3rd density overload

[QuantumLogic]

Hello all.

I have been reading The Wave series since January, but I am not finished yet (chapter 56). I read somewhat slower than others due to the fact that if I do not understand what I read, I will read it again or even take a break for a day to allow the concepts to "sink in" so to speak.

I have noticed that since I began this quest for truth back in Sept. 2011 after an event that I still to this day cannot put into words, something is happening. It seems as if the farther I go reading the material, the more load I have placed on me in my career. As of late, this workload increase has severely hampered my ability to read all of the material presented here.

My question is did any of you have the same experience, or is it possible I am not seeing this clearly?

In my introduction, I stated I was attempting an experiment with sound/waves/light. This has halted altogether, and is very frustrating. There are several experiments I would like to run, but simply do not have enough "moments". Is it possible that 4D STS was/is/will be intervening to prevent me from continuing The Work, or am I imagining this? I will admit there are days where it seems as if I am just "spinning my wheels", going nowhere, and there must be some objective reason behind this.

My strongest program I have come to realize is frustration. Until recently, I had no idea how much control it had over my life. It has gotten to the point where when unexpected events occur that prevent me from spending time learning, I have to laugh at it, because it does not seem to be coincidence anymore. Something out there wants me frustrated enough to make me say to heck with it and give up- and a few times I almost did. But this must be part of the process of control and manipulation- to overload one so they just give up. I have made the choice to not allow this to happen, but the pressure level increases every time I continue on.

Since I am in the process of reading all of the material, I have refrained from posting here up to this point, since I know many of the answers to my questions are contained within this forum and the publications cited in the serious reader list. But I also know now from reading on this forum that one must participate, so I begin with these questions. I am trying to learn to be patient, and not rush things. If anyone has any suggestions or comments, by all means let me hear them.

By the way- a hearty thanks to all of you here- especially Laura and Ark- for the greatest learning experience of my life. There are many things that have happened over the years that I have questioned but have had no explanation for, and it is because of this place- a beacon of truth- that I have come to understand much about the world and myself.

My journey continues....

 

[Menna]

Its not a race...Take care of your responsibilities and in your free time read information and do things that are related to "The Work" the majority of us will not complete the work in this life time. To be frustrated about not having time to do the work is just going to stress you out making your experience here not enjoyable...Do what you can with the time you have and don't stress. EE will help when you are feeling frustrated

 

[Alana]

In my introduction, I stated I was attempting an experiment with sound/waves/light. This has halted altogether, and is very frustrating. There are several experiments I would like to run, but simply do not have enough "moments". Is it possible that 4D STS was/is/will be intervening to prevent me from continuing The Work, or am I imagining this? I will admit there are days where it seems as if I am just "spinning my wheels", going nowhere, and there must be some objective reason behind this.

I think it will be more productive if you focus on what within you is preventing you from doing the work, instead of some outside abstract influence. By focusing on your own patterns of behavior, habits, how you go about your schedule and how you use your time, you might uncover internal resistances to doing the work. This way, you will get to know your self (your machine, as per Work terms) and the more you know your machine, the more control you will have over it, and the less susceptible you will be to external influences :) Does it make sense what I say?

My strongest program I have come to realize is frustration. Until recently, I had no idea how much control it had over my life. It has gotten to the point where when unexpected events occur that prevent me from spending time learning, I have to laugh at it, because it does not seem to be coincidence anymore. Something out there wants me frustrated enough to make me say to heck with it and give up- and a few times I almost did. But this must be part of the process of control and manipulation- to overload one so they just give up. I have made the choice to not allow this to happen, but the pressure level increases every time I continue on.

Don't take it personally. The process of control and manipulation has been laid in place for centuries now, and the sole objective is to overwhelm the rest of us (majority of humanity with potential to think and feel) so that we are too exhausted, sick and broken to question, or even do anything of real consequence. Your frustration is understandable, but how does it help? Perhaps Will and determination will help you more at this point? And we build Will by keeping at it, above and beyond our frustrations.

On a practical level, I think that setting up a schedule for yourself or adopt any other time management techniques, will be a good place to start. Maybe all you need is better self-discipline. I also agree with Menna's advice regarding the EE program. Have you tried some pipe breathing when you feel frustrated? Also, the Prayer of the Soul meditation when done regularly, will help you strengthen your attention and focus (among other things) which makes it easier to have less wasted and more productive time in a day. If you haven't already, check out the threads (especially the sticky ones) at the Diet and Health section of this forum. Some diet adjustments and supplementation has worked miracles in many members' mental levels and moods.

