a terrible experience/worst nightmare i've ever had

[duyunne]

hi all, wow - i wasn't expecting this much of a response! i appreciate this.

it's going to be difficult to make these changes to 'what i put inside of me' - i've tried the paleo diet some years back for a few months and ended up losing substantial amount of weight (enough to make a difference in visual appearance, and i didn't regain it either) and over coming terrible pains from my lower innards as a result (which haven't really returned in the same intensity after i've gone back into dairy and gluten.)

during my usual processing of 'cosmic thoughts' in the shower i realized this may have very well been a message from inside - some deep routed anger or disdain toward life and humans and all this struggle, coupled with years of self imposed neurological abuse and add that with who knows whats in corporately pushed food stuffs and public water systems. then there is the mental anguish imposed by corporate/government institutions, historic accounts of debauchery and social injustices, then we have degradation smeared all over us from MK hollywood/record industries. i realize i'm being pushed toward some type of madness or zombification.

taking baby steps, i'm going to try and remain sober and stay the course toward self improvement. i think i'll also drop refined sugar, replace my coffee addiction with tea (there's something frightening about kicking caffeine cold turkey.)

i think this is a better focus when it comes to the nightmare/event from a few nights back... instead of trying to find an external cause like i did, frantically scrolling through news feeds and looking for some correlating event - i should probably accept that this really did originate from inside me as a 'mirror response' from all this bombardment of scat i've described.

again, i'm very thankful for your considerate responses. i'm glad i took the time to expose myself in this way as i've always wanted to let Laura and co know that your work actually changed my consciousness and how i see reality and our world... i felt that by not letting you know this that... i'm holding back some a positive energy you deserve.

 

[duyunne]

i was re-reading this thread and it occurred to me the dream reminded me of a french film called Martyrs: http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1029234/

i find this odd that days later... we have french 'martyrs' of a different sort with charlie hebdo.

a personal note of synchronicity/coincidence for sure.

 

[Beorn]

i realize i'm being pushed toward some type of madness or zombification.

taking baby steps, i'm going to try and remain sober and stay the course toward self improvement. i think i'll also drop refined sugar, replace my coffee addiction with tea (there's something frightening about kicking caffeine cold turkey

That seems to be a good attitude to take. I've had similar dreams and walked through cities where everyone has gone through the experience you described. I kind of took it as a representation of the spiritual/emotional torture (or zombification as you call it) that we are subjected to living on this planet. Whether from within or without, these dreams usually make me more determined than ever to not allow the suffering that we go through to make me give up my will. It seems to call for a healthy dose of anger and continued determination. Just my 2 cents.

 

[duyunne]

i appreciate any cents Beorn, thank you.

 

[davey72]

Hi truth seeker

now that i think of it i suspect it could be life style changes. i haven't been cycling lately due to damage to my back tire. i do eat cheese and have cream in my coffee but this isn't new to my diet. i've had nightmares in the past but they are usually not like this. usually stupid 'anxiety' type nightmares where i realize my zipper was down and exposing my you know whats or something silly like that. nothing horrifying.

i practice yoga every other day however, every so often i'll use breathing exercises inspired by eiriu eolas (i watched some of the series of vids on it some years back) usually when i'm nervous or having anxiety and it really works, helps me build confidence and i easily 'surpass the test' in my own eyes. it's not an often practice as i find i have niche for this '3d' thing, so i tend to believe based on what i consider are strong accomplishments. i crawled from a pretty squalid past and i feel i built my own family that i can trust with all my heart and am traversing a career in IT at a bold and steady pace, which is helping pay the way for my family to live a comfortable life.

for the most part, my research into 'the conspiracy' helped forge a solid foundation for myself here in this amazing experience that is 20th and early 21st century earth, with an immense thanks and nod of respect to this group for all your continued efforts and communications. for the most part i'm excited about all of it, even though it can seem dark at times, i revere a certain type of bushido philosophy and believe a measure of selflessness in honor of 'the house' (or humanity) protects me in some way.

at any rate, i'll do what i can to drop dairy. i know my son is allergic and he's completely lactose free in his diet, maybe i should take his example. it still doesn't help the fact that i saw this and i feel that... somewhere, in some dank basement is someone suffering at the hands of a f*ng psycho.

