What was on my mind

[Jsf]

This evening was so stormy that I have difficulties to speak about it just now.

Here about what occurred :

I started to cover with concepts some blank pages, in order to have some material (I'm currently writing a book). As I always do, I arrange all the pages on the large kitchen table around which I can turn (walk quickly, or spinning).
I switch on the radio, since I need music to increase my thought processes. I start with an idea concerning a “major" problem and I see at what depth I can go and where that carries me.

This evening, and very quickly, in spite of what I said to myself at the beginning ('that starts badly, nothing comes'), thoughts began to cross my mind, and finally one among it, by its force, created an immense interior explosion.

Because I realized that what I had found was a crucial PIECE of the puzzle, the PIECE which I missed. And suddenly, I saw "all" the drawing. [Of course, not all, but at least a large part].

Thousands of hours, thousands of days and nights, to still seek, seek, seek, seek, to always approach more close to the truth, and to reach a level of comprehension always higher… to go above what I am and all that I have been... to suffer in the center of my heart, to risk all, and persevere almost ad infinitum. I fought all oppressions with which I could confront me. I made fire of any wood. To die… and to be born again. Finally, I inhale some breaths of the air of a freer world. Very few joy could replace mine today.

Here is the validation I waited, which will allow me to affirm that my way (I discovered it is known as "fourth way") is a coherent one, and that this way produces the results which it promises.

Finally!!! I see now the rewards appearing. Each new “awareness/illumination" immerses me in an extatic state which I cannot describe.
This evening, it was as an ocean of energy which whirled above and around me. It could almost blaze me up.

What I currently live is worth than hundreds lives of pleasure. It is incomparable. Even if it is necessary to fight, fight, unceasingly fight. All imbricates itself, all sets up itself, when knowledge allows it.


Thus, I will succeed.

Thus, I will succeed. To my last breath, and my last hour.

 

[Azur]

Beautiful, and beautiful again. "Drop, drop" as it comes in and tasted for the sweet dew it is...

But be forewarned that the illuminating wave will withdraw it's influence (it comes and goes), for you to keep what you have seen, should you be capable of keeping it alight.

For as the wave recedes, there is an undertow, a newly created absence that wasn't there before, and the monster, a monster for the occasion, will step into that space to sow doubt. Keep them separate, but understand them both.

Cheers.

 

[Jsf]

But be forewarned that the illuminating wave will withdraw it's influence (it comes and goes), for you to keep what you have seen, should you be capable of keeping it alight.

For as the wave recedes, there is an undertow, a newly created absence that wasn't there before, and the monster, a monster for the occasion, will step into that space to sow doubt. Keep them separate, but understand them both.

Yes ! That exactly what I feel and what I was always affected by.

Up, Down, Up, Down, ...

Perhaps that these two phases are necessary so that all the process is effective.

And doubts are absolutely essential. They make us remain humble.
It is, maybe, which makes it possible to check the purity of the magnetic center, as Mouravieff said.

The risk is obsessions, because they prevent awareness to settle. Obsessions, of any kind, side-track us.
Humility is the antidote for obsessions.

 

[Nević Nenad]

Let it go “down" if it wants, some will remain, at least “sense" which will help with the next “up" to be larger “up". Maybe everything happens in small jumps, and you cannot jump too high in one time, but the next time you will jump higher then the last one.



I should listen to my advices sometime