The Systems response or my own self limiting ?

[D69]

Hi everyone. I have a question because I don't know what to think about it myself and I have hard time figuring it out , so maybe you guys have some sort of experience or will shed more light on this case.
So the story goes like this. I have regular '8 hours per day' job, which is fine. It let's me pay all necessary things and it also leaves me (at least it did) quite a lot of spare time so I can contribute to sott and various forums.
So some time ago I was wondering if I could get a side job , project-like thing. That would boost my income and therefore will let me pay off my small credit way faster. Yes I know , that was a bad idea to take a credit in a first place , but it looks like I have to learn hard way to understand :/. So like I said , I was only wondering and thinking about it and everything was quite normal as it used to be .... until 4-6 weeks ago. All of sudden I started to get calls from various old friends with small job offers which kinda surprised me because I didn't talk to them for quite a while. Those friends are completely NOT connected in any way (except me knowing them), also they do not know each other, plus they all live in a different places , even overseas.
Now I have plenty of one-shot side jobs , which is good on the one hand (better income) but from the other hand it time consuming , also, what caused is it and why ? This is important to me because I feel like I am NOT doing all other things that I should do because of this overload.
I smell distraction , but I am not sure if it is distraction that targets my focus on certain things and "The Work" or is it help ? or just myself ? I am confused

I was thinking about possible options. I feel like in a vicious loop and cannot think out of the box in this case :/

- It is basically me that 'created' whole this situation without being aware of it.
- The System found a glitch in my defenses , and is using it against me to distract my "Work" - bait in a form of money has been planted

What could I miss ?
Anyone had similar situations recently ?

 

[Jimbofirstround]

hi Drygol, my understanding is you get what you asked for, you asked to have side work to pay off an annoying debt to be able to free you in other ways, the cosmos has granted your wish,

how you deal with what is given is also your choice right, so you could go for the side jobs that DO appeal to the work you wish to continue doing, if there are such or the jobs which will get you the most learning experience and ultimately towards your goal

in a way it could be viewed as a distraction if you choose to view it as such or as the opportunity to learn new things, and make new connections

i find a day where i learn nothing new feels like a waste at first and then when i consider the day afterwards i find that i still in fact learned or contemplated something without being aware that i was doing so, like eureka moments

you know how there is that program you can add to your computer to help calculate or process the info form some science place, might have been SETI, but basically it uses your computers memory that isn't being used to help process the info received

well i find my psyche or thinking power works in a similar fashion, sometimes letting go of all the "work" we do daily to understand the whats and whys and just being allows my brain to process things on its own uninterrupted and often all of a sudden BAM something important comes to the forefront which i wasn't even close to thinking about but holds significant relevance to something i had been "trying" to crack in the recent days or weeks


hope this helps :) and also am i supposed to be adding things this soon to the site or not?, i get the impression from the standard welcome message to noobs that there is some required reading before getting deep into things, or is this simply to keep from the same old questions being asked over and over by those just realizing graduation is just around the corner, either way i LOVE THIS PLACE and will humbly respect the wishes of the community here which i hope to someday be physically a part of rather than just in cyberland :)

 

[Eva]

Hi, Drygol

Yes, I've had a similar situation recently and in fact I'm still trying to understand it.

I was thinking about possible options. I feel like in a vicious loop and cannot think out of the box in this case :/

- It is basically me that 'created' whole this situation without being aware of it.
- The System found a glitch in my defenses , and is using it against me to distract my "Work" - bait in a form of money has been planted

I understand you, I've been wondering about this myself.
Is it me creating the situation or is the situation created for me to fall into it?

Well, after long hours of thinking about it the only logical and complete answer I could come up with is - it doesn't matter, what matters is what you do with the situation.

What I did when I realised I was in a thought-loop and utterly confused regarding why and how, was that I tried to focus on the primary cause of the confusion. It was funny to see all the 'synchronous' events that were associated with it. In your case it might be the time you started receiving those phonecalls or the time you started thinking about getting a second job, or even another, previous event.
Simply the process of pin-pointing the primary source of confusion was an eye-opener, and helped me understand what part of me was either 'creating' the situation or complying with it.

Another thing I would like to point out is that I see a similarity between your experience and mine in that I, too, had an extra reason for wondering and doubting that accounts to what I called the 'right' choice.
Is it right for you to accept the 'gift of the universe' and keep working on the side jobs for better income, or should you discard the 'distraction of the System' and contend yourself with more time for yourself and a lower income?

I am in no position to assume what is the better thing for you, but I can share my own conclusion, which may well be flawed but it helped me :
Gifts come with no side-effects. Even when they bring major life changes that are not comfortable, the end-result is brilliantly obvious. Once you look at the possible outcome you see it with clarity.
Distractions of course come wrapped-up in gift packages and if you try to look at the end result you find yourself in a cloud of confusion, doubt and wishfull thinking. The way I'm finding to uncover them is to uncover the 'little I' that was drawn to the 'gift' in the first place (quite a nasty process I might add).

On another note I'm realising that I was spending more time wondering about the 'right' choice and whether it was a gift or a distraction instead of dealing with the actual situation at hand.
I was giving up my free will by trying to see what was 'right' as if the choice was not dependant on myself but on a higher power. At the same time, I was shedding all responsibility for my choices since my concern was not what to do but what I should do.

In my case, I have disengaged from the situation but the struggle to understand its dynamic is still an ongoing process so all of the above may be written in a biased and subjective way.

 

[D69]

ugh I wrote a nice response and deleted it by mistake.

First of all thank you for your responses.
It looks like I will have to rethink whole case and disassemble it to smallest details.
Eva your idea with 'outcome' is very nice and is quite tempting I must say , I mean, paying off debt fast just to get rid of it. But it keeps me thinking - is it worth and how it may help me to help others later
I just cannot get rid of that feeling that it is a trap - it is just a feeling though and I am not used to trust my feelings which deepens the confusion.

I`ll wait and see how things develop.

 

[anart]

ugh I wrote a nice response and deleted it by mistake.

First of all thank you for your responses.
It looks like I will have to rethink whole case and disassemble it to smallest details.
Eva your idea with 'outcome' is very nice and is quite tempting I must say , I mean, paying off debt fast just to get rid of it. But it keeps me thinking - is it worth and how it may help me to help others later
I just cannot get rid of that feeling that it is a trap - it is just a feeling though and I am not used to trust my feelings which deepens the confusion.

I`ll wait and see how things develop.

drygol,

As you know, it all depends on what your Aim is. Anything that contributes to your Aim or assists you in getting there can be considered 'good' - anything that hinders your Aim or prevents you from getting there can be considered 'evil'. So - as always - the devil is in the details.

 

[D69]

anything that hinders your Aim or prevents you from getting there can be considered 'evil'. So - as always - the devil is in the details.

Oh , that pretty much nails the problem and in fact cleared up a lot .....in one sentence , thanks for that Anart.
I will have to work on deciding which 'Aim' is a real 'Aim' and then only problem that remains is to put all smaller 'Aims' on proper shelves and look at it in broader scope. That is brilliant !

ps. Anart , How you always manage to make all problems look miserable lol ? :D :D :D

 

[anart]

ps. Anart , How you always manage to make all problems look miserable lol ? :D :D :D