Corvus
Dagobah Resident
Mother ended in hospital, she had a stroke on brain. She had hearth problems, her blood was holding in hearth atrium because of too much hearth beats, so she had to go next month to electroshocks to bring down the beats, but in a meantime she had to take pills for anti clotting because of blood staying in hearth and possibility of blood cloths. Those pills by themselves are strong and can cause bleeding from nose, breaking of capillars and what not so they only made things worse and she took them for maybe if only two months. She also had other conditions like opstructive lung disease, high blood sugar and high blood pressure. She said she got sugar from stress from when she had external leg break and she had two, so the situation with soo much diseases was hard.
I tried to get her to eat healthier, menaged to get her to drink propolis and liposmal vit c for immunity, went to medicine man who makes plant based potion medicines amd teas of old( he helped me and many others) for her bronhitis and hearth to get rid mostly of flour and sugar, but she was stubborn and did not want to listen always so was slacking when it came to diet.
She was also under lot of stress, worrying because of sisters situation and her immaturity, selfishness but that is a different story I do not have time to write now. She also had hard life from upbringing to war years and after, but was a good person, excellent cook, very hard working person when it comes to cleaning, making food(she worked as a cook all her life), and always greated people, friends and family with warm wellcome. She also had her flaws like everyone but was ready to help as much as she could. After father died 5 years ago I was supporting her financially, working jobs around house needing fixing and helping her how much I could and I knew, and she said to her friend that toliko me few days ago she was very proud and that she did not know what would happen if I was not there. Heard her speak and say to my girlfriend that I am a good man and girl replayed too good, she never said anything directly and never praised. I started working side job 8 months ago to manage finnacially and because of rising prices and did not have much time to waste and did slack on work because of it.
For a last month she was sick, she felt weak, she thought she had corona because she did not have smell and taste, and thought her lungs got weaker after she got corona 2 years ago, and got better around Christmas but after it it started again.
We called ambulance last week because she was having hard time breathing when walking, so she was sitting all the time, and me and my girl were helping how much we could, ambulance said the oxygen saturation was good and it is normal for corona to having hard time breathing while walking, they could tske her to hospital but there they would say the same and let her go. Few days passed and she wanted again to call them but they did not dispatch no one and said as excuse that there was no one outside a house. Standard practice here, lack of personel and care and because it was not serious like you have to be dying on spot, like was the čaše with father also who had blood poisoning and they did not want to take him. She was also looking same like other days, we thought maybe she was exeggerating because she was also fearful and looked ok. Then sister called and they found she had water in body so they gave pills for it s extraction, and if she does not get worse to take her to hospital next day. I was out a town that day, went to visit girlfriend parents(our drive) but planed to take her to hospital next day. The thing we called so often is here you have to wait for few months for some tests regular way and if it is emergency they would do it right away, that is what I hoped because it is not always the case which was in father case and they leave person to die, and for cases like mr scans you have to wait for a year, year and half and you can die 10 times by then . I sent her message if she was ok. She said she was fine.
Next morning sister found her trouble talking and I thought stroke and sister did not know what to do and I said to get her to hospital but she and her boyfriend could not lift her to car so I said call ambulance and now they came in half an hour, and I put a gas to pedal to hospital. We hoped maybe it was from tiredness because she was also eating little.
It was on sunday, and there I saw her, she could talk but could not finish a sentence with a word or two, and doctors said she had a mild stroke and she could walk it of, but her blood results were bad and she had pneumonia( and she was taking antibiotics for lungs for weeks so we thought how could she got it). Then she was put in intensive care, and diagnosed with acute leukemia and that they will take bone marrow to see which one and will start treatment with medicine to brine down leukocites that she had 190 000 and try mechanicaly to bring them down but that brain is in problem because they can not give her medicine for anti clotting because she could bleed because of low number of trombocites, their primary concern was leukemia. That there is a chance of survival but the chances are slim. When I told her that I saw fear in her eyes. In the parking lot I started crying.
Next day they said she had stroke again because they found bleeding in brain, but that the, managed to bring down in half her leukocites. When I visited her she now could say only one word at a time but could hold my hand.
Two days ago she was unconscious they said but stable. When I visted she was unconscious and in delirium and making mild growling noises not being able to talk, but opened her eyes few times and there was a smile. I was holding her hand and pat her on her head and said to her if the time come to not be afraid, everything is going to be fine, to go to the light and there is your husband and mother waiting for you, there is no pain and suffering anymore.
Yesterday, it was worse, her kidneys stopped so was put on dialisis, she had two harder strokes and few milder ones. I talked to doctor and said if there is an option to put the machines out so she is not suffering anymore. He said that leukemia and stroke is not causing pain, leukemia only bleeding, said that it is because of analgetics and neural state. That there is a small chance of survival but that they will start therapy against leukemia but I said what s the point if brain is damaged beyond repair and she ends in vegetative state and she said she would not like to live like that. He said if there is a chance they have to try and one third of patients never recover, third does completely and third partly and she would not completely. She was sleeping and starting to caugh and like yell, it was hard to watch. I said you were not there in that state so you do not really know if the person is suffering dont you. He said that when there is no chance they then only treat with analgetics and put thr machines out. When I asked family doctor he said what you want to kill her and maybe those strokes were not hard. He is a good doctor but he trusts too much in medicine. Mother and father trust too much also to doctors, mother taking too much of those pills that lead to consequences like this. I would not be suprised her strokes and anemia were from those anti clotting medicine that caused bleeding plus many others she used. She did not listen,
Few months ago she had dreams something will happen and that best to die and not become brain dead and she had dreams like that before something bad happened like prior fathers death. I tried giving her goat milk and pyrrhic bread I made because it stops tumor(goat can not get cancer) few weeks before but she did eat it too little and before I got her goat milk but she could not stand taste and now I managed to get tastless one but too late. Tried and homeopathy and reiki for some time but she thought it won t work, it needed time for it to work. Stress over sister was also a big factor. She was tired of living, stress and suffering. After father died she was not the same and in last year her health deteriorated.
