I reread all the posts in here today, since it is a special occasion, my petty tyrant is gone. Maybe someone else will take its place in the future, but this part of the drama is probably finished.
What I did with him is that, I really reached non-identification at this time, calmly analyzing the situation. Same old phrases that made me angry was used, but this time, I didn't get effected by repetitions or insults or any other thing he tried to do. This took nearly a week. Considering I am trying to reach that state for six month, it was an amazing experience how it happened in such a short time.
I was in a non-identification state and looking for a sign to understand what to do. At the end of the week, he got beyond his limited responses and told to me: "You think you are something, but you are actually nothing." Well, I realized this isn't him, this is one of the favorite lines of my Negative Introject. I saw this as a sign and I started to do what someone should do against their Negative Introject. I made fun of him, not that I wanted to hurt or manipulate him. He is beyond such states. I did it to show him that I am not afraid of any threats or other type of manipulative behavior. There were times when I physically challenged him, this is a riddiculus scene since he is two times bigger than me, yet I destroyed his artificial authority in every aspects of our relationship. He was actually quite surprised with my new attitude, he kept saying: "what's gotten into you?"
At one of those challenges he did something, it wasn't an important thing actually, but I used it as an excuse to create a defense between me and him by using his self-importance. When he did that thing, I told him to apologize, otherwise he shouldn't expect anything from me. He replied that he will never apologize. I knew he would never apologize, that was the point. I think I exercised what Don Juan said about warrior has no self-importance, but petty tyrant does. His self importance caused him to stop speaking and it is interesting to note that when he doesn't speak with me, he becomes a decent person towards me. He was still manipulative to the outside and in that period, I saw his true pathological face. He tried to get around my defense a few times, but I was able to prevent any manipulation attempts until four days ago.
What happened four days ago is that, I was thinking my life was going in a good direction, so I should start exercising on other things and I started with non-anticipation. Yes, it is a tough one, but I thought I should give it a try. As I started to do this, partner of one of my friends asked me to do something for him, and he asked to come to my room. I said no, we should meet in his room, but his roommate was asleep, so I had to take him in. Actually all asking business was a little commanding, so it was a mistake to help, but I didn't know it at that time. After he came to my room and left, my roommate find a topic to talk about, the behavior of our guest.
At those four days I was having three final exams, the most important ones by the way. I was weak because of studying and having exams and my roommate found a gap in my defense, so he started his repetitions and insults as if we didn't live the drama above. The thing is, no matter what he did, it didn't affect me, maybe he didn't change his behavior towards me in the end, but I have changed my perceptions and I have achieved all of my goals that I wrote in this thread. Maybe even more. When I saw my Negative Introject in him and when I win the battle against it, I reached a point where I have enough courage and energy to face my actual Negative Introject. The only difference it made is that, I didn't have much time to study because of the distraction he caused, but if he would leave me alone, I wouldn't probably do better than I actually did.
What I learned in those four days is that, be careful who you are talking to because they can be used as portals. In this case, the guy who asked my help caused all of my defenses to go down in two days and left me weak. It wasn't only him, but he was certainly a precursor. I need time to recover from those four days, but considering this is a six month long drama, I think I managed to handle it, achieved my goals and I didn't become a petty tyrant.
I thank everyone who contributed to this thread and helped me go through such a difficult time. If there was something I shouldn't do or if there were mistakes in the drama above, I would be grateful to those who can point out.
