Strange scene during meditation

[Basque Seeker]

I'm not sure if this is the right place for this post, I apologize if it isn't, please let me know if I should delete it and post it in another place.

Earlier this week I was in the middle of a short mindfulness type of meditation (one that I tried before with no strange experience) to calm the mind and suddenly a strange scene popped up in my mind.

There was a woman, standing alone near the sea, there were high clouds in the sky, with the sun shining softly through those with colors that were giving to the picture that aspect of an afternoon that is starting to get a little closer to sunset.

I understood that the woman was there mourning her child who passed away, what felt like, several months ago.

I knew that because, somehow, in that vision, I was that woman.

I somehow knew that this was not a past life, even the clothes of the woman were pretty contemporary. And still, somehow I felt I was that woman (although I am a man in real life).

Apparently on her mourning process she went to some therapy and she was standing there because she wanted to scream to the sky, to the universe, at really top max volume and full force what she felt for her lost child.

Then she started to shout with tremendous volume, will and power using the name of my actual son (!!!), saying in Spanish (my mother tongue) "[his name] ERES LO QUE MÁS QUIERO EN EL MUNDOOOO!!!!!"

("[his name] YOU ARE THE THING THAT I LOVE THE MOST IN THE WORLD!!!!!)

And then I started to really feel ALL the pain, the anger, the helplessness, the sorrow of that mother, who was truly feeling that something was literally cut and taken away from her very own being.

These incredibly tough and horribly sad feelings lasted for several minutes that I spent crying in pain until I could put myself back together minutes later but still feeling incredibly bad.

It was so hard, and it felt so weird to hear and feel that with the name of my son... and it REALLY felt like I lost him.

Horrible, it was truly horrible.

At the end of this meditation kind of a conclusion came to my mind, that I preferred to experience this through this type of 'empathetic vision' than go through that myself in the flesh, having to face that situation for the rest of my life.

I just wanted to share it with you since it was quite a tough experience although of course nothing compared to what the actual tragedy of living through that terrible situation would be like.

I guess I am just scared, like any parent can be about the safety of their children, I don't know.

Big hugs to everyone.

 

[ryu]

I'm not sure if this is the right place for this post, I apologize if it isn't, please let me know if I should delete it and post it in another place.

Earlier this week I was in the middle of a short mindfulness type of meditation (one that I tried before with no strange experience) to calm the mind and suddenly a strange scene popped up in my mind.

There was a woman, standing alone near the sea, there were high clouds in the sky, with the sun shining softly through those with colors that were giving to the picture that aspect of an afternoon that is starting to get a little closer to sunset.

I understood that the woman was there mourning her child who passed away, what felt like, several months ago.

I knew that because, somehow, in that vision, I was that woman.

I somehow knew that this was not a past life, even the clothes of the woman were pretty contemporary. And still, somehow I felt I was that woman (although I am a man in real life).

Apparently on her mourning process she went to some therapy and she was standing there because she wanted to scream to the sky, to the universe, at really top max volume and full force what she felt for her lost child.

Then she started to shout with tremendous volume, will and power using the name of my actual son (!!!), saying in Spanish (my mother tongue) "[his name] ERES LO QUE MÁS QUIERO EN EL MUNDOOOO!!!!!"

("[his name] YOU ARE THE THING THAT I LOVE THE MOST IN THE WORLD!!!!!)

And then I started to really feel ALL the pain, the anger, the helplessness, the sorrow of that mother, who was truly feeling that something was literally cut and taken away from her very own being.

These incredibly tough and horribly sad feelings lasted for several minutes that I spent crying in pain until I could put myself back together minutes later but still feeling incredibly bad.

It was so hard, and it felt so weird to hear and feel that with the name of my son... and it REALLY felt like I lost him.

Horrible, it was truly horrible.

At the end of this meditation kind of a conclusion came to my mind, that I preferred to experience this through this type of 'empathetic vision' than go through that myself in the flesh, having to face that situation for the rest of my life.

I just wanted to share it with you since it was quite a tough experience although of course nothing compared to what the actual tragedy of living through that terrible situation would be like.

I guess I am just scared, like any parent can be about the safety of their children, I don't know.

Big hugs to everyone.

Thank you for sharing this and yeah, I understand why you are shaken. I'm not a parent, so I can only imagine the horror of losing a child. And that probably doesn't come close.

