At first and because you do not know a lot about me, I would like to explain how dreams have been important in my life twenty years ago approximately, before have "forgotten".
I was a teenager when I started to have interests in dreams and their significations. No book, just introspection. Because I lived in a little village in mountains, I was happy, without specific problems, with a lot of questions but perhaps not the desire to really know yet.
When I was 21 years old, after my 2nd child was born, I could have approximately 15 sessions of relaxation. My "sensei" used to encourage me because it seemed I could do a lot in this way. I started to read some "specific" books like "Autobiography d'un yogi" [(Autobiography of a yogi), Paramahansa Yogananda - Adyar Editions - 11st edition - 1989] and also a book about Edgar Cayce and the reincarnation, between some others. Following this period, big troubles in my life totally changed this one. Everything was modified in the two years after my sessions of relaxation (without any report). At this moment, I bought several books to explain my dreams, and I had learn to myself to wake-up at the end of each dream, write it (I always had paper and pencil just neer the bed), and go back to sleep. I still have some of this papers today, and sometimes I read them again, but not too often...
During this period I also lived others manifestations but it is not the place here to talk about it. Go back to the dreams to inform you I had forget the beautiful use explained above, only three years after. Little by little, a new life again, almost everything changed, for twice. During the first one, I used to dream but I did not write them or try to explain them anymore. Worse, during the second one, I did not remember my dreams at all! At least 6 or 7 years without remember any dream! And, some days ago, on the 09.23.2011, I could remember one dream and write it. And a second one, on the 09.26.2011. I also could write it. And the third one was on the last night. Do you know what? I made my first complete session of eiriu-eolas on yesterday... ;)
In the same time, just to let you know where I am in my readings, I read the three tomes of "The Wave" (by waiting for with a lot of happiness the fourth in French) and I am exploring "Gnosis" T.1, Boris Mouravieff (I prefer read it slowly to experiment in the same time) and I also am reading "The Secret history of the World", the famous, even if I already read some of its contents through articles on Sott. :/ I also am sorry for my simple or bad use of the English language, I practice...)
Now, about this last dream:
The weather was grey and heavy, it was not so hot outside, but we did not looked be affected. The beach was beautiful, lined with small dunes and big rocks here and there. Some little groups composed by 2 to 5 people were talking or walking on the beach. I thought we were in the evening, but I was not sure, maybe the atmosphere was breathing me this sensation. However, the sky was down, grey and threatening without noise or move. The clouds seemed suspended in the time, like immovable. Dark grey clouds on average grey sky. The sea was itself dark offering some of its rollers on the bank...
We were a little group composed by my husband, a friend of him and me. We were talking about I do not know what exactly but it did not seem bad, when my husband and myself plunged head the first one in the sea (or in the ocean, nothing can help me to know where we were). Rather surprising thing, going out from the sea, our friend told us that we had dived totally naked! And I was able to visualise the scene, I mean, see us from back diving totally naked with our buttocks in the air! This seemed totally extravagant to me. Like something not possible, but I was seeing it!
Let's go now on what happened during my immersion: When I met the water during my dive, I was immediatly under the water following in my swim the curve of the sea bed, very close from the sand, enough to know it was there. It was very dark and I was alone. I knew I was alone in front of this unlimitedness, it was me and the sea, face to face. I realised at this moment I could not raise up my head. I had this feeeling to be stucked on the bottom with the growing fear of not being able to appear and by extension, not be able to live! After a moment, which could be the eternity or a breath, I was able to command the top of my body to raise up so printing an orientation which, allied to a rather fluid and quiet swimming gave me the opportunity to get back to the surface and join our friend, and my husband who came out of the water too.
What am I thinking about this dream?
The sea represents my I inside (I hope this is correct...) and maybe something like a "travel" is coming for me and my husband in the same time but not together, of course, it is about our I. This depth seems scary me, and about my life itself because I am afraid to not be able to breath anymore! Like if I was afraid to not be able to come back to the light after have seen my darkness. The outcome of the dream lets think to me that we shall return there. But maybe I missed something, or maybe I am totally wrong except I cannot explain this dream on another way at this time.
