An Aspiring Scientist's Open Letter of Resignation

whitecoast

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I found this on a blog I came across earlier on.

http://crypto.junod.info/2013/09/09/an-aspiring-scientists-frustration-with-modern-day-academia-a-resignation/

Dear EPFL,

I am writing to state that, after four years of hard but enjoyable PhD work at this school, I am planning to quit my thesis in January, just a few months shy of completion. Originally, this was a letter that was intended only for my advisors. However, as I prepared to write it I realized that the message here may be pertinent to anyone involved in research across the entire EPFL, and so have extended its range just a bit. Specifically, this is intended for graduate students, postdocs, senior researchers, and professors, as well as for the people at the highest tiers of the school’s management. To those who have gotten this and are not in those groups, I apologize for the spam.

While I could give a multitude of reasons for leaving my studies – some more concrete, others more abstract – the essential motivation stems from my personal conclusion that I’ve lost faith in today’s academia as being something that brings a positive benefit to the world/societies we live in. Rather, I’m starting to think of it as a big money vacuum that takes in grants and spits out nebulous results, fueled by people whose main concerns are not to advance knowledge and to effect positive change, though they may talk of such things, but to build their CVs and to propel/maintain their careers. But more on that later.

Before continuing, I want to be very clear about two things. First, not everything that I will say here is from my personal firsthand experience. Much is also based on conversations I’ve had with my peers, outside the EPFL and in, and reflects their experiences in addition to my own. Second, any negative statements that I make in this letter should not be taken to heart by all of its readers. It is not my intention to demonize anyone, nor to target specific individuals. I will add that, both here and elsewhere, I have met some excellent people and would not – not in a hundred years – dare accuse them of what I wrote in the previous paragraph. However, my fear and suspicion is that these people are few, and that all but the most successful ones are being marginalized by a system that, feeding on our innate human weaknesses, is quickly getting out of control.

I don’t know how many of the PhD students reading this entered their PhD programs with the desire to actually *learn* and to somehow contribute to science in a positive manner. Personally, I did. If you did, too, then you’ve probably shared at least some of the frustrations that I’m going to describe next.

(1) Academia: It’s Not Science, It’s Business
I’m going to start with the supposition that the goal of “science” is to search for truth, to improve our understanding of the universe around us, and to somehow use this understanding to move the world towards a better tomorrow. At least, this is the propaganda that we’ve often been fed while still young, and this is generally the propaganda that universities that do research use to put themselves on lofty moral ground, to decorate their websites, and to recruit naïve youngsters like myself.

I’m also going to suppose that in order to find truth, the basic prerequisite is that you, as a researcher, have to be brutally honest – first and foremost, with yourself and about the quality of your own work. Here one immediately encounters a contradiction, as such honesty appears to have a very minor role in many people’s agendas. Very quickly after your initiation in the academic world, you learn that being “too honest” about your work is a bad thing and that stating your research’s shortcomings “too openly” is a big faux pas. Instead, you are taught to “sell” your work, to worry about your “image”, and to be strategic in your vocabulary and where you use it. Preference is given to good presentation over good content – a priority that, though understandable at times, has now gone overboard. The “evil” kind of networking (see, e.g., http://thoughtcatalog.com/2011/networking-good-vs-evil/) seems to be openly encouraged. With so many business-esque things to worry about, it’s actually surprising that *any* scientific research still gets done these days. Or perhaps not, since it’s precisely the naïve PhDs, still new to the ropes, who do almost all of it.

(2) Academia: Work Hard, Young Padawan, So That One Day You Too May Manage!
I sometimes find it both funny and frightening that the majority of the world’s academic research is actually being done by people like me, who don’t even have a PhD degree. Many advisors, whom you would expect to truly be pushing science forward with their decades of experience, do surprisingly little and only appear to manage the PhD students, who slave away on papers that their advisors then put their names on as a sort of “fee” for having taken the time to read the document (sometimes, in particularly desperate cases, they may even try to steal first authorship). Rarely do I hear of advisors who actually go through their students’ work in full rigor and detail, with many apparently having adopted the “if it looks fine, we can submit it for publication” approach.

Apart from feeling the gross unfairness of the whole thing – the students, who do the real work, are paid/rewarded amazingly little, while those who manage it, however superficially, are paid/rewarded amazingly much – the PhD student is often left wondering if they are only doing science now so that they may themselves manage later. The worst is when a PhD who wants to stay in academia accepts this and begins to play on the other side of the table. Every PhD student reading this will inevitably know someone unlucky enough to have fallen upon an advisor who has accepted this sort of management and is now inflicting it on their own students – forcing them to write paper after paper and to work ridiculous hours so that the advisor may advance his/her career or, as if often the case, obtain tenure. This is unacceptable and needs to stop. And yet as I write this I am reminded of how EPFL has instituted its own tenure-track system not too long ago.

(3) Academia: The Backwards Mentality
A very saddening aspect of the whole academic system is the amount of self-deception that goes on, which is a “skill” that many new recruits are forced to master early on… or perish. As many PhD students don’t truly get to choose their research topic, they are forced to adopt what their advisors do and to do “something original” on it that could one day be turned into a thesis. This is all fine and good when the topic is genuinely interesting and carries a lot of potential. Personally, I was lucky to have this be the case for me, but I also know enough people who, after being given their topic, realized that the research direction was of marginal importance and not as interesting as it was hyped up by their advisor to be.

This seems to leave the student with a nasty ultimatum. Clearly, simply telling the advisor that the research is not promising/original does not work – the advisor has already invested too much of his time, reputation, and career into the topic and will not be convinced by someone half his age that he’s made a mistake. If the student insists, he/she will be labeled as “stubborn” and, if the insisting is too strong, may not be able to obtain the PhD. The alternative, however unpleasant, is to lie to yourself and to find arguments that you’re morally comfortable with that somehow convince you that what you’re doing has important scientific value. For those for whom obtaining a PhD is a *must* (usually for financial reasons), the choice, however tragic, is obvious.

The real problem is that this habit can easily carry over into one’s postgraduate studies, until the student themselves becomes like the professor, with the backwards mentality of