Corvus
Dagobah Resident
I had a rough few weeks and honestly I sense I am losing my tolerence and patience with some people, at home the situation is terrible and getting worse and on the job it is getting crazier like in one week in two shifts I had use of force like in big city while where I work it is a smaller town with large area all around under it s jurisdiction, one was excesive because I lost temper.
First case was with one guy getting drunk and slaping waitress at the but and touching another women for a hand in caffe bar. I wanted to let the guy go with a warning(guy was drunk and local and poor)because we caught him trying to get away with a car but the older guy wanted to test him and my hands were tied so in the end only wrote DUI and nothing about sexual harrasment, the partner jumped first but the law was changed and in the older on which was he reacting it was enough to start an engine and it was seen in law as driving but in the new law he had to drive few meters away, so the partner messed it all up because he did not get that the law changed. It was formaly illegal(but the law changes all the time) but in the end guy ended fairly well because we did not write any felony for sexual harrasment, but he refused to get tested for alcohol and then the fine is large, but also he tried to leave and so had to stop him two times and the third had to use force and throw him on the ground and put handcuffes. But this older partner in his 50-ies started panicking and calling for back up which was funny because people like that are first to cause trouble and are afraid of their own shadows. Then later the guy handcuffed started crying saying what did this country did for me, my brother died fighting for it and now I got nothing, but he was right when it comes to it. After that he started yelling and provoking, and the back up started taking with him to enter the van for about 5 min, he was obviously staling so I had enough of it and throw him inside because there is no point arguing with a drunk or druged man. He was making trouble in that caffe bar for weeks but owner did not call and in the end he got DUI, and because there was no cameras we did not write report of using force because it is much paperwork and then there is review if it was justified si it is all birocracy with no point you try to avoid if possible. Later he was asking about me one officer from the job said to me and I said I can give him my adress if he wants to come. He did not like I throwed him to the ground after being handcuffed when he get up, but I did not want to chase someone across town in case he started running with handcuffs. Later wanted to give him cigarettes in jail because he asked but the policy does not allow it so they said do it at your responsibility.
Second case was more serious case of guy driving 150-160km/h, and almost crashing in three vehicles head on because he was driving in another lane and did pull over in last second, so in the end he stopped at the gas station. I was working alone in patrol car at the other place si was called to go to that place and was driving with flashlights 120-130 km/h and almost ended in scissors one time and had to brake. When I came there I saw him on the gas station and there were two other officers, this older one from prior case and the younger one and when I saw them there standing that made me angry(but there was and family situation that day that made it worse) because they did not do anything, just waiting. I tried to talk with him and calm the guy but he was 120kg and under the influence of drugs it seems so there was no point in talking with him, he kicked the things around him with his legs and hands and said ti me let s go to see the boss but the situation that made him like that was that his boss, local sponsor by the way and buisnessman, died. So I made wrestling takedown, and when he was on the ground in rush I did kick him in the head few timesand we yelled for him to give hands and then he did, si the other two put handcuffs. But after that he did not stop he was like minute normal minute crazy. In the station he was yelling kill me, kill me, banging with the head at the wall, and threataning me and swearing at me. He did say that he was drivin like crazy and got two shoots of injections to calm down but it did help only a little. He ended in psychward few times and now they did not wanted to take him because doctor thought he was manipulating. In the end judge freed him till court session(did not want to procesa it immidiately which is the practice) and he got misdemanour charge pending. When we were there on the gas station one couple was recording on the mobile phone, si I asked them if they did record it and they said and showed me it was only the end when all was over. There was also cameras on the station but the menager did not let recording out. These kind of people are real slimes, if they had the balls they should go in front of parlament or goverment or take weapons in their hands and do something about this s... hole of a country but they find satisfaction in videotaping you to put it in newspaper so you get burned and fired, and if the guy crashed in them then they would say where was the police, etc.... I wanted to end the situation as fast as possible and did not wanted to pull out guys hands if he resisted, which is also different and hardver when you have to put handcuffs and he is resisting.
