Well, I panicked after taking my first exam in Pathophysiology and dropped the class, so here I am with plenty of time for this. I hope it will prove as fruitful as I had hoped the class was going to be. Here's some more background on 'my quest'. Let me know if there is some other place to post this.Rather than starting at the beginning with prescience and visions and dreams, I thought I would start in 'the middle'.
While I was a student at the University of Michigan, Ann Arbor, I was taking a respite from a horrendous relationship with a Narcissist brand of psychopath and living in a house belonging to the Inter Cooperative Council as their treasurer. I had the luxury of my own room, on the third floor of the Eugene Debs house--it was literally the attic, at the peak.
I was studying subjects like Eastern European and Latin American history, political science, French nothing terribly technical or 'scientific'.
Late in the Spring semester of 1987, I had a most unusual dream.
I can't remember exactly what I was dreaming about. When I was a preschooler, I used to have regular dreams that were 'scenarios' of some sort, and if I didn't like that dream, I would quickly open my eyes and shut them again to 'change channels'. The dream in April of 1987 was different...kind of boring fantasy stuff, suddenly it was interrupted by nothingness or it was like a blank screen with no color, maybe it was black, but it wasn't really 'inky' per se. I was struck by the idea that I was waiting for a movie to start or something. I was not in the dream, other than I was aware that I was not awake--but not immersed in the trance-like state of dreaming.
What I mean is as many lucid dreams I'd had, this was different, I wasn't driving or directing what was happening.
So there I am staring into blankness, when a luminescent blue dot appears. It was like watching an etch-a-sketch in space. The dot moved sideways and formed a luminescent blue line. This movement line-making eventually outlined a rectangle which was shorter on the sides and longer along the top and bottom. I thought this was a geometry lesson, I thought, because I never got beyond algebra in high school. As soon as I 'thought' this was geometry, the rectangle filled in with the blueness, forming a plane..suspended out there in space. I began to be engaged when the 'luminescent rectangular plane' appeared to be tilting on a longitudinal axis. The top of the plane looked like it was tipping away from me, and the bottom tipping toward me. I'd taken lots of art classes, even commercial art in high school, so I could appreciate creating the illusion of 3 dimensional objects on a two dimensional plane, then hey Presto! when the plane reached a tipping angle of 90 degrees to my line of sight, it 'disappeared'! There was no sound, or fanfare, but I was struck by the thought: "Wow, that's a truly 2 dimensional object! It doesn't have the dimension of 'depth'. Since I have the ability to perceive 3 dimensions, I can't see it when its at that angle--it doesn't mean it's not there!"
Right after that 'revelation' I saw the stars in space appear out of the nothingness, and possibly a planet--I perceive that it is coming at me really fast, or maybe I'm coming at it really fast. In any case, I could see the water and clouds of what must have been Earth (at this point, I'm lost for points of reference.) It looked like I was suspending just below the clouds, kinda hanging out checking out the scene...which changed from nice blue water and clouds.
I saw the continents forming, explosions, gas, volcanoes, mountains rising up and falling and seas flooding ALL AT ONCE- in the midst of this tumult, there were other events happening simultaneously--dinosaurs chasing around--right through the plants, trees, oceans, whatever, and migratory animals and people--wandering, armies? Refugees? I don't know, it was all happening AT ONCE, I think I saw the signing of the declaration of independence. It was like watching all of Earth's history at the same instant. And once I tried to process all of this madness, (madness, because the creatures and objects were not affecting each other they could occupy the same space and not interfere with each other) I was struck by the thought: "Wow! Now I am seeing events in TIME that have nothing to separate them--there is no FOURTH DIMENSION-time-to make these appear as discrete events, ETERNITY IS NOW!"
It is important to note that I had just emerged from a somewhat pre-new-age "Jesus Freak Cult" a few years before this and had begun a pedestrian look at other world religions, but never got into any sort of 'practice', other than having attended my first Rainbow Gathering the summer before.
So with that concept, all the images disappeared, except for the image of a lone wolf sitting on a ridge with the full moon behind it, howling mournfully. I was overcome by the loneliness, as if I were that wolf that had lost my pack, trying desperately to get that connection back. Now I was no longer observing, I woke up sobbing uncontrollably. The young man in room next to mine was woken up from my sobs and asked to come into my room. I was terribly concerned and wanted to comfort me, so I just made something up as an explanation he would care to hear: "Oh, I haven't seen my family in a year and a half. I guess I'm kind of lonely."
Like I said, I thought I would start in the middle--instead of the beginning, because this 'vision' seems germane to this group. I know, I was a believer in 'other dimensions' after this and have had numerous 'travels' in my dreams since then, in which I seem to be living someone else's life, or in a parallel universe of sorts. Maybe these things happened in the past... I just don't have any reference to the characters, the only self I know is my perception, my personality is not engaged in these scenarios, other than my own emotional responses which seem to be triggered by what the characters in the dream are experiencing. I guess people have labeled me an empath but that's another story...
