Recent interesting experiences

[Oxajil]

Hey All,

I've had some interesting experiences just recently. Any comments are welcome.

- First experience:

Okay so, my little brother was out and as time went by, he still was away. It isn't something he would do, and he didn't really make clear where he went, which he normally does. (In the end, my dad knew where he was, but he forgot) So at some point I got quite worried, ...and I started to look out of my window, to the sky (yes, sorry if this is too detailed!). If I like really want to talk to DCM directly, I look up to the sky, have always done that. And I asked DCM, or God, to please take care of my little brother and to protect him, and that it was okay to use the energy spent in watching us on looking out for him. (Of course it doesn't mean that energy is being spent that way, but that is how I spoke to Him/Her, as it goes naturally for me.)

Then this wave of calmness came over me. Like my stress and worries were being calmed down by this wave, they reduced. The message was to not worry. It was... something I haven't experienced before. And so then I turned to my laptop and I was like, okay what does this mean... it could be anything you know. But I said, okay, I won't worry, atleast not as much as I did.

And some hours later my little brother came home, safe.

- Second experience:

This is another day, pretty recently. My head started to hurt, I think it was the water... so anyway, the pain was not nice. And I observed that my mood wasn't really positive either. I just was not having the right attitude, blaming others, being a bit angry about the little things, being really sad at the same time etc. and I just feeel!! that some part of me was saying to myself; you know you don't have to behave like that. I didn't understand, because the day started good, I felt great. I didn't have a headache then though, so I thought that the headache must be it.

I felt like crap, ...I had to take a break. So I went to take a shower, which is probably one of the most popular places where one can be alone and in peace when you're living with others, that is if you don't feel comfortable going outside as in my case. So I wanted to be on the same level with myself, and with that I mean, no more fooling around you know. Tell me how you feel, what is going on inside of you, I asked this to myself. And I started to cry a bit... yes. I said that my head really hurts, that I've been thinking about other possible reasons why I behaved like that, and that my headache was the most probable reason behind all of it. Then I switched to my observer I/advice giving I/Work I, how you want to call it, and my face was straight again, kind, I told myself that the headache will go away, that it's okay, I went through the other possible reasons and talked about how there is no need to be worried about them, and I also strengthened/encouraged my Will. Then I switched back to my sad self, my face changed as well (to being a bit sad again, but hopeful this time), and I said "okay..." Then I came back to "myself". When I got out of the shower, the headache was gone and I felt good. I think the difference between this and Multiple Personality Disorder is that I was in control, those two I's were me in a big way. I was observing, making sure everything goes well, at the same time controlling them too and most importantly (I think) letting them/me Be.

It was confronting myself in an open and clear way. Don't get me wrong, when I stepped in the shower, I didn't think "I'm gonna do this", I actually just went to have some time for myself and just relax of all the troubles, this "exercise" came to me naturally. And to the readers, some thoughts might come up like "that sounds really stupid, or crazy or whatever", but hey, it got rid of my headache and it cheered me up, so I don't mind you know. I think it's a good thing. I also wasn't just playing games, or acting, it all went naturally and it was pretty serious. I guess in some way, it is play, because it's fun to discover ways to contact yourself.

You could say that perhaps, I was letting out my inner child in a safe and nice environment, where no one could bother me and where I spoke to my inner child directly, and let her speak out too. What I've been doing before, was ignoring the headache and continuing what I did. In other words, ignoring my feelings of hurt and pain.

Don't know what to say, it's something I've experienced, my first time and it kind of reminds me of this experience: http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=12837.msg121245#msg121245

But the difference was that there was no ''voice'' or another person etc., it was me. I was pulling the strings, and I was comforting myself.

From this I learned : Give yourself the attention, the advice, love and understanding you would give to someone else here on the forum if they would have been going through the same as you are at that moment. Take time to listen to yourself, and to be there for yourself.
And I know, we can't always have the time to be alone, and do this, but if you can, I think it might be interesting.

As always, I could be wrong.

 

[Clarekav]

From this I learned : Give yourself the attention, the advice, love and understanding you would give to someone else here on the forum if they would have been going through the same as you are at that moment. Take time to listen to yourself, and to be there for yourself.
And I know, we can't always have the time to be alone, and do this, but if you can, I think it might be interesting.

I agree, We need to give ourselves time to think and understand when we are feeling low which can be hard to do with the stressful way of modern life.
I find that focusing to much on how other people expect you to behave or expect you to feel doesn't work, causes more stress to you and can be draining.
For example when you feeling down and someone else is in a great mood comes along saying you should be happy it is a beautiful day or something like that, because to them they see no reason to feel sad and so they expect you not to be sad either.
In following what they want I think ignores how we really feel and eventually those feelings are going to come knocking, probably more intense than before.

