Went off Paleo for a day. Going back on it straight tomorrow morning

[CeLegacy]

So if you guys haven't seen me around yet my name's Christian and I'm from the UK (doesn't matter lol).

So my family are going to a wedding on Saturday and it was my younger brother's birthday today. He had some chocolates with him. So I thought uh, okay, imma have some chocolates after I finish these lean chickens and stop paleo till the end of Saturday. Ate some chocolates. Got the high (gluten opens similar neural pathways to opiates), binged by ordering Pizza Hut (2 for 1 too), but the braincontrol is here. As in, it's so apparent, so inyour mind that it's sad. I'm telling my brother that I'm going back to eating paleo tomorrow morning and he's calling me irrational, and it makes me sad that, well, yeah. I guess different people do differently on gluten as some are able to be normal human beings. But that begs the question: are they normal human beings? Watching talk shows and stuff on youtube now (compared to a few hours ago) is VERY different as I see how people view each other in this gluten mentality. When I was on paleo I could see the light in a few people and the darkness in the others. Now I know.

Anyway it's gonna take my body some detoxing.
On a plus note, my body responded to something in the environment and I could feel that my vagal nerves are a lot stronger and it's awesome! Thank you everyone for existing. lol this "lovey" feeling... It's the gluten. I appreciate you guys. I wonder, those that are married/in a relationship on paleo/ketogenic, how does "love" feel? I want a girlfriend if the universe and for when the universe attracts me, I wonder how it'll be! I'd want her to be paleo because I can't kiss her ): but how does it feel?

Christian. Ps I'm Nigerian born British living in the UK. Always lived here.

 

[CeLegacy]

I was seeing on the outside of the matrix. Barely, and very small, I know, but I was making clear distinctions, but those distinctions blur when you eat all these chemicals, gmo they intend for our brainwashing. Man. How my brother became a doctor idk. I'll do well.

 

[CeLegacy]

I feel for humanity.

 

[Buddy]

So I thought uh, okay, imma have some chocolates after I finish these lean chickens and stop paleo till the end of Saturday. Ate some chocolates. Got the high (gluten opens similar neural pathways to opiates), binged by ordering Pizza Hut (2 for 1 too), but the braincontrol is here. As in, it's so apparent, so inyour mind that it's sad. I'm telling my brother that I'm going back to eating paleo tomorrow morning and he's calling me irrational, and it makes me sad...

That's how addiction works. As soon as you approve of the idea of indulging and you plan to do so, your physiology and brain chemistry begins to change in anticipation of the input. It's as if your body starts to get "high" before you've even consumed the drug or whatever. If you are unaware of this very real threat, then you can be defeated before the fight even begins or you can give up too soon.

In the Fourth Way work, Jeanne de Salzmann was reported to have once said that we need an active attention - not lazy and passive like it tends to be naturally. An attention that is quicker than our desires, quicker than our thoughts. If you want to avoid chocolate, then study it scientifically. Figure out if you should have it or why you should not have it. Let this knowledge sink in with conviction. With an active attention, maybe by the next time you see some chocolate, your quick attention might first fetch all the knowledge and conviction you made previously and bring it to bear to neutralize any further thought or desire.

 

[CeLegacy]

So I thought uh, okay, imma have some chocolates after I finish these lean chickens and stop paleo till the end of Saturday. Ate some chocolates. Got the high (gluten opens similar neural pathways to opiates), binged by ordering Pizza Hut (2 for 1 too), but the braincontrol is here. As in, it's so apparent, so inyour mind that it's sad. I'm telling my brother that I'm going back to eating paleo tomorrow morning and he's calling me irrational, and it makes me sad...

That's how addiction works. As soon as you approve of the idea of indulging and you plan to do so, your physiology and brain chemistry begins to change in anticipation of the input. It's as if your body starts to get "high" before you've even consumed the drug or whatever. If you are unaware of this very real threat, then you can be defeated before the fight even begins or you can give up too soon.

In the Fourth Way work, Jeanne de Salzmann was reported to have once said that we need an active attention - not lazy and passive like it tends to be naturally. An attention that is quicker than our desires, quicker than our thoughts. If you want to avoid chocolate, then study it scientifically. Figure out if you should have it or why you should not have it. Let this knowledge sink in with conviction. With an active attention, maybe by the next time you see some chocolate, your quick attention might first fetch all the knowledge and conviction you made previously and bring it to bear to neutralize any further thought or desire.

Thank you! I assume consistent meditation (breathe in, say one line of the prayer, breathe out, next line, try do one whole without thoughts interfering and aim for 20 times) will help you focus and reduce addiction. It was pretty hefty. It was the idea that I didn't want to sit through the wedding with African family looking at you not eating and shit like that. But now I know and if I do go I'll just prepare some chicken and some vegetables and I'm good to go. Once money is in too I'll start making better meals, like chilli con carne with cauliflower processed to appear like rice or butternut squash. :D

 

[Laura]

There's no need to detail every episode of your life. Don't try, just do. For yourself, not for attention.