Carlise said:
Hi Domagoj.
I'm 21, joined here when I was 19. I think for anyone of any age it's a long and difficult journey, but you can count yourself lucky that you don't have decades of false programming to contend with, I guess. Then again, you also have the whole process of still growing up and becoming an adult, but the knowledge here will really help with that, if applied. And you also have to reach a certain point of being sick of all the BS before you can make progress towards something real.
I agree that it's pretty hard being alienated, especially when you're still young, but know that everyone deals with that too. We're a super rare breed here, and it can get lonely, it's just something you have to learn to deal with.
If there's any particular issues you'd like to share, I'm sure you'll receive good feedback here :).
I agree with Carlise and second his advice. You can/and probably will feel very alienated at your age especially if no one around you (even your closest friends or family members) is interested in the kind of work that goes on in this forum. Therefore, my advise to you would be to
prepare a strategic enclosure if you can (read Gnosis by Boris Mouravieff), and refrain from talking out about what you learn here unless you happen to find people who are seeking for the same info and ask for it. Respecting others free will is an important part of learning and it can be very frustrating to see people around you not share your view of the world. And it is necessary also because, in general it seems to be an empirical law that if you do not follow this advice, you are going to face a lot of unnecessary flak and criticism from people around you.
I am 21 and joined the forum when I was 19 but it has taken me a long time to get off from "sitting on the fence" as there was a lot of emotional dumping and knowledge assimilation that I had to undergo before I could reach the point where I could contribute without possibly making just noise.
Personally, I am leading a double-life as far as I can see. My inner life is different from outward "social" life. It is important for me to maintain this division so as to avoid unwarranted attention from people who are too enmeshed in their own beliefs. My friends are not interested in what I read or learn here and they might think I am crazy if I ever make the mistake of trying to explain all I have to come to know here. And that would be a tragedy, not just for me but also for them, because then I would have taken away from them an opportunity to try and seek answers for themselves. This is why you have to really be sick of the falsehood of your former beliefs in order to find the Way. Plus, it gives me a chance to practice external consideration and reduce lies that I tell myself.
This is not to say that I do not talk about what I have learnt at all. I do try to appeal to their more reasonable side and talk about issues which are not very "conspiratorial". I try to push them and make them see contradictions in official narratives and the falseness of some of our culturally acquired beliefs. This is a slow process and I don't know how successful it ultimately is but I have to remember that everyone's lives is theirs to lead just as this is mine. :)