It sounds that you were worried for your brother in the 1st experience which I think is natural especially when it comes to family.
I'm finding with my own family I have to give them more trust, that they will be safe and can take care of themselves, although my family are now adults.
I don't know if your brother is a child or teenager but I understand with children it can be harder to trust them to be okay and very worrying should something happen.

For me I found with the EE programme that my worry over family is easing and I'm able to enjoy being with them without the fear of what will happen next.
The programme has also started to help me realise things are okay when I look at the sad and tragic things happening in the world.
I say to myself the Divine Cosmic Mind knows what it is doing, I feel so calm and at ease which really helps in getting through the depressing feelings I can get.

 

[Oxajil]

I agree, We need to give ourselves time to think and understand when we are feeling low which can be hard to do with the stressful way of modern life.
I find that focusing to much on how other people expect you to behave or expect you to feel doesn't work, causes more stress to you and can be draining.
For example when you feeling down and someone else is in a great mood comes along saying you should be happy it is a beautiful day or something like that, because to them they see no reason to feel sad and so they expect you not to be sad either.
In following what they want I think ignores how we really feel and eventually those feelings are going to come knocking, probably more intense than before.

Yes, I agree. Haven't thought about it like that before.

It sounds that you were worried for your brother in the 1st experience which I think is natural especially when it comes to family.
I'm finding with my own family I have to give them more trust, that they will be safe and can take care of themselves, although my family are now adults.
I don't know if your brother is a child or teenager but I understand with children it can be harder to trust them to be okay and very worrying should something happen.

Yep he's a teenager, hopefully my worries will reduce as I continue, perhaps it is natural.

For me I found with the EE programme that my worry over family is easing and I'm able to enjoy being with them without the fear of what will happen next.
The programme has also started to help me realise things are okay when I look at the sad and tragic things happening in the world.
I say to myself the Divine Cosmic Mind knows what it is doing, I feel so calm and at ease which really helps in getting through the depressing feelings I can get.

I'm very happy to hear that, it's great how EE has been giving us so many benefits, Thank you for your post Clarekav!

 

[Clarekav]

Teenagers go through many changes, physical, hormonal, social etc. At these times they are finding their own way through life and trying
to figure out who to be (Which I think many of us still don't know).I suppose as they grow this leads them to do things they might not of done
before and of course this can leave those around them frustrated and concerned over their actions. They try to find more independence in
themselves which I think is why some can be private in what they are up to and won't tell anyone.
Or I could be wrong I'm no expert with teenagers but it's just a thought.

 

[Oxajil]

Teenagers go through many changes, physical, hormonal, social etc. At these times they are finding their own way through life and trying
to figure out who to be (Which I think many of us still don't know).I suppose as they grow this leads them to do things they might not of done
before and of course this can leave those around them frustrated and concerned over their actions. They try to find more independence in
themselves which I think is why some can be private in what they are up to and won't tell anyone.
Or I could be wrong I'm no expert with teenagers but it's just a thought.

Yes true, but I have a pretty good bond with him, which is also why he mostly tells me what he has done and how he feels about it etc. he is indeed trying to find more independence, he's doing things on his own and doing some discovering. And I'm mostly there as someone he can talk to whenever he wants, but he's quite a talker himself, so talking hasn't been much of a problem. And it's nice i think for him to have someone he can talk to who doesn't judge and supports him, which most parents are almost unable to do.

So when he came back, he came to my room himself and started to talk in excitement about what he did etc.
That's why I was worried, because he usually tells, at least someone, where he goes, even might lie if he has to, and this time he went without saying anything, or so we thought, cause he did tell my dad, but my daddydads forgot.

 

[Clarekav]

Yes true, but I have a pretty good bond with him, which is also why he mostly tells me what he has done and how he feels about it etc. he is indeed trying to find more independence, he's doing things on his own and doing some discovering. And I'm mostly there as someone he can talk to whenever he wants, but he's quite a talker himself, so talking hasn't been much of a problem. And it's nice i think for him to have someone he can talk to who doesn't judge and supports him, which most parents are almost unable to do.

So when he came back, he came to my room himself and started to talk in excitement about what he did etc.
That's why I was worried, because he usually tells, at least someone, where he goes, even might lie if he has to, and this time he went without saying anything, or so we thought, cause he did tell my dad, but my daddydads forgot.

It's good that you can be there for your brother when he needs to talk and help him along as he grows up. It is always nice to have families with people who do listen and support without judgement which seems to be rare in some modern families.