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Hi Laura

this is what i suspect, though i'm having doubts based on a few things: i may be high functioning schizophrenic, it's hard to say as i've used too much lsd and mushrooms in my past and i also continue to deal with marijuana addiction, though i've not smoked in some weeks and currently have no cravings. it's possible this experience may be inter-related but... i can't shake the feeling it gave me: i genuinely felt violated. i don't think i have it in my sub conscious to create a scene like this. the condemned 'urban explore' scenery, yes, i can see my self pushing that out but the 'toy bodies' in the basement... i immediately could tell that it was forced into me by something that genuinely hates me and every aspect of me. it felt like punishment for something i may have done. like it was a warning from something powerful or maybe it's past life stuff... it's hard to discern at the moment and your right, i'm sure my consciousness will unpack it appropriately. maybe it's time i face these demons and this is part of my lesson.

Part of this may also have to do with your diet. Maybe by eating properly we may be less susceptible to these types of manipulations?

anyways, i've felt inspired for a long time to start reporting in to this forum as i personally believe that any little bits of information should help (as it does in my line of business,) even if it's from a burn out in 'la la land' vancouver, canada - i appreciate your attention.

Part of this may also have to do with your diet. Maybe by eating properly we may be less susceptible to these types of manipulations?

 

[truth seeker]

Part of this may also have to do with your diet. Maybe by eating properly we may be less susceptible to these types of manipulations?

Fwiw, I think so but it's not only related to food we eat, but the various ways in which we feed ourselves:

Q: Are there any limitations to what our physical bodies can transform to if instructed by the DNA? Could we literally grow taller, rejuvenate, change our physical appearance, capabilities, or whatever, if instructed by the DNA?

A: Receivership capability.

Q: What is receivership capability?

A: Change to broader receivership capability.

Q: (A) That means that you can receive more of something.

A: Close.

Q: (A) It means how good is your receiver.

A: Yes.

Q: (L) What is your receiver? The physical body?

A: Mind through central nervous system connection to higher levels.

Q: So, that is the whole issue of gaining knowledge and developing control over your body. If your mind and CNS are tuned to higher levels of consciousness, that has significance in terms of your receivership capability?

A: Close.

http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,23033.msg251201.html#msg251201

If our central nervous system both emits and receives information, then perhaps we can affect the quality (for lack of a better word) of the information received and emitted by nourishing ourselves through proper diet, intake of knowledge and ee. I think it's safe to say that these three things can be considered forms of information.

If we're speaking of diet, it's been my experience that the information received (such as in dreams) can differ depending upon whether I've eaten something that encourages life or hinders it. So basically, like attracts like. Perhaps the same is true for artificially induced information designed to manipulate people. Giving proper nourishment to our reading instrument improves it's functioning so that we're better able to receive a clear signal and reduces or perhaps in some cases, eliminates, noise. Hopefully that makes sense.

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Glad to hear you're considering making some changes, zin. Please feel free to keep us updated if you need any support. We're here for you. :)

 

[duyunne]

thanks truth seeker. I appreciate it.

so far, not having coffee and sugar is a bit difficult. i certainly feel differences, as i have in the past when i stopped taking sugar. i think switching to tea made a negative impact though as i feel more tired than usual. i think the worse of it was this morning, it felt like, tea after tea, that it wasn't having an impact as coffee normally does. it could also partly be the cream as well that helped stir me awake everyday. who knows for sure - time will tell.

 

[davey72]

i realize i'm being pushed toward some type of madness or zombification.

taking baby steps, i'm going to try and remain sober and stay the course toward self improvement. i think i'll also drop refined sugar, replace my coffee addiction with tea (there's something frightening about kicking caffeine cold turkey

That seems to be a good attitude to take. I've had similar dreams and walked through cities where everyone has gone through the experience you described. I kind of took it as a representation of the spiritual/emotional torture (or zombification as you call it) that we are subjected to living on this planet. Whether from within or without, these dreams usually make me more determined than ever to not allow the suffering that we go through to make me give up my will. It seems to call for a healthy dose of anger and continued determination. Just my 2 cents.

I have to agree with your synopsis. I have had many of these zomboe dreams. Some i would have this dream all night. Like an epic. If i was a writer it would have made a fantastic book. I see it as the state of the world and a warning of sorts to get my shit together.