Has anybody an idea? :)
I was a teenager when I started to have interests in dreams and their significations. No book, just introspection. Because I lived in a little village in mountains, I was happy, without specific problems, with a lot of questions but perhaps not the desire to really know yet.
When I was 21 years old, after my 2nd child was born, I could have approximately 15 sessions of relaxation. My "sensei" used to encourage me because it seemed I could do a lot in this way. I started to read some "specific" books like "Autobiography d'un yogi" [(Autobiography of a yogi), Paramahansa Yogananda - Adyar Editions - 11st edition - 1989] and also a book about Edgar Cayce and the reincarnation, between some others. Following this period, big troubles in my life totally changed this one. Everything was modified in the two years after my sessions of relaxation (without any report). At this moment, I bought several books to explain my dreams, and I had learn to myself to wake-up at the end of each dream, write it (I always had paper and pencil just neer the bed), and go back to sleep. I still have some of this papers today, and sometimes I read them again, but not too often...
During this period I also lived others manifestations but it is not the place here to talk about it. Go back to the dreams to inform you I had forget the beautiful use explained above, only three years after. Little by little, a new life again, almost everything changed, for twice. During the first one, I used to dream but I did not write them or try to explain them anymore. Worse, during the second one, I did not remember my dreams at all! At least 6 or 7 years without remember any dream! And, some days ago, on the 09.23.2011, I could remember one dream and write it. And a second one, on the 09.26.2011. I also could write it. And the third one was on the last night. Do you know what? I made my first complete session of eiriu-eolas on yesterday... ;)
In the same time, just to let you know where I am in my readings, I read the three tomes of "The Wave" (by waiting for with a lot of happiness the fourth in French) and I am exploring "Gnosis" T.1, Boris Mouravieff (I prefer read it slowly to experiment in the same time) and I also am reading "The Secret history of the World", the famous, even if I already read some of its contents through articles on Sott. :/ I also am sorry for my simple or bad use of the English language, I practice...)
Now, about this last dream:
The weather was grey and heavy, it was not so hot outside, but we did not looked be affected. The beach was beautiful, lined with small dunes and big rocks here and there. Some little groups composed by 2 to 5 people were talking or walking on the beach. I thought we were in the evening, but I was not sure, maybe the atmosphere was breathing me this sensation. However, the sky was down, grey and threatening without noise or move. The clouds seemed suspended in the time, like immovable. Dark grey clouds on average grey sky. The sea was itself dark offering some of its rollers on the bank...
We were a little group composed by my husband, a friend of him and me. We were talking about I do not know what exactly but it did not seem bad, when my husband and myself plunged head the first one in the sea (or in the ocean, nothing can help me to know where we were). Rather surprising thing, going out from the sea, our friend told us that we had dived totally naked! And I was able to visualise the scene, I mean, see us from back diving totally naked with our buttocks in the air! This seemed totally extravagant to me. Like something not possible, but I was seeing it!
Let's go now on what happened during my immersion: When I met the water during my dive, I was immediatly under the water following in my swim the curve of the sea bed, very close from the sand, enough to know it was there. It was very dark and I was alone. I knew I was alone in front of this unlimitedness, it was me and the sea, face to face. I realised at this moment I could not raise up my head. I had this feeeling to be stucked on the bottom with the growing fear of not being able to appear and by extension, not be able to live! After a moment, which could be the eternity or a breath, I was able to command the top of my body to raise up so printing an orientation which, allied to a rather fluid and quiet swimming gave me the opportunity to get back to the surface and join our friend, and my husband who came out of the water too.
What am I thinking about this dream?
The sea represents my I inside (I hope this is correct...) and maybe something like a "travel" is coming for me and my husband in the same time but not together, of course, it is about our I. This depth seems scary me, and about my life itself because I am afraid to not be able to breath anymore! Like if I was afraid to not be able to come back to the light after have seen my darkness. The outcome of the dream lets think to me that we shall return there. But maybe I missed something, or maybe I am totally wrong except I cannot explain this dream on another way at this time.
Has anybody an idea? :)