And those at the top in ministry at their desks write how it should be done in streets while they never worked in police but civilians that got through connections at that job, imbecils with fake diplomas in other words. I was at the disciplinary for prior mentioned case and got 4 months 10 per cent of pay which the syndical lawyer said was brutal and that I should appeal when I get it in paper, he said in last three months he had 50 disciplinary cases and one officer got almost fired because of little thing, so it seems the police got too expensive now with economy in freefall. I confessed for second count of swearing but not the first that I disobeyed orders. And he said in real court the case is closed because witnesses gave contradictory statements but here you are guilty. Before you got 15-10 per cent of pay one-max two months.
This is when you recruit not competent but obedient that you have a bunch of invalids not deserving their positions and when it comes to shooting I do not want to even start.
And I noticed in traffic or I had luck to be at the wrong time and place that people are getting crazier or their driving is horrible.
Once I was driving home from work and was in uniform and was turning from main street to secondary one guy with his car was in the middle of that street si it was difficult to turn, and I stoped and rolled window down and asked what was the problem and the guy was clearly drunk or druged and started arguing with me and I yelled to him to get lost because I did not want to have to use force and ended two more hours before I go home and would have to write reports and there was a car behind him and potential witnesses. Then he said do you know who I am, so I said who are you, and the guy started to unseat belt and that he will step out but in the end did nothing and I saw it was all an act and in the end he left.
Second case was also when I was going to work in uniform, some guy driving ramped up Golf V gti with four exhaust pipes that was very low and the guy was almost going to full stop when going acroos railway crossing, etc, so I did try to end in front but the guy started to drive on the middle of road so to not have to drive on damage road parts on side, on two lanes and I ended in pavement with front left tire, and luckily I was not going fast and had steel wheels on my skoda so there was no damage, I pulled it in last second but noticed the guy did not notice it at all until the end. He did not even stop but just went ahead.There was no damage so I let it go.
Third case was a truck, luckily I was driving slower because the car had some problems while on the job and in the curve guy was also driving in the middle of the road so I did not see him till the last moment and pull over.
At home it is chaotic because mother and sister are having often argument so I come from work and want some peace and rest, and there are also kids and having a house is a while without end because you have to repair and renovate often, if yourself then it takes time and energy and if you do not know then financially it is costly like a car. Last week sister had panic attacks so I drive her to hospital and the other day she went alone. It is because of stress, divorced with two kids, lost father and the job(now luckily she has one), but we noticed she got nuts prior to this because she sometimes got s crazy in argument and it is painful to watch. She has something constructed in her head and think it is like that, she is delusional. She also loses nerves and yells at the kids. She did not work on it and it built over time so it went out through panic attacks. She got antidepressants but I gave her and recommended natural remedies I use and that helped like ashwagandha, rhodiola, curcuma and siberian ginseng. Started with EE again three months ago because of anxiety and in combination with these remedies it helped a lot. She said she will start with psychotherapy but I am not optimist when I know she has excesses, change in behaviour and even said to mother that she is evil but later apologised.
Other day I borrowed her the car to go with a dog on haircut and said to be careful to not damage the car and she came back with scratched paint and I snaped after it. It is not so much about the money for repair which is not little in a way, but about the trust but she said there was wind blowing and that it has blown steel fence on the car. She gave money and I doubled the price, did not know how much it will cost, but we found a guy that work on black so he works half the price so I returned the rest of the money but she said to keep more for wasted energy, etc, but then I said I will give back and after giving it to her on bank machine she asked for rest and because she asked I will not give it because she is selfish and ungrateful and the first marriage went because she was controling to much. If I took something that is hers there will be immediate drama and when it is someone s else it is all normal. Also her financial investing in house should be greater, yes, now she started giving more but before that when she had high paying job did not give much and does not work nothing around house but loses nervs easily.