As you say, the journey continues, but it doesn't have to be that hard. And the great thing about this place is that we have time tested techniques and tips that make this journey a lot easier. All one has to do is follow them :)

 

[QuantumLogic]

Good points were made by both of you - Thanks! Since I am having this issue consistently, what would be the more helpful course of action? Should I temporarily discontinue reading the Wave for now to read the diet and EE threads, or would it be better to do both concurrently? I know in the end it is ultimately my choice, but most here are far more experienced in this process than I, and it would be both foolish and illogical for me not to listen to their experience and wisdom in this matter.

 

[whitecoast]

Good points were made by both of you - Thanks! Since I am having this issue consistently, what would be the more helpful course of action? Should I temporarily discontinue reading the Wave for now to read the diet and EE threads, or would it be better to do both concurrently? I know in the end it is ultimately my choice, but most here are far more experienced in this process than I, and it would be both foolish and illogical for me not to listen to their experience and wisdom in this matter.

Most people read The Wave prior to joining the Forum and find the diet/EE threads from there, in my experience. However, if work and stress is as large an obstacle to your exploration and growth as you say it is, then I think EE and diet reading will be of more immediate practical use to you at this point. :) Best of luck, and hang in there!

 

[luc]

Since I had (and still have, though it got better) similar problems, I might add some thoughts to the very good replies already given. This is rather reflecting my personal experience though and it may be very different for you, and mind that I'm still at the beginning as well.

Anyway, oftentimes when I found this site and began "the Work" I had the thought that if only I had more time without distractions, say half a year "free time" alone to read everything and do everything suggested here, than it would suddenly make "poof" and I'm fully advanced. But it just doesn't work that way. On the contrary, I think it is a process of learning, observing, and then gently applying the knowledge to one's daily life, observing oneself and others, learning more... And though it certainly is easier said than done, I'm now appreciating more everything that is put in front of me as an opportunity to learn and grow. So, when I want to read a book and I cannot because of a distraction, I tell myself "well, maybe it is more important now to try to apply my knowledge to this very situation than to read that book!"

I think if you read about all these things here - aliens, hyperdimensions, the universe etc. - there is always a danger/trap to think that "well then, nothing matters except for me to overcome this meaningless life", where in fact, everything matters, especially the life you find yourself in.

I also like to think that I'm exactly in this very situation for a reason, and that it's my specific "lesson profile". So for example I now try to think of my job not as a distraction from the Work (although it feels like that oftentimes) but an opportunity to learn the lessons I came here to learn. How to deal with colleagues? How to better manage your time? How to practise strategic enclosure? How to be gentle and helpful to others while respecting their free will? How to overcome social fears? All of these have always been major issues for me, and now it's the time to deal with them.

Another thought: While a job costs you a lot of energy, you also recieve energy from the job in the form of money, which you can then spend for useful things - like a healthy diet, books, support for others etc. So the trick is (and I know, again, that it is easier said than done and I'm still struggling a lot with this) to minimize the energy put into a job by not getting sucked into "carreer" dynamics, fights with colleagues/boss etc. while still doing a good job, and to maximize the energy you can spend on useful things (time management, wise choices to spend your money etc.)

For what it's worth...

 

[QuantumLogic]

Another thought: While a job costs you a lot of energy, you also receive energy from the job in the form of money, which you can then spend for useful things - like a healthy diet, books, support for others etc. So the trick is (and I know, again, that it is easier said than done and I'm still struggling a lot with this) to minimize the energy put into a job by not getting sucked into "career" dynamics, fights with colleagues/boss etc. while still doing a good job, and to maximize the energy you can spend on useful things (time management, wise choices to spend your money etc.)

This rang true with me the instant I read it, and seems to be the crux of my error. I am so concerned with not performing well or not accomplishing enough at work for fear of losing my position or being reprimanded for not doing enough, that I will literally run myself into the ground to please them. My superiors are constantly pushing me to do more, which causes me to be so tired by the end of the day. That, and the fact that when I am out of town (which has been a LOT the last 2 months), my choices for healthy eating are slim to none, which I can tell you is not helping at all. After eating that garbage for a week, it takes a week or more before I feel better.

I have already, before finding The Wave and this place, changed my diet due to some research done on my own. No MSG, HFCS, no oil other than olive, glass storage only, SS and cast iron cookware, etc. While this has helped, I obviously need to find a way to avoid the garbage food on these week long trips for work, and this will be much easier said than done. It is apparent that I need to find a way to appease my superiors without driving myself to mental and physical states of exhaustion.

I started the practice breathing last night, so it will be interesting to see the results of this in the coming weeks and months. I'm glad I finally decided to post some of my problem here, as the responses have made me think about sources of and solutions to them that I had not considered.