I tried to get her to eat healthier, menaged to get her to drink propolis and liposmal vit c for immunity, went to medicine man who makes plant based potion medicines amd teas of old( he helped me and many others) for her bronhitis and hearth to get rid mostly of flour and sugar, but she was stubborn and did not want to listen always so was slacking when it came to diet.
She was also under lot of stress, worrying because of sisters situation and her immaturity, selfishness but that is a different story I do not have time to write now. She also had hard life from upbringing to war years and after, but was a good person, excellent cook, very hard working person when it comes to cleaning, making food(she worked as a cook all her life), and always greated people, friends and family with warm wellcome. She also had her flaws like everyone but was ready to help as much as she could. After father died 5 years ago I was supporting her financially, working jobs around house needing fixing and helping her how much I could and I knew, and she said to her friend that toliko me few days ago she was very proud and that she did not know what would happen if I was not there. Heard her speak and say to my girlfriend that I am a good man and girl replayed too good, she never said anything directly and never praised. I started working side job 8 months ago to manage finnacially and because of rising prices and did not have much time to waste and did slack on work because of it.
For a last month she was sick, she felt weak, she thought she had corona because she did not have smell and taste, and thought her lungs got weaker after she got corona 2 years ago, and got better around Christmas but after it it started again.
We called ambulance last week because she was having hard time breathing when walking, so she was sitting all the time, and me and my girl were helping how much we could, ambulance said the oxygen saturation was good and it is normal for corona to having hard time breathing while walking, they could tske her to hospital but there they would say the same and let her go. Few days passed and she wanted again to call them but they did not dispatch no one and said as excuse that there was no one outside a house. Standard practice here, lack of personel and care and because it was not serious like you have to be dying on spot, like was the čaše with father also who had blood poisoning and they did not want to take him. She was also looking same like other days, we thought maybe she was exeggerating because she was also fearful and looked ok. Then sister called and they found she had water in body so they gave pills for it s extraction, and if she does not get worse to take her to hospital next day. I was out a town that day, went to visit girlfriend parents(our drive) but planed to take her to hospital next day. The thing we called so often is here you have to wait for few months for some tests regular way and if it is emergency they would do it right away, that is what I hoped because it is not always the case which was in father case and they leave person to die, and for cases like mr scans you have to wait for a year, year and half and you can die 10 times by then . I sent her message if she was ok. She said she was fine.
Next morning sister found her trouble talking and I thought stroke and sister did not know what to do and I said to get her to hospital but she and her boyfriend could not lift her to car so I said call ambulance and now they came in half an hour, and I put a gas to pedal to hospital. We hoped maybe it was from tiredness because she was also eating little.
It was on sunday, and there I saw her, she could talk but could not finish a sentence with a word or two, and doctors said she had a mild stroke and she could walk it of, but her blood results were bad and she had pneumonia( and she was taking antibiotics for lungs for weeks so we thought how could she got it). Then she was put in intensive care, and diagnosed with acute leukemia and that they will take bone marrow to see which one and will start treatment with medicine to brine down leukocites that she had 190 000 and try mechanicaly to bring them down but that brain is in problem because they can not give her medicine for anti clotting because she could bleed because of low number of trombocites, their primary concern was leukemia. That there is a chance of survival but the chances are slim. When I told her that I saw fear in her eyes. In the parking lot I started crying.
Next day they said she had stroke again because they found bleeding in brain, but that the, managed to bring down in half her leukocites. When I visited her she now could say only one word at a time but could hold my hand.
Two days ago she was unconscious they said but stable. When I visted she was unconscious and in delirium and making mild growling noises not being able to talk, but opened her eyes few times and there was a smile. I was holding her hand and pat her on her head and said to her if the time come to not be afraid, everything is going to be fine, to go to the light and there is your husband and mother waiting for you, there is no pain and suffering anymore.
Yesterday, it was worse, her kidneys stopped so was put on dialisis, she had two harder strokes and few milder ones. I talked to doctor and said if there is an option to put the machines out so she is not suffering anymore. He said that leukemia and stroke is not causing pain, leukemia only bleeding, said that it is because of analgetics and neural state. That there is a small chance of survival but that they will start therapy against leukemia but I said what s the point if brain is damaged beyond repair and she ends in vegetative state and she said she would not like to live like that. He said if there is a chance they have to try and one third of patients never recover, third does completely and third partly and she would not completely. She was sleeping and starting to caugh and like yell, it was hard to watch. I said you were not there in that state so you do not really know if the person is suffering dont you. He said that when there is no chance they then only treat with analgetics and put thr machines out. When I asked family doctor he said what you want to kill her and maybe those strokes were not hard. He is a good doctor but he trusts too much in medicine. Mother and father trust too much also to doctors, mother taking too much of those pills that lead to consequences like this. I would not be suprised her strokes and anemia were from those anti clotting medicine that caused bleeding plus many others she used. She did not listen,
Few months ago she had dreams something will happen and that best to die and not become brain dead and she had dreams like that before something bad happened like prior fathers death. I tried giving her goat milk and pyrrhic bread I made because it stops tumor(goat can not get cancer) few weeks before but she did eat it too little and before I got her goat milk but she could not stand taste and now I managed to get tastless one but too late. Tried and homeopathy and reiki for some time but she thought it won t work, it needed time for it to work. Stress over sister was also a big factor. She was tired of living, stress and suffering. After father died she was not the same and in last year her health deteriorated.
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