Mother on the other hand is too pasive and putting it under the rug because she wants to keep peace but she also lost her nervs because of sister and constant arguments and caring around children when sister is not around. But mother also has health concerns and self pity and constant complaining because of fear and also puts her ideas in other people heads and that is quite irritating for me to the point of snaping sometimes because she is blind of that what she is saying. I got in argument with her because of car and sister and she said it is nothing and then I snaped and throw the pan and said when it is not yours of course it is nothing, on which she took the knife from drawer and then I took it and throw it. I was a bit suprised at least because did not expect she would do something like that getting a freaking knife. Yes I also sweard and she said it was not ok how she reacted but I got fed with others problema making it mine and from simple things making complications and arguments. I do not talk with her now and did not talk with sister before her panic attacks because I got fed up, before I did not react but I got tot he end of line because it all goes in circles, argument then the things normalize and then again all from the beginning. It is draining and it is chaos and hard to keep sanity with all that happening just in private life not mentioning beyond.
I am thinking going to apartment somewhere and before this but financialy for me situation would then be worse, and now sister is in this condition and mother is too old to take care of house alone but if there is no change I do not intend to stay because it is sinking ship and I am at end with my tolerance with people on the job, in the house and in the country, in that case I am utterly disgusted especially with this corona scam, etc... Do not know if will keep the job also how it is going because I am not good of staying silent, I was thinking going to anti riot and intervention unit but how things are going bad idea and people are right to protest what is happening in country si I could not really live with it. This is enough in a way. There are bunch of pathologicals and sadists everywhere. To give you an example one day I was driving migrante to the border with a van and there were local officer and they wore masks and some military jackets, and I was provoking them staying you have some special assignments I see but they had electroshockers and used them on migrants when they let them across border. In those provincial parts they are what you would call rednecks and hillbillies. Then when I was going it was mercedes van(back wheels) and there was mud all over do I did rain it on them a bit when going back because there was only this muddy part to turn van around.
And when you see those football fans you see how younger generations are all braindead. There was a derbi and the drugs were found among couple of them when they were travelling and stopped on gas starion under starion jurisdiction so they were jailed and processed. In there they produced ligthly said worse sounds then all the animals in zoos. One had only primary school others were high school, I did not know someone can be so f... up so early until seeing them. Thinking ending in jail with those kind of guys I would better kill myself and save my sanity.
First case was with one guy getting drunk and slaping waitress at the but and touching another women for a hand in caffe bar. I wanted to let the guy go with a warning(guy was drunk and local and poor)because we caught him trying to get away with a car but the older guy wanted to test him and my hands were tied so in the end only wrote DUI and nothing about sexual harrasment, the partner jumped first but the law was changed and in the older on which was he reacting it was enough to start an engine and it was seen in law as driving but in the new law he had to drive few meters away, so the partner messed it all up because he did not get that the law changed. It was formaly illegal(but the law changes all the time) but in the end guy ended fairly well because we did not write any felony for sexual harrasment, but he refused to get tested for alcohol and then the fine is large, but also he tried to leave and so had to stop him two times and the third had to use force and throw him on the ground and put handcuffes. But this older partner in his 50-ies started panicking and calling for back up which was funny because people like that are first to cause trouble and are afraid of their own shadows. Then later the guy handcuffed started crying saying what did this country did for me, my brother died fighting for it and now I got nothing, but he was right when it comes to it. After that he started yelling and provoking, and the back up started taking with him to enter the van for about 5 min, he was obviously staling so I had enough of it and throw him inside because there is no point arguing with a drunk or druged man. He was making trouble in that caffe bar for weeks but owner did not call and in the end he got DUI, and because there was no cameras we did not write report of using force because it is much paperwork and then there is review if it was justified si it is all birocracy with no point you try to avoid if possible. Later he was asking about me one officer from the job said to me and I said I can give him my adress if he wants to come. He did not like I throwed him to the ground after being handcuffed when he get up, but I did not want to chase someone across town in case he started running with handcuffs. Later wanted to give him cigarettes in jail because he asked but the policy does not allow it so they said do it at your responsibility.
