Hi everybody,
there's a 'person' who keeps appearing in my dreams. He looks like someone from my school times, though I was never friends with him. He stood out and was known for his out-of-the-box thinking, deeply intelligent, and I remember we were once discussing something in class and he raised very important questions and urged others to talk up as well, but nobody did. I wanted to, but back then I was very insecure and felt I could not say anything valuable. He once lent me a book from Franz Bardon and I did read it, but at the time could not relate to it, which I told him when giving him back the book, and he had that look in his eyes, which I'd today describe as the seeker who had hoped that another would wake up to a certain topic and is then disappointed that the other cannot see. But that was all, he didn't say anything, just had that look and it has stayed with me till today. I have always wondered what's become of him, because unfortunately he was for a long time into substance abuse.
Over the years I've been dreaming about this person many times. Mostly it's about us getting together as a couple. It has morphed over the years from bodycentric and ponerized partriarchal flavour to more spiritual and warm and loving. I do tend to think that he's representing my 'seeker side', as well as qualities I yet need to live/develop.
But there's one aspect of these dreams that's interesting: in one dream he appeared as somebody extremely sensitive to environment, food, cosmetics, and it even had the touch of 'him' being too fragile for this world, as in, his physical system is so delicate and alien to this world, and his attitudes concerning everything to have a potential toxicicity seemed too exaggerated and seemed to make a normal, healthy attitude towards life and the world impossible.
In many other and more recent dreams (including the last twelve months) the dreams have mostly been about me being on my Way and having made the right decisions, while I'm trying to save him, because he's still into partying and drugs and he looks dangerously worn out. Just today I had another dream, and he was still caught in his old toxic ways and he was even injecting himself with some substance, some drug. In other dreams there were a few instances where I actually dragged him out of the party room, but he was not "there", he didn't get it, and I saw that I couldn't force him.
Surely, this dream must be about me. If he represents to me "a highly intelligent seeker of truth", as it seems to me, then it could be that in those dreams, the person who's me is maybe the true or truer me, and he would be the old me, still entangled in old dynamics. So my true I wants to save him (me), to help him (me), because there still is lots of unused potential going wasted.
The only thing I can come up with concerning "his" drug use would be my candida problem, but I've started another detox cycle already. Last year I even attained a state of physical health that was awesome: by cutting out all food sources for the candida I had reached a state of well-being I hadn't yet known. Things went downhill once my 5-htp run out, and in my state it's not allowed to use it, I had only been lucky that the parcels containing them went unnoticed. But sleeping in the dark has improved things a lot and I should be able to handle the cravings now.
If you have any further insights or thoughts on these dreams, I'd be glad for your input. Otherwise, consider it simply a sharing.
there's a 'person' who keeps appearing in my dreams. He looks like someone from my school times, though I was never friends with him. He stood out and was known for his out-of-the-box thinking, deeply intelligent, and I remember we were once discussing something in class and he raised very important questions and urged others to talk up as well, but nobody did. I wanted to, but back then I was very insecure and felt I could not say anything valuable. He once lent me a book from Franz Bardon and I did read it, but at the time could not relate to it, which I told him when giving him back the book, and he had that look in his eyes, which I'd today describe as the seeker who had hoped that another would wake up to a certain topic and is then disappointed that the other cannot see. But that was all, he didn't say anything, just had that look and it has stayed with me till today. I have always wondered what's become of him, because unfortunately he was for a long time into substance abuse.
Over the years I've been dreaming about this person many times. Mostly it's about us getting together as a couple. It has morphed over the years from bodycentric and ponerized partriarchal flavour to more spiritual and warm and loving. I do tend to think that he's representing my 'seeker side', as well as qualities I yet need to live/develop.
But there's one aspect of these dreams that's interesting: in one dream he appeared as somebody extremely sensitive to environment, food, cosmetics, and it even had the touch of 'him' being too fragile for this world, as in, his physical system is so delicate and alien to this world, and his attitudes concerning everything to have a potential toxicicity seemed too exaggerated and seemed to make a normal, healthy attitude towards life and the world impossible.
In many other and more recent dreams (including the last twelve months) the dreams have mostly been about me being on my Way and having made the right decisions, while I'm trying to save him, because he's still into partying and drugs and he looks dangerously worn out. Just today I had another dream, and he was still caught in his old toxic ways and he was even injecting himself with some substance, some drug. In other dreams there were a few instances where I actually dragged him out of the party room, but he was not "there", he didn't get it, and I saw that I couldn't force him.
Surely, this dream must be about me. If he represents to me "a highly intelligent seeker of truth", as it seems to me, then it could be that in those dreams, the person who's me is maybe the true or truer me, and he would be the old me, still entangled in old dynamics. So my true I wants to save him (me), to help him (me), because there still is lots of unused potential going wasted.
The only thing I can come up with concerning "his" drug use would be my candida problem, but I've started another detox cycle already. Last year I even attained a state of physical health that was awesome: by cutting out all food sources for the candida I had reached a state of well-being I hadn't yet known. Things went downhill once my 5-htp run out, and in my state it's not allowed to use it, I had only been lucky that the parcels containing them went unnoticed. But sleeping in the dark has improved things a lot and I should be able to handle the cravings now.
If you have any further insights or thoughts on these dreams, I'd be glad for your input. Otherwise, consider it simply a sharing.
