things syncing up

[iam]

soooo as i typed those last two entries i stumbled upon the adventures of the cassiopaeans chap 3 which summed up what i was saying and feeling and now i feel horrible for thinking it. (so weird how i found it) it said:

"About 50 percent of the consciousness of the All consists of the thought of NOT creating, NON-being. In the emergence of this thought, necessitated by the definition of "All," which includes ALL, including the thought of non-being, Service to Self becomes the pathway to "sleeping matter" with which the creative Spiritual half plays. This means that in the cycling of consciousness, some matter is "spiritualized" and some consciousness is "matterized."

Consciousnesses that follow the path of STS and does not choose to "spiritualize," have chosen to be "matterized" - it's a choice, and its free will, and does not require our forgiveness or our judgment that it is "wrong" or that it needs to be fixed in that other person. However, as we already have seen, that "matterizing" consciousness tends to be moving in the direction of the "black hole" thought center. And it is this "predator's mind" that teaches a form of "love" that is based on the STS principles of deception, manipulation, control, and subsumation to a single individual so as to fulfill the function of the black hole reflection of regeneration of primal matter. And that is our problem. When we "dance" with it, there is the danger of our being "matterized" also. We lose virtue in such interactions.... and I use the term in its original sense.

Those folks who choose the path of "matterizing" of consciousness become less and less conscious of WHAT IS and more and more focused on their "wishful thinking" and "warping of reality" around their own ideas. And as we have learned from Jesus, Gurdjieff and the Gnostic Sufis, Castaneda, and the Cassiopaeans, the rules of this World in which we live were set up and are controlled by this STS hierarchy and have been for a very long time. Each and every time the revelation of this Control System is attempted, the Matrix goes into overdrive to destroy it. And it is clear that this is the present situation.

In other words, we are not just talking about a "petty dispute," we are talking about a battle of forces at other levels, manifesting - as ALWAYS - in human dynamics."

and while reading it the tv turned up really loud and repeated a word i read that i forgot now?? (weird).. but ive been having de ja vu all day today. and seem to be led to answers immediately after i think of the question? i feel so lost and feel like im being manipulated in ways like never b4! i feel so lonely and lost on this journey. i want to be a good guy but it seems that life wants me to be the bad guy or utterly destroy me.. but i now better and should strive to be neither.. sigh

 

[whitecoast]

I wouldn't feel horrible for realizing that about half of creation is stumbling towards non-existence, for what it's worth. If it's true, realizing such actually puts you closer to the truth of reality, and therefore the good and STO way of things. :)

From what I've read the the C's, deja vus can be a sign of splitting realities or timeline alterations. If this particular realization has created such an impression in you, it sounds like you have an opportunity before you to change in ways. Feeling lost in such a state is natural for someone without knowledge of how to proceed, and towards what. I think the safest bet is to just continue acquiring knowledge of yourself, reality at large, and how your mind and body work to upgrade yourself to better face reality. Every little effort you make towards waking up sends signals out to the universe that you want to participate in an STO world. That adds up over time, and can maybe move you into that reality someday. You have nothing to lose by trying, right?

 

[WIN 52]

Just be who you really want to be. It seems like you want to be a good guy and it is up to you to
choose.

As a very wise man once said "Be true to yourself". In the end, that is all that matters.

 

[Divide by Zero]

I echo what WIN 52 says. What we do now is important. What we choose to do with our minds is critical. We choose to see the lies and see the truth. That in itself might be very well what helps us graduate to 4d STO (or STS, if we decide to use that against the population).

Please write an introduction here, as it is customary to do so: http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/board,39.0.html


In fact I wrote a rant about creating a new world here: http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,13795.750.html

I don't see a solution in this reality. I think the majority will sway with those who are most powerful and don't respect free will. Lies are easier to swallow than the truth.

On your other thread about non-being, you may be confusing the idea that the end of this physical reality means non-being. A couple of years ago, I had that fear, to keep coming back to this world which through history has (and will be?) always corrupted. I never had a fear of physical death, but I did have this dread of returning to the karmic wheel. The idea that the C's mention graduation from 3d requires learning the lessons of 3d: "simple karmic lessons" gave me hope that it is not up to me to save the world but to do what I can do and as WIN 52 said, to be true to ourselves!