Second case was more serious case of guy driving 150-160km/h, and almost crashing in three vehicles head on because he was driving in another lane and did pull over in last second, so in the end he stopped at the gas station. I was working alone in patrol car at the other place si was called to go to that place and was driving with flashlights 120-130 km/h and almost ended in scissors one time and had to brake. When I came there I saw him on the gas station and there were two other officers, this older one from prior case and the younger one and when I saw them there standing that made me angry(but there was and family situation that day that made it worse) because they did not do anything, just waiting. I tried to talk with him and calm the guy but he was 120kg and under the influence of drugs it seems so there was no point in talking with him, he kicked the things around him with his legs and hands and said ti me let s go to see the boss but the situation that made him like that was that his boss, local sponsor by the way and buisnessman, died. So I made wrestling takedown, and when he was on the ground in rush I did kick him in the head few timesand we yelled for him to give hands and then he did, si the other two put handcuffs. But after that he did not stop he was like minute normal minute crazy. In the station he was yelling kill me, kill me, banging with the head at the wall, and threataning me and swearing at me. He did say that he was drivin like crazy and got two shoots of injections to calm down but it did help only a little. He ended in psychward few times and now they did not wanted to take him because doctor thought he was manipulating. In the end judge freed him till court session(did not want to procesa it immidiately which is the practice) and he got misdemanour charge pending. When we were there on the gas station one couple was recording on the mobile phone, si I asked them if they did record it and they said and showed me it was only the end when all was over. There was also cameras on the station but the menager did not let recording out. These kind of people are real slimes, if they had the balls they should go in front of parlament or goverment or take weapons in their hands and do something about this s... hole of a country but they find satisfaction in videotaping you to put it in newspaper so you get burned and fired, and if the guy crashed in them then they would say where was the police, etc.... I wanted to end the situation as fast as possible and did not wanted to pull out guys hands if he resisted, which is also different and hardver when you have to put handcuffs and he is resisting.
And those at the top in ministry at their desks write how it should be done in streets while they never worked in police but civilians that got through connections at that job, imbecils with fake diplomas in other words. I was at the disciplinary for prior mentioned case and got 4 months 10 per cent of pay which the syndical lawyer said was brutal and that I should appeal when I get it in paper, he said in last three months he had 50 disciplinary cases and one officer got almost fired because of little thing, so it seems the police got too expensive now with economy in freefall. I confessed for second count of swearing but not the first that I disobeyed orders. And he said in real court the case is closed because witnesses gave contradictory statements but here you are guilty. Before you got 15-10 per cent of pay one-max two months.
This is when you recruit not competent but obedient that you have a bunch of invalids not deserving their positions and when it comes to shooting I do not want to even start.
And I noticed in traffic or I had luck to be at the wrong time and place that people are getting crazier or their driving is horrible.
Once I was driving home from work and was in uniform and was turning from main street to secondary one guy with his car was in the middle of that street si it was difficult to turn, and I stoped and rolled window down and asked what was the problem and the guy was clearly drunk or druged and started arguing with me and I yelled to him to get lost because I did not want to have to use force and ended two more hours before I go home and would have to write reports and there was a car behind him and potential witnesses. Then he said do you know who I am, so I said who are you, and the guy started to unseat belt and that he will step out but in the end did nothing and I saw it was all an act and in the end he left.
Second case was also when I was going to work in uniform, some guy driving ramped up Golf V gti with four exhaust pipes that was very low and the guy was almost going to full stop when going acroos railway crossing, etc, so I did try to end in front but the guy started to drive on the middle of road so to not have to drive on damage road parts on side, on two lanes and I ended in pavement with front left tire, and luckily I was not going fast and had steel wheels on my skoda so there was no damage, I pulled it in last second but noticed the guy did not notice it at all until the end. He did not even stop but just went ahead.There was no damage so I let it go.
Third case was a truck, luckily I was driving slower because the car had some problems while on the job and in the curve guy was also driving in the middle of the road so I did not see him till the last moment and pull over.
