angelina
A Disturbance in the Force
I got this TL surgery in 2001. That was 11 years ago at a young age of 24. I got pregnant for my first baby in 1998, my second in 1999 and my third in 2001 and they're ALL GIRLS!
Economically and emotionally, me and husband were not prepared then yet. Hard as it was, I personally decided to have the operation done. I was so 101% that I will go for it. No hesitation and no fear. My husband was reluctant at first but later decided to just give his consent.
I experience no post-operation problems. No reproductive sytem health and medical related problems.
However, after 11 years after said operation, now that my kids are grown up and i'm still on my 35th years, i already have the feeling of longingness for a baby. Everytime i experience some monthly periodical delays, even just few days, i can't deny that a little excitement in my heart wishing that i am pregnant.
I am not blaming anyone for my fate but myself. It was me who decided to undergo for it. No one pushes me to go for it. But now i am developing this feeling of regrets and resentment. I cant even share this feeling to my husband coz he might send back the blame on me.
I am actually looking for ways for a possible reversal one day which i know it is not yet in practice here in my country (Ph).
Hope anyone can share their thoughts that would at least lighten my "hidden" guilt.
Sincerely.....
Angelian
Economically and emotionally, me and husband were not prepared then yet. Hard as it was, I personally decided to have the operation done. I was so 101% that I will go for it. No hesitation and no fear. My husband was reluctant at first but later decided to just give his consent.
I experience no post-operation problems. No reproductive sytem health and medical related problems.
However, after 11 years after said operation, now that my kids are grown up and i'm still on my 35th years, i already have the feeling of longingness for a baby. Everytime i experience some monthly periodical delays, even just few days, i can't deny that a little excitement in my heart wishing that i am pregnant.
I am not blaming anyone for my fate but myself. It was me who decided to undergo for it. No one pushes me to go for it. But now i am developing this feeling of regrets and resentment. I cant even share this feeling to my husband coz he might send back the blame on me.
I am actually looking for ways for a possible reversal one day which i know it is not yet in practice here in my country (Ph).
Hope anyone can share their thoughts that would at least lighten my "hidden" guilt.
Sincerely.....
Angelian