Psychopathic dial cranked to maximum

[Tarri]

This topic is nothing new to those on the forum. But for the sake of my dealing with this I need to speak what I see and feel out loud. There is no one personally here to speak to.
I know and understand that knowledge is protection. If it was not I would not be writing here, I would have gone mad long ago.
I find it more and more difficult to get on the sott.net sight to read what is happening. I am afraid. Not the out of control, or deer in the head lights fear. The ice down the spine. The feeling of waking up on the other side of a television broadcasting the outer limits.
It seems these last months have driven the psychopathic side into a frenzy. I remember the C's warning us to expect this. But reading it in black and white. I am driven to nausea with the awareness of what is happening to this once beautiful planet and the life upon and within her.
I know I must sound depressed. And I am in that which cannot be fought off. But I am only wanting to voice this out. To clear this from my shaken spirit.

Now I wish to gather each one of us, our Friends and family and in spirit hold firm to one another and to our intent and desire to break from this trap. It is coming to the wire, which is why things have gone so insane. I feel, that if we were not accomplishing our goal, it would be business as usual out there. The psychopaths are running scared. We, stopped running.
Bless all of you on this made up Holiday. Friendship, family, compassion, love, laughter, and the confort of our non-human loved ones.
This is what we have waited for, to quote the C's. Love to all. Tarri

 

[Ruth]

I definately understand. Occassionally, I've felt almost like the 'eye of Sauron' (evil) swinging round to put me under it's gaze. That's the closest simile I can think of! So, you'll have to forgive me for my dramatics. Sadly there are many people in the world - including family members who do not wish to embrace any form of knowledge and intelligence. Like the slowly boiling frogs who aren't aware that this is what's happening to them. And, what's worse they don't want to wake up and find out.

 

[3DStudent]

I don't feel the Eye of Sauron. But maybe it hasn't quite hit me yet. I think I'm a bit more letting it loose, within strategic enclosure limits. Because what really is there left to lose? They've got most of our freedoms, but not our freewill. I'm thankful for this seeming last Holiday. Take care all.

 

[Meg]

Hi Tarri,

The world today is a shocking place. Every category on SOTT seems to move quickly day to day as things are ramping up on the planet. I think the struggle you have is common. It can be difficult to see the world as it is. When psychopaths run the show, it can be scary and seeing it should nauseate, disgust and shock us. Do your best to fight through those fears and keep reading SOTT. There are millions of readers who feel the same way you do. Onward and upward. :)

How's your practice with Eiriu-Eolas, by the way? Are you doing it regularly?

 

[nicklebleu]

Hi Tarri,

I think I know what you are talking about - Laura calls that the "Terror of our situation", because once you stop filling in the gaps and soften the harsh realities, which we occasionally glimpse in our semi-sleeping state - that's when it hits you! That's when you start to realise the true extent and the sheer madness of what we're faced with.

And as you described, it's spine chilling, rather than out of control fear. How to handle it? Not entirely sure. I fluctuate between a few different states: Terror, as described above - Denial: I'm imagining things - Depression: This is so bad that we won't be able to get ourselves out of this - Fear: This is going to kill me - Hope: There are more similarly thinking people around than I realized- Resistance: I'd rather die than submit - and dissociation: I need a vacation from this, this is unbearable.

I think the best course of action is to stay in the present and not to project too far into the future. That doesn't mean that we should not prepare ourselves for future problems, it's more a state of mind. I have tendencies to look back to the past - either negatively towards all mistakes I made, or overly painting things in a nice light and wishing these things back. Similar with the future.

For me trying to stay in the presence is key, I think, because the past is gone, nothing can be done about it anymore, and the future is not here yet, no use getting worked up into a frenzie when I don't know where I'll end up. But here and now I can do something, maybe only something small, but nevertheless something: just something little that makes those around maybe a little bit more relaxed, healthier, more informed or whatever.

I also have been trying the Stoic approach, as in getting a certain "emotional distance" from what's happening around me, without shutting down my empathy. It's a fine line and not easily done, but I'm working on it.

I also have tried to think about death more often and to come to terms with this fact, and it is a strangely liberating thing- a bit along the lines of the Stoics: our body is just a lump of clay and a quart of blood - what's the fuss about it? What counts is the soul!

Not sure if I was able to get across what I meant, and if that is any help to you.

 

[sToRmR1dR]

Hi Tarri

"Relax and enjoy the show" and do EE regularly as Menrva suggested. ;)

 

[loreta]

If we are in shock of what we are seeing it is a good sign. That means that we see and try to understand and feel. What helps me is my anger of what I see. And my sadness. The horror would be not to feel anything, or get used to what is happening. No way. Sometimes I feel desperate so I take a good book and try to calm. Books are good friends that help you to relativise and that console you very well. You are not alone. And I have the sensation that this situation will become worst and worst... Are you following the protocole of Iodine? Me too if it not were of this forum I would feel really, really lost. We are really lucky to be part of this forum.