 

[Menna]

Also look into information on knowledge and being they must be closely aligned to make the information stick so delays in the work might help your being catch up to your knowledge and actually the everyday stuff that gets in the way might help out or your lack of motivation one month might be your being saying slow down. I know some days I have time to read or what have you and I just don't because I have the feeling of ....Not into it right now and just let myself relax

 

[Buddy]

Hello all.

Howdy.

I have been reading The Wave series since January, but I am not finished yet (chapter 56). I read somewhat slower than others due to the fact that if I do not understand what I read, I will read it again or even take a break for a day to allow the concepts to "sink in" so to speak.

Me too.

I have noticed that since I began this quest for truth back in Sept. 2011 after an event that I still to this day cannot put into words, something is happening. It seems as if the farther I go reading the material, the more load I have placed on me in my career. As of late, this workload increase has severely hampered my ability to read all of the material presented here.

One easy way to allow self-sabotage is to fail to pay attention to what the rest of you is doing while your narrative intellect is occupied-preoccupied.

My question is did any of you have the same experience,

Yep. One thing I learned from it is the response above.

In my introduction, I stated I was attempting an experiment with sound/waves/light. This has halted altogether, and is very frustrating. There are several experiments I would like to run, but simply do not have enough "moments". Is it possible that 4D STS was/is/will be intervening to prevent me from continuing The Work, or am I imagining this? I will admit there are days where it seems as if I am just "spinning my wheels", going nowhere, and there must be some objective reason behind this.

Start with the simplest explanation first. Any good salesman can tell you that people WILL make time and money for what's really important for them. You can probably confirm this from experience. So, maybe the real question is more related to 'importance to you at this time'? I don't know, just making a suggestion.

Another lesson we have to learn, it seems, is "doing what is in front of us to do". This can mean that we need to use discipline to multi-task sometimes--to select the most pressing issues first, even though our major interests may lie elsewhere.

D. H. Lawrence once said: We do what what we have to do so we can do what we want to do. :)

My strongest program I have come to realize is frustration. Until recently, I had no idea how much control it had over my life. It has gotten to the point where when unexpected events occur that prevent me from spending time learning, I have to laugh at it, because it does not seem to be coincidence anymore. Something out there wants me frustrated enough to make me say to heck with it and give up- and a few times I almost did. But this must be part of the process of control and manipulation- to overload one so they just give up. I have made the choice to not allow this to happen, but the pressure level increases every time I continue on.

This is, of course, possible. Laura experienced it while in the process of writing the Wave. It's all documented in the Wave, itself. Again though, I'd investigate simplest possibilities first. One wants to be a bit pragmatic about the learning process since one actually has to experience one's own lessons and learn to make better choices--manipulation or not.

Since I am in the process of reading all of the material, I have refrained from posting here up to this point, since I know many of the answers to my questions are contained within this forum and the publications cited in the serious reader list. But I also know now from reading on this forum that one must participate, so I begin with these questions. I am trying to learn to be patient, and not rush things. If anyone has any suggestions or comments, by all means let me hear them.

Specific examples encourage specific answers. So far you're doing good, OSIT.

By the way- a hearty thanks to all of you here- especially Laura and Ark- for the greatest learning experience of my life. There are many things that have happened over the years that I have questioned but have had no explanation for, and it is because of this place- a beacon of truth- that I have come to understand much about the world and myself.

My journey continues....

I second that! :)


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[luc]

This rang true with me the instant I read it, and seems to be the crux of my error. I am so concerned with not performing well or not accomplishing enough at work for fear of losing my position or being reprimanded for not doing enough, that I will literally run myself into the ground to please them. My superiors are constantly pushing me to do more, which causes me to be so tired by the end of the day. That, and the fact that when I am out of town (which has been a LOT the last 2 months), my choices for healthy eating are slim to none, which I can tell you is not helping at all. After eating that garbage for a week, it takes a week or more before I feel better.

Yes, it can be a tricky thing with superiors. What I try is to show my boss strength, maybe give him a few "nuggets" (like spending extra time on a project, or do something even though I'm not expected to do it) but on the other hand I'm firm when it comes to holiday, weekends, compensation for extra hours etc. Generally, I try to be kind and helpful and when there is a bad experience like I've not done a good job, or my boss is angry at me etc. I try not to loose energy on this ("so what?"). One thing about most superiors, I guess, is that they will exploit you if they can.

