Galaxia2002 said:
Thank you Aragorn for this info!.
Proper closure of vocal cords. This is more common with female students. But the devil is in the details: you have to learn to adduct the vocal cords without engaging the outer throat muscles and swallowing muscles. You need personal guidance with this, since there's a big risk of doing it wrong.
I think this is part of my problem. I feel that the sound comes from the upper part of my throat, in fact I can feel that the sound resonates there. A question. Is the phoniatrician the suitable professional for teach me this??
I must confess something, I had and sometimes have problems for expressing myself orally. When I was teenager my voice took a lot for change from a child voice to a masculine one, so I was victim of jokes and I decide to avoid speak. That make feel very bad. Fortunately my voice changed but I didn't notice it. I thought I was the same as before. I didn't have confidence in my own voice and took me time to recognize that my voice had changed. The inner work and the EE helped me a lot. I have gain confidence again. Recently I did a redirect exercise in this, and explore the problem that goes back to narcissistic problems with my parents. I have changed a lot in this regard when I look at myself in perspective but the part of the problem that persist is that I can't reach "higher volume"without feel I am doing an effort.
There are several routes you can choose trying to correct the problem. If you're lucky, you may find a phoniatrician who also can give you some speech therapy (who have proper training in speech therapy). Speech therapists can most certainly teach you proper closure of the vocal cords, and other things too. And they are trained to spot and treat voice disorders. However, what I've noticed with speech therapists and alike, is that they tend to totally ignore the body-mind connection. Most of who I've met only focus on the "nuts and bolts", ignoring things like breathing, emotions, trauma, tensions etc. But, of course, those things are not their specialty anyway.
However from your latest post, and I could be wrong, I get the feeling that you could benefit more from some type of body work, e.g. rolfing, and breathing exercises. There's also something called 'voice massage', but I'm not sure it's available where you live. Tensions in the throat can be considered as 'armouring' (chronic muscle tensions) that has accumulated from past traumatic experiences. For example, as a little child you might get used to force yourself not to express fear or anger vocally. This could be e.g. because you're afraid of the consequences, or that it's of no use (a little baby crying in a crib - and no one will come).
But, as I said earlier, training 'from the other end' tends to work too. Meaning, that good and 'targeted' vocal exercises can function as therapy, improving not only your voice but your whole state of mind too. I've experienced this myself many times (bad, voice ruining exercises sadly have the opposite effect).
As for the problem of not reaching higher volume in your speech. In my experience this usually can be one, or a combination, of: too much tension in the larynx (larynx too elevated or depressed), too much tension in the outer throat muscles, improper cord closure OR too much closure/adduction, and most importantly - from which all the mentioned problems probably originate (due to past trauma) - distorted breathing patterns, bad posture, and no connection to the core muscles. In other words, the fear and blocking of vocal expression causes muscle athropy and tensions - things don't work properly anymore.
I notice I'm jumping between many subjects here, sorry. I'll try to bring things more in focus in form of more exercises. Would it be possible for you to record your voice, reading a few sentences? That would give a much better starting point to evaluate the problem.
ADDED: I forgot to ask you, how would you describe your own voice? Does it sound breathy (do you use a lot of air with every word), tense/strained, squeaky/high pitch, "macho"/deep? Of course, as I said, a recording would be helpful...