a means of escape as well. It was a lifeline.
Does ‘small fishing boat’ in your dream remind you of anything, any part of you, or anyone in your life? How?
It could represent our car. The only means of reaching the outside world physically. Means of transport to earn a living, getting food, clothing, etc. It is an extension cord, plugged into the world.
Ask similar questions about ‘docked boat; food and supplies; blocked off inlet; grasslands; mud wall; waterline; large boulders; alligators (small and two large); and larger fishing boat that was black’.
The blocked off inlet represented a few things. Confinement, containment of the water or protection for the larger colony. It seemed like it was fresh. Gators live in fresh water environment. So it could have been their drinking water supply.
The mud wall was a boundary mark, unobtainable. Could be representing employment in my area. Right above the mud wall was a building, civilization and a way out of the present danger. But again was unobtainable.
The alligators (gators) were trouble. Danger of life and represents death. Worse then the humans. And a terrible death at that. It is the ultimate predator. An eating machine with no conscious of the prey they eat. Yet I used one of them as a way to make my escape. Using the smaller manageable gator and feeding it to the other two gators, although very risky, it worked. I was then able to swim to the shore where my strength, guidance and protection awaited. And even though were then back to the humans chasing us we were far enough ahead of them to make a get away. I can face my/the predators. Use what is at hand and overcome if used correctly.
Water is about emotions and spirit of life
It was all around. Life is all around me and that life is DCM. Have to work on those emotions that may be still inside. Even if I say to myself, its all going to work out in the end. It is very hard to lose what one has worked hard for. I just do not want to dwell there. So I focus on the present gifts of my situation instead. Though maybe I still need to “feel” this loss. It may not come until I have to move out. Not sure.
The action, events in the dream, what do they remind you of in your waking life?
Not having outside responsibilities in the form of employment are giving me the time to work on myself. Reading and meditating. Enjoying the nature around me. The time with my family. The chance to create an inventory of art so I could apply to craft & art shows. Earn a self supporting income. This has been working to some extent and we are getting by. Just not enough to support the house. And having the realization that it may not bring in any income at all. And when I really start to think about leaving my home, I see it as loss. This hurts. Thought this house was our retirement and I have had to change the vision. So the future has a huge uncertainty. Yet some how I know that it will be ok, whatever the turn out. Adapt and adjust to the things on hand. Use what I can to survive. We just do not know what our future holds. To dwell on the possibilities are a waste of energy. So I look at the present, see what I can do now. Look within and find the strength and inner guidance. It is all a matter of perspective, right? What counts is what we do with it. All in all, just need to know that I have within me the ability, with a lot of work, that what is important is the here and now. Working on integrating myself, diet and EE. I have to trust this.
Think about the dream as you go through the day, and test insights and ideas gained. Understand obvious metaphors. Keep using language and images of dream whenever possible. Interpretations may spring to light. String descriptions together to bridge dream experience to any situation in life. (Ref: adapted from Living Your Dreams by Gayle Delaney)
This may help, or not.
It did and thank you that is why it took so long for me to reply. And I am trusting, that I am on a right track here with my thinking. And why I ask for any input in the first place. This could also be all nonsense and was just a dream, though I do not think so. It feels like it comes from the subconcsious. Needed a mirror and again thank you for any input. I am also trusting that this is not just noise and can be constructive and not just a selfish endeavor. Please point this out anyone that feels that this is the case.