Maybe that woman was you, or a part of you that your concience deemed appropriate to picture as a woman. The world is such a scary place right know, it wouldn't be surprising if your subconcious built an enormous emotional charge. Every parent who is aware of the state of the world must ask himself, now more than ever " how is my child going to make it?", " how will I protect him?", "what if he's taken away from me?" etc, etc.

I would say it a good thing that this memory, emotional charge of whatever that is, was able to express itself in a manner that was safe for you. You were able to see it, to integrate it.
Take good care of you, be gentle with yourself

 

[Haiku]

‘It is easier to observe others doing the hard lessons, than it is to do the same for yourself’

None the less it still hurts to see this. I think this is another interaction from the approaching wave, it opens you up to see alternate realities, possibly alternate lives here. This may be someone from your soul group, some emotions reach farther than some people realize. Maybe they needed someone to hear them … and you did. Haiku …

’It’s the lessons, sometimes you don’t get to choose which ones you get.’

 

[Fluffy]

Post in thread 'My ET contact dreams'
My ET contact dreams

I had a similar experience that I posted about here.
I have no idea what it means but I just accepted it as something that happened that I can choose to incorporate into my experience.

I think your experience is likely an integration of fragmented parts of yourself, may be past life or other dimensional experience.

How do you feel now? Has it changed anything for you that you can notice?

 

[Basque Seeker]

Thank you all for sharing.

I can definitely relate to the state of, being a parent asking myself indeed 'how my children are going to make it' with all the craziness, turnoil and trouble that is going on in this planet, and even more to come.

How do you feel now? Has it changed anything for you that you can notice?

To be honest I still cry when I remember this. Yes, it's immensely less painful now, but hard when I recall it.

One thing that was almost in sync with this event is that I'm becoming way more aware of the impact of my feedback to my children (like, but not only, when giving discipline) and taking conscious action on that, being able to deliver lots of care and warmth to them. And I am extremely grateful for receiving this grace, since I felt I was somehow unable to reach that without help of others.

That's maybe the major change that I can relate to in terms of topic and time (although this started few days before that 'vision').

The other chance is that since then I am more conscious about other people going through this type of tragedy.

 

[loreta]

Maybe it's your feminine side that's come out, the maternal in you that's also the paternal. We are witnesses to a genocide in Palestine and somewhere inside us, the pain of seeing all those children murdered touches our soul. When we're sad, and we don't know why, I think it's Gaza that makes us sad. If we have a conscience, Gaza hurts and in a state of meditation this woman is not only you but all the mothers suffering today in Palestine. All the mothers in us. Palestine isn't on the other side of the world, it's here, inside us, time and space don't exist.

I also think that the emotions this has provoked are a kind of healing, because by meditating you have allowed them to be expressed.

Thank you so much to give us this meditation.

 

[gottathink]

Just another idea, maybe she is your polar opposite and actually exists and you connected with her due to her great sorrow and pain.

 

[Fluffy]

From session 5 August 2017, it might relate to you

Data)I have one more. The C's once described the Wave as hyperkinetic sensate. I would like to know when a person does work on himself, facing one's own mechanical nature and the mechanical nature of others, that also creates sensations that I thought could be hyperkinetic too. Are these two things comparable? Would a person that works on himself, is that comparable to hyperkinetic sensate that the Wave was described as?

A: It can be. A person who struggles with intense emotion and masters it is somewhat inoculated.

Q: (L) So if you experience these hyperkineticsensate experiences incrementally or gradually inside yourself by working with yourself, and you deal with them, then you are not subject to being blown apart by the hyperkinetic sensate Wave that comes later? Well, I mean, come on! It looks to me like we're already experiencing it. Look how all these people are acting all over the planet. If that's not a hyperkinetic sensate... I mean, you see those so-called Social Justice Warriors? When I saw the screaming woman with the glasses on after Trump's election, I mean... And the rest of them? They're just acting freakin' CRAZY! So I would say that hyperkinetic sensate is partly involved with the disintegration and the soul smashing. It's like insane. Am I right there?

A: Yes

Q: (Galatea) It could also be related to the shooters, the Florida face eater man.

(Data) These sensations are certainly unpleasant.

(L) No kidding!