Pupil size. what does it mean?

[davey72]

I have wondered this for many years. Does pupil size have any relation to being exposed to another density? Such as, when a person is on a hallucinogenic. i was planning on putting the question here on the forum for a few days now, and awoke this morning with one pupil bigger than the other. I instantly felt that my eyes were not normal. i feel fine , except that as soon as i got up i noticed that it was hard to (not sure how to explain it) it was hard to focus on things, almost like i was about to hallucinate. I have also wondered about the question itself, as i spent many years addicted to opiates, and i always felt like they made me feel more "real". that is how i used to think of it. As if it grounds me into the physical body i am in so that i am better able to deal with physicallity. opiates also reduce pupil size, as well when in withdrawal ones pupils become quite dilated. It is equally hard to see sometimes. This is a lot worse though. I would not have known, but a friend spoke to me this morning, and told me there was something odd about my eyes, and said that one pupil was larger than the other. I took a sleeping pill last night, that i am a little ashamed to admit. it was atenolol chlorthal. a beta blocker, diuretic combo used for prescribed for sleep. So it is noticable, as well. I am kinda worried about it, but i am hoping that i just need to flush it out of my system. That said, i am gonna grab some water.

 

[anart]

I have wondered this for many years. Does pupil size have any relation to being exposed to another density? Such as, when a person is on a hallucinogenic. i was planning on putting the question here on the forum for a few days now, and awoke this morning with one pupil bigger than the other. I instantly felt that my eyes were not normal. i feel fine , except that as soon as i got up i noticed that it was hard to (not sure how to explain it) it was hard to focus on things, almost like i was about to hallucinate. I have also wondered about the question itself, as i spent many years addicted to opiates, and i always felt like they made me feel more "real". that is how i used to think of it. As if it grounds me into the physical body i am in so that i am better able to deal with physicallity.

No, opiates do not make you more 'real'. Full stop.

opiates also reduce pupil size, as well when in withdrawal ones pupils become quite dilated. It is equally hard to see sometimes. This is a lot worse though. I would not have known, but a friend spoke to me this morning, and told me there was something odd about my eyes, and said that one pupil was larger than the other. I took a sleeping pill last night, that i am a little ashamed to admit. it was atenolol chlorthal. a beta blocker, diuretic combo used for prescribed for sleep. So it is noticable, as well. I am kinda worried about it, but i am hoping that i just need to flush it out of my system. That said, i am gonna grab some water.

Davey, you've been asked in four threads now why your posting has been so bizarre lately and you've not responded to any of the questions. You have consistently been responding to threads that are four of five years old as if they were posted yesterday. The question at this point is, "are you using drugs again, and, if so, can you please refrain from posting on this forum when you do so?"

 

[Alana]

Davey, I don't know if you wrote an update someplace else and I missed it, but I wonder how your treatment went? Are you out of the facility now? Did you find a job?

From what you wrote, it sounds like you have trouble sleeping. If that's the case, then using melatonin would be a much safer, cheaper and healthier alternative to help you sleep than prescribed sleeping pills.

Also, like anart, I too wondered whether you started using again, due to your recent behavior on the forum.

 

[Palinurus]

Hi Davey72,

Have a look here for more info on this: _http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anisocoria

From what I understand about it, you may want some medic to have a look at it just to be on the safe side with this when it doesn't vanish soon.

Hope this helps you out a bit. Take care!

 

[davey72]

Hello. I haven't seen the other questions. sorry. I am pretty embarrased about it, but ya i was kinda using sporadically again. I got through treatment. It was great I was sober for five months, but i let things happen that i shouldn't have. It doesn't really matter what the situations were, because it always boils down to it being my own fault. I made these decisions. I was just realizing the extent of everything i have been doing for the last couple months the other day. I was kinda shocked at myself that i could lie to myself so well, even after what i went through. I guess i sort of went back to sleep. It was just the other day that i sort of had a little revelation. I made a mental block of these thoughts that told me what i was doing was ok. the justification. I imagined it, and everytime these thoughts creep up i reinforce it.
I fell like i am back, and i am trying to eat better again,etc. It hasn't been that long though. I just wanted to be honest about it, as i think i owe it to you if i was making strange posts. I didn't realize it until i just read this. I am back on track, but at least i am a lot farther ahead than where i started from.
As for the post, Anart. I do know that it doesn't make you more real. That was just how it would always feel. It is hard to explain, but i always wondered if it had to do with pupil size, but more so if pupil size has anything to do with hallucinations, or seeing behind the veil, etc. Or is it just a side effect that all hallucinogens have in common?
When i had that revelation, it was about a half hour later, and i got really sick. I have been extremely ill for the last few days, only starting to feel better yesterday. It was like extreme flu symptoms. I was also in an extreme amount of pain. I couldn't understand where it came from. I didn't sleep much , and yesterday i was at the drs and he gave me a prescription to sleep. it wasn't a mood altering drug, and i wanted to sleep, so i just took one, and got rid of the rest. It put me to sleep, but awoke with the site problem. I am thinking now that i just needed to flush it from my system, as i have been drinking lots of water, and seem to be getting better.
Alana, I did find a job, but some strange things happened. perhaps i will tell the whole sorted story in the swamp soon. I am also having a lot of pain issues.
Thank you both. If other people are noticing on the forum, then obviously things are pretty bad. I think i need some pipe breathing, and POTS.
Again, i am really sorry. I hope one day soon to be able to caste myself in a better light.