I work third shift for a couple days and its a regular thing twice a week so I'm able to prepare for it ahead of time. However, there are times when the only other person willing to work 3rd shift becomes incapacitated. When this happens, its either a call to me to fill the gap or, most likely, either have the store manager work or pay someone overtime hours. Recently though I was in such a situation. I've had no notice and was asked to show up then, on the spot. I agreed on the condition that I work only as long as someone else can come in, but no longer then 2 or 3 hours as I was already tired after working at my other job and was already ready to go to sleep. Nobody came to relieve me and I ended up working the entire shift. After the 5th hour, physical condition aside, my mental condition was bad and worsening the longer I stayed up. I was starting to feel that nothing I do will amount to anything, that anything I try to accomplish will fail, I'll never have an SO and be alone for the rest of my life and so on. It got to the point where by the time I finally was able to clock out and head home I felt that I didn't want to go to sleep because that would mean that tomorrow would get here sooner and it'd just be worse then today was. I only slept at all because I was just so overwhelmingly tired. I couldn't even get a full sleep in because I had another job to attend to as well. During THAT shift I couldn't even pretend to be hospitable to customers, I was just kind of angry and tired.
So I'm wondering if there's a way to mitigate these symptoms should something unexpected like that happen. I suppose, if anything at all, I should stand up for myself and assert where my limits stand. However, I believe a lack of communications between involved parties played a part. Still, I do not want to enter a state like that again. Currently, it is not feasible to quit that job. However, it's clear that I can't just show up on no warning at all and work a whole shift.
I do feel that I can't maintain that kind of shift work. Try as I might though, it's very hard for me to get a job anywhere around here. I also want to focus on college and make that a full-time thing, but I also need an income to support myself. I'm really hoping that college study helps find a way to be able to fully support myself in the future, as nigh impossible as that may be in America.
So I'm wondering if there's a way to mitigate these symptoms should something unexpected like that happen. I suppose, if anything at all, I should stand up for myself and assert where my limits stand. However, I believe a lack of communications between involved parties played a part. Still, I do not want to enter a state like that again. Currently, it is not feasible to quit that job. However, it's clear that I can't just show up on no warning at all and work a whole shift.
I do feel that I can't maintain that kind of shift work. Try as I might though, it's very hard for me to get a job anywhere around here. I also want to focus on college and make that a full-time thing, but I also need an income to support myself. I'm really hoping that college study helps find a way to be able to fully support myself in the future, as nigh impossible as that may be in America.