At home it is chaotic because mother and sister are having often argument so I come from work and want some peace and rest, and there are also kids and having a house is a while without end because you have to repair and renovate often, if yourself then it takes time and energy and if you do not know then financially it is costly like a car. Last week sister had panic attacks so I drive her to hospital and the other day she went alone. It is because of stress, divorced with two kids, lost father and the job(now luckily she has one), but we noticed she got nuts prior to this because she sometimes got s crazy in argument and it is painful to watch. She has something constructed in her head and think it is like that, she is delusional. She also loses nerves and yells at the kids. She did not work on it and it built over time so it went out through panic attacks. She got antidepressants but I gave her and recommended natural remedies I use and that helped like ashwagandha, rhodiola, curcuma and siberian ginseng. Started with EE again three months ago because of anxiety and in combination with these remedies it helped a lot. She said she will start with psychotherapy but I am not optimist when I know she has excesses, change in behaviour and even said to mother that she is evil but later apologised.
Other day I borrowed her the car to go with a dog on haircut and said to be careful to not damage the car and she came back with scratched paint and I snaped after it. It is not so much about the money for repair which is not little in a way, but about the trust but she said there was wind blowing and that it has blown steel fence on the car. She gave money and I doubled the price, did not know how much it will cost, but we found a guy that work on black so he works half the price so I returned the rest of the money but she said to keep more for wasted energy, etc, but then I said I will give back and after giving it to her on bank machine she asked for rest and because she asked I will not give it because she is selfish and ungrateful and the first marriage went because she was controling to much. If I took something that is hers there will be immediate drama and when it is someone s else it is all normal. Also her financial investing in house should be greater, yes, now she started giving more but before that when she had high paying job did not give much and does not work nothing around house but loses nervs easily.
Mother on the other hand is too pasive and putting it under the rug because she wants to keep peace but she also lost her nervs because of sister and constant arguments and caring around children when sister is not around. But mother also has health concerns and self pity and constant complaining because of fear and also puts her ideas in other people heads and that is quite irritating for me to the point of snaping sometimes because she is blind of that what she is saying. I got in argument with her because of car and sister and she said it is nothing and then I snaped and throw the pan and said when it is not yours of course it is nothing, on which she took the knife from drawer and then I took it and throw it. I was a bit suprised at least because did not expect she would do something like that getting a freaking knife. Yes I also sweard and she said it was not ok how she reacted but I got fed with others problema making it mine and from simple things making complications and arguments. I do not talk with her now and did not talk with sister before her panic attacks because I got fed up, before I did not react but I got tot he end of line because it all goes in circles, argument then the things normalize and then again all from the beginning. It is draining and it is chaos and hard to keep sanity with all that happening just in private life not mentioning beyond.
I am thinking going to apartment somewhere and before this but financialy for me situation would then be worse, and now sister is in this condition and mother is too old to take care of house alone but if there is no change I do not intend to stay because it is sinking ship and I am at end with my tolerance with people on the job, in the house and in the country, in that case I am utterly disgusted especially with this corona scam, etc... Do not know if will keep the job also how it is going because I am not good of staying silent, I was thinking going to anti riot and intervention unit but how things are going bad idea and people are right to protest what is happening in country si I could not really live with it. This is enough in a way. There are bunch of pathologicals and sadists everywhere. To give you an example one day I was driving migrante to the border with a van and there were local officer and they wore masks and some military jackets, and I was provoking them staying you have some special assignments I see but they had electroshockers and used them on migrants when they let them across border. In those provincial parts they are what you would call rednecks and hillbillies. Then when I was going it was mercedes van(back wheels) and there was mud all over do I did rain it on them a bit when going back because there was only this muddy part to turn van around.
And when you see those football fans you see how younger generations are all braindead. There was a derbi and the drugs were found among couple of them when they were travelling and stopped on gas starion under starion jurisdiction so they were jailed and processed. In there they produced ligthly said worse sounds then all the animals in zoos. One had only primary school others were high school, I did not know someone can be so f... up so early until seeing them. Thinking ending in jail with those kind of guys I would better kill myself and save my sanity.
