realitybugll
Jedi Council Member
Hi guys. I have been wondering about this thing in my child hood sporadically since I can remember. I have tried to research with the internet but have not found a solution to what I experienced.
When I was young I could "see the walls." That is how I use to describe it to my family and friends. My brother (same age as me) "saw the walls too."
This ability dissipated slowly until probably around age 10 I realized the ability was gone. I have tried to reproduce it many times but to no avail.
Basically whenever it was time for bed, I would get into bed, the light would be dim or off, and in the dark pixilated space of the walls, I would watch many different things. Battles/wars/images/scenery/people... many different things.
THIS WAS WITH MY EYES OPEN. I could close my eyes and this would "vivify" the images but otherwise I could keep my eyes open and just look any of the surrounding walls to get a pretty good "picture".
I've read this is like hypnotic imagery. So maybe I had it very severe? I have many memories of trying to "shut" out the images but not being able too so I could go to sleep. Along with this I would also see scary things on the walls (witches) or repetitive haunting by similar imagery.
A lot of times I could manipulate kind-of what I wanted to see but I never could get full control. I was like a whole world I would be looking into. Or I'm not sure how to describe it... moving pictures etc. moving landscapes. I would be immersed into the "walls" or the images when I closed my eyes, a lot more intense than just "viewing".
By far the most common theme was this black/brown sludge/ plague that would overcome whole cities and overcome people turning them into zombies and turning the buildings all ground. millions of people would be affected and there was no way to escape it. I would watch this same thing a lot. Also there were these giants (rainbow men i what I called them) who were the good guys. What I find interesting is that both me and my brother remember watching/ being involved in this same story-line, though it is pretty hard to recall now.
I "saw the walls" like i described every single night. like it was part of my sleep and I accepted it.
What frustrates me is I have totally lost this ability of seeing hypnotic images. No matter how long I law in bed or mediate I will not consciously see imagery like I use to. It's not that I would want to--I just find it surprising and weird. All I see is a void/black. unconsciously sometimes I will go into dream/day-dreaming states maybe similar to hypnotic imagery because I will come out of it consciously with a certain image or impression... but that is all for the most part.
Any comments are appreciated :)
sorry this is quite long--but I would like to put it to rest or at least find someone who gets what I am saying... Also related: what is visualization / "seeing in your mind"? I have always thought I can't visualize because I remember when I was younger--like I described I could. now all i see is black or solid colors (maybe patterns) but that is it.
When I was young I could "see the walls." That is how I use to describe it to my family and friends. My brother (same age as me) "saw the walls too."
This ability dissipated slowly until probably around age 10 I realized the ability was gone. I have tried to reproduce it many times but to no avail.
Basically whenever it was time for bed, I would get into bed, the light would be dim or off, and in the dark pixilated space of the walls, I would watch many different things. Battles/wars/images/scenery/people... many different things.
THIS WAS WITH MY EYES OPEN. I could close my eyes and this would "vivify" the images but otherwise I could keep my eyes open and just look any of the surrounding walls to get a pretty good "picture".
I've read this is like hypnotic imagery. So maybe I had it very severe? I have many memories of trying to "shut" out the images but not being able too so I could go to sleep. Along with this I would also see scary things on the walls (witches) or repetitive haunting by similar imagery.
A lot of times I could manipulate kind-of what I wanted to see but I never could get full control. I was like a whole world I would be looking into. Or I'm not sure how to describe it... moving pictures etc. moving landscapes. I would be immersed into the "walls" or the images when I closed my eyes, a lot more intense than just "viewing".
By far the most common theme was this black/brown sludge/ plague that would overcome whole cities and overcome people turning them into zombies and turning the buildings all ground. millions of people would be affected and there was no way to escape it. I would watch this same thing a lot. Also there were these giants (rainbow men i what I called them) who were the good guys. What I find interesting is that both me and my brother remember watching/ being involved in this same story-line, though it is pretty hard to recall now.
I "saw the walls" like i described every single night. like it was part of my sleep and I accepted it.
What frustrates me is I have totally lost this ability of seeing hypnotic images. No matter how long I law in bed or mediate I will not consciously see imagery like I use to. It's not that I would want to--I just find it surprising and weird. All I see is a void/black. unconsciously sometimes I will go into dream/day-dreaming states maybe similar to hypnotic imagery because I will come out of it consciously with a certain image or impression... but that is all for the most part.
Any comments are appreciated :)
sorry this is quite long--but I would like to put it to rest or at least find someone who gets what I am saying... Also related: what is visualization / "seeing in your mind"? I have always thought I can't visualize because I remember when I was younger--like I described I could. now all i see is black or solid colors (maybe patterns) but that is it.
