My dream for last night…I’m not sure how I’m feeling about it overall.
I was reading from ISOTM just before going to sleep. And for the first time in a while I didn’t do POTS. I was really tired and just turned off the bedlamp and snuggled down.
As I was falling asleep I was aware of a sound that seemed to be centred at the base of my skull, kind of a throbbing, but without the sensation of throbbing and it had a definite humming sound. I on the one hand felt that it was just something to do with my pulse and the position I was lying in, but on the other recognised that it was not quite in sync with my pulse, that the hums where on an entirely different meter. For some reason I felt that I should withdraw all permission for anything ‘hostile’ to enter me while I was sleeping, anything that did not serve the purpose for my own good or growth. I’m not sure why or how I felt that I could protect myself by doing this.
It felt as though I fell asleep and directly into a dream state. In the dream I was in some kind of common room at a caravan park, either a kitchen or a laundry, and it was night time. There was one other person in the room with me. I kind of fell to the floor just as another person was coming in the door. It was not a sudden fall, more like a slow supported fall. The person, a young girl, came straight over to me and offered to help me up. I told her that I was fine, I wasn’t hurt and that I could get up by myself. But as I moved to try and get up, I was as weak as a kitten. As I tried to reach up to the bench to pull myself up on, I was gradually losing the ability to move at all.
The young girl walked around behind me and put her hands on my shoulders and started dragging me backwards. As the young girl touched me the room went dark. It was kind of an effortless drag in that I was gliding in a reclined sitting position a few inches above the ground, backwards up a long hallway.
Next I was aware of being back in my bed laying in the same position that I’d been in as I went to sleep, but I couldn’t move. I tried to make some kind of sound to wake up my partner, but couldn’t do this either. I could only open my left eye. I don’t know if I physically did this or this was part of the dream. (Now that I think of it, it must have been in the dream because my view of the room was as though I was laying on my back, but I was laying on my side so that means that some of the things that I ‘saw’ would have been outside my field of vision) I could see movement around the room. I knew that they were all swirling around above me, but I couldn’t really focus on them. I get the impression that they were angry and menacing.
While the next events were unfolding I was trying to move despite my paralysis, this set up the sensation of a shuddering…kind of like a car would if you had it in too high a gear for the load that you’ve put on the engine. This shuddering continued until I woke up directly after the dream.
Two of the beings come into better focus and as this happened I started to try to say POTS, but I couldn’t move my mouth. But the words were going on in my head loudly. During the course of the next events, I think that I recited POTS this way three times. My left eye seemed to close during the second repetition, and it was like I was going to move away from this dream on one occasion, but I forced the eye back open.
One of the beings that come into focus was the young girl that dragged me out of the common room. She drifted around behind me again and out of my view. The other was a female also. Short blonde hair, kind of similar in appearance to the singer Pink, only longer and leaner in body. She seemed to be naked but there was no definition in her nakedness, kind of like she was wearing a body suit. These beings did not seem to have any solid form. I could both see them and see through them at the same time. The blonde that was hovering up near the roof to the left got angrier as I was reciting POTS and beared her teeth which were crowded, pointy and had a bright green glow to them. I interrupted POTS to say ‘Ha f@#ing ha! The comment meant to imply that you can’t frighten me with that. This is curious to me because I am generally someone who is ruled by fear and I dislike the ‘f’ word. But throughout this whole dream, I didn’t feel any fear. I just remember knowing that I had to stay totally aware of everything that was going on around me.
The dream ended as I completed POTS and I woke up, but it was still a few seconds before I could move. I was wide awake and contemplated the dream for a while before going back to sleep. It felt as though I'd only been asleep for a few minutes. I had no problem recalling the dream when I woke up.
I’d really like some help with deciphering this dream if its possible :)
I was reading from ISOTM just before going to sleep. And for the first time in a while I didn’t do POTS. I was really tired and just turned off the bedlamp and snuggled down.
As I was falling asleep I was aware of a sound that seemed to be centred at the base of my skull, kind of a throbbing, but without the sensation of throbbing and it had a definite humming sound. I on the one hand felt that it was just something to do with my pulse and the position I was lying in, but on the other recognised that it was not quite in sync with my pulse, that the hums where on an entirely different meter. For some reason I felt that I should withdraw all permission for anything ‘hostile’ to enter me while I was sleeping, anything that did not serve the purpose for my own good or growth. I’m not sure why or how I felt that I could protect myself by doing this.
It felt as though I fell asleep and directly into a dream state. In the dream I was in some kind of common room at a caravan park, either a kitchen or a laundry, and it was night time. There was one other person in the room with me. I kind of fell to the floor just as another person was coming in the door. It was not a sudden fall, more like a slow supported fall. The person, a young girl, came straight over to me and offered to help me up. I told her that I was fine, I wasn’t hurt and that I could get up by myself. But as I moved to try and get up, I was as weak as a kitten. As I tried to reach up to the bench to pull myself up on, I was gradually losing the ability to move at all.
The young girl walked around behind me and put her hands on my shoulders and started dragging me backwards. As the young girl touched me the room went dark. It was kind of an effortless drag in that I was gliding in a reclined sitting position a few inches above the ground, backwards up a long hallway.
Next I was aware of being back in my bed laying in the same position that I’d been in as I went to sleep, but I couldn’t move. I tried to make some kind of sound to wake up my partner, but couldn’t do this either. I could only open my left eye. I don’t know if I physically did this or this was part of the dream. (Now that I think of it, it must have been in the dream because my view of the room was as though I was laying on my back, but I was laying on my side so that means that some of the things that I ‘saw’ would have been outside my field of vision) I could see movement around the room. I knew that they were all swirling around above me, but I couldn’t really focus on them. I get the impression that they were angry and menacing.
While the next events were unfolding I was trying to move despite my paralysis, this set up the sensation of a shuddering…kind of like a car would if you had it in too high a gear for the load that you’ve put on the engine. This shuddering continued until I woke up directly after the dream.
Two of the beings come into better focus and as this happened I started to try to say POTS, but I couldn’t move my mouth. But the words were going on in my head loudly. During the course of the next events, I think that I recited POTS this way three times. My left eye seemed to close during the second repetition, and it was like I was going to move away from this dream on one occasion, but I forced the eye back open.
One of the beings that come into focus was the young girl that dragged me out of the common room. She drifted around behind me again and out of my view. The other was a female also. Short blonde hair, kind of similar in appearance to the singer Pink, only longer and leaner in body. She seemed to be naked but there was no definition in her nakedness, kind of like she was wearing a body suit. These beings did not seem to have any solid form. I could both see them and see through them at the same time. The blonde that was hovering up near the roof to the left got angrier as I was reciting POTS and beared her teeth which were crowded, pointy and had a bright green glow to them. I interrupted POTS to say ‘Ha f@#ing ha! The comment meant to imply that you can’t frighten me with that. This is curious to me because I am generally someone who is ruled by fear and I dislike the ‘f’ word. But throughout this whole dream, I didn’t feel any fear. I just remember knowing that I had to stay totally aware of everything that was going on around me.
The dream ended as I completed POTS and I woke up, but it was still a few seconds before I could move. I was wide awake and contemplated the dream for a while before going back to sleep. It felt as though I'd only been asleep for a few minutes. I had no problem recalling the dream when I woke up.
I’d really like some help with deciphering this dream if its possible :)