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I just read this article
http://www.sott.net/article/295106-Be-careful-who-you-sleep-with-Study-shows-women-carry-the-DNA-of-sexual-partners
and as a mother of 4 kids with medical high school and constant interest in psychology, brain research, genetics and stuff, I knew that with pregnancies we are actually kind of organically, not just emotionally, or so to speak literally related to the whole of the family of the father of our kids.
Most of them can't understand our connection with them on that level, as they are not linked to us, but once we carry a baby, a mixture of DNA of our partner father and mother enters our body ... so with my decision to separate from my husband 5 years ago, I know my brain was clear of need for separation, and because my understanding of this organically links, I understood why my emotional body still feel "sad" about that through long period of time, even though our relationship entered at really ugly state, and everyone normal will run away far away from it, I felt that no way I can run from that terror of emotional abuse just by moving to another continent, but I didn't know how I can cut that organic ties I had within myself that were blocking me to see him in pure reality as he is, instead of dreamland of a good father and person that just wasn't ready to go on with me ... but recently as I decided to start to prepare my self to do the The Work, and as I started to read and to get introduced to Gurdijeff, Ouspensky, Laura, Pierre and other stuff, some how I got one impulse of what I have to do to stop that connection with him and his family that has been torturing me emotionally for some time now ...
So one day I just realize that I have to do some kind of mind work that will actually help me to literary cut that ties I have within my body with him. I realize that it has to be something like mental surgery or sort of, and only when I do that, I will be capable to focus more on The Work and all of the things I want to accomplish through my journey I took here at cassiopaea worlds. And that day I just felt organically in my body from my throath to the top of my belly a kind of a rope that I had to cut emotionally with my thoughts, and to get that out of me. And I decided to focus on that to do it, and it was very emotionally draining, but something happend. Since that simple 2 hour sort of meditation to do that CUT, I started to see him more clearly, and I started to understand him less emotionally, and what was new for me, I wanted to observe more his relations with other people, what helped me to see better what kind of person he relay is. Also what I liked is that that process of observation that just started is not about to judge him, it is more about to see him clearly, who he is and who I am, and how our kids are shaped by us, not just genetically, but more how that genetics actually reacts to totally opposite ways of living that we have now as separate individuals.
I don't know is there any biological and psychological explanation for that but I thought will be interesting to share and to look more into that
http://www.sott.net/article/295106-Be-careful-who-you-sleep-with-Study-shows-women-carry-the-DNA-of-sexual-partners
and as a mother of 4 kids with medical high school and constant interest in psychology, brain research, genetics and stuff, I knew that with pregnancies we are actually kind of organically, not just emotionally, or so to speak literally related to the whole of the family of the father of our kids.
Most of them can't understand our connection with them on that level, as they are not linked to us, but once we carry a baby, a mixture of DNA of our partner father and mother enters our body ... so with my decision to separate from my husband 5 years ago, I know my brain was clear of need for separation, and because my understanding of this organically links, I understood why my emotional body still feel "sad" about that through long period of time, even though our relationship entered at really ugly state, and everyone normal will run away far away from it, I felt that no way I can run from that terror of emotional abuse just by moving to another continent, but I didn't know how I can cut that organic ties I had within myself that were blocking me to see him in pure reality as he is, instead of dreamland of a good father and person that just wasn't ready to go on with me ... but recently as I decided to start to prepare my self to do the The Work, and as I started to read and to get introduced to Gurdijeff, Ouspensky, Laura, Pierre and other stuff, some how I got one impulse of what I have to do to stop that connection with him and his family that has been torturing me emotionally for some time now ...
So one day I just realize that I have to do some kind of mind work that will actually help me to literary cut that ties I have within my body with him. I realize that it has to be something like mental surgery or sort of, and only when I do that, I will be capable to focus more on The Work and all of the things I want to accomplish through my journey I took here at cassiopaea worlds. And that day I just felt organically in my body from my throath to the top of my belly a kind of a rope that I had to cut emotionally with my thoughts, and to get that out of me. And I decided to focus on that to do it, and it was very emotionally draining, but something happend. Since that simple 2 hour sort of meditation to do that CUT, I started to see him more clearly, and I started to understand him less emotionally, and what was new for me, I wanted to observe more his relations with other people, what helped me to see better what kind of person he relay is. Also what I liked is that that process of observation that just started is not about to judge him, it is more about to see him clearly, who he is and who I am, and how our kids are shaped by us, not just genetically, but more how that genetics actually reacts to totally opposite ways of living that we have now as separate individuals.
I don't know is there any biological and psychological explanation for that but I thought will be interesting to share and to look more into that