One thing that helped me as well was a change of attitude. I liked to think of myself as special, gifted, etc. and thus entitled to all kinds of things, and as a consequence I took it very personal if someone at work critisized me, and then I would beat myself up, and I lost a lot of energy due to this vicious circle. Now, I try to remind myself that I'm not so special, and that - let's be honest! - everyone who is not totally dumb could do my job, or most jobs for that matter. I mean, if psychopaths can be (and are) so successful in the current working environment, why attach ones self-esteem to this?

I have already, before finding The Wave and this place, changed my diet due to some research done on my own. No MSG, HFCS, no oil other than olive, glass storage only, SS and cast iron cookware, etc. While this has helped, I obviously need to find a way to avoid the garbage food on these week long trips for work, and this will be much easier said than done. It is apparent that I need to find a way to appease my superiors without driving myself to mental and physical states of exhaustion.

Big issue for me as well... Generally I try to minimize my business trips and if that's not possible, I will bring wild game sausages and salami with me that serve me well. Meatloaf/liverloaf are also good options, and they are available at most butcher's/supermarkets when the trip is longer than just two days. It's not easy, I know...

Last comment, like others have said, don't beat yourself up, you don't have to rush things. Best is to concentrate on the next step and not focussing on the long way before you, osit. I like to think of it as the way of the turtle - moving slow, with clear direction, observing very well, and at the end of the day wondering how one was so fast even though it felt so slow...

 

[Minas Tirith]

It seems as if the farther I go reading the material, the more load I have placed on me in my career. As of late, this workload increase has severely hampered my ability to read all of the material presented here.

Same with me, I have been reading since last November and got until Wave 4 two months ago, when all of a sudden my work situation "exploded". I don't know if it is related, but I had similiar thoughts about it: The moment I started to grasp the concepts, read more and more on SOTT and the forum, the heavier got my workload, hmm

This I find very good advice, thanks!

I also like to think that I'm exactly in this very situation for a reason, and that it's my specific "lesson profile". So for example I now try to think of my job not as a distraction from the Work (although it feels like that oftentimes) but an opportunity to learn the lessons I came here to learn. How to deal with colleagues? How to better manage your time? How to practise strategic enclosure? How to be gentle and helpful to others while respecting their free will? How to overcome social fears? All of these have always been major issues for me, and now it's the time to deal with them.

Another thought: While a job costs you a lot of energy, you also recieve energy from the job in the form of money, which you can then spend for useful things - like a healthy diet, books, support for others etc. So the trick is (and I know, again, that it is easier said than done and I'm still struggling a lot with this) to minimize the energy put into a job by not getting sucked into "carreer" dynamics, fights with colleagues/boss etc. while still doing a good job, and to maximize the energy you can spend on useful things (time management, wise choices to spend your money etc.)

 

[Maya]

Since I had (and still have, though it got better) similar problems, I might add some thoughts to the very good replies already given. This is rather reflecting my personal experience though and it may be very different for you, and mind that I'm still at the beginning as well.

Anyway, oftentimes when I found this site and began "the Work" I had the thought that if only I had more time without distractions, say half a year "free time" alone to read everything and do everything suggested here, than it would suddenly make "poof" and I'm fully advanced. But it just doesn't work that way. On the contrary, I think it is a process of learning, observing, and then gently applying the knowledge to one's daily life, observing oneself and others, learning more... And though it certainly is easier said than done, I'm now appreciating more everything that is put in front of me as an opportunity to learn and grow. So, when I want to read a book and I cannot because of a distraction, I tell myself "well, maybe it is more important now to try to apply my knowledge to this very situation than to read that book!"

I think if you read about all these things here - aliens, hyperdimensions, the universe etc. - there is always a danger/trap to think that "well then, nothing matters except for me to overcome this meaningless life", where in fact, everything matters, especially the life you find yourself in.

I also like to think that I'm exactly in this very situation for a reason, and that it's my specific "lesson profile". So for example I now try to think of my job not as a distraction from the Work (although it feels like that oftentimes) but an opportunity to learn the lessons I came here to learn. How to deal with colleagues? How to better manage your time? How to practise strategic enclosure? How to be gentle and helpful to others while respecting their free will? How to overcome social fears? All of these have always been major issues for me, and now it's the time to deal with them.

Another thought: While a job costs you a lot of energy, you also recieve energy from the job in the form of money, which you can then spend for useful things - like a healthy diet, books, support for others etc. So the trick is (and I know, again, that it is easier said than done and I'm still struggling a lot with this) to minimize the energy put into a job by not getting sucked into "carreer" dynamics, fights with colleagues/boss etc. while still doing a good job, and to maximize the energy you can spend on useful things (time management, wise choices to spend your money etc.)

I'm signing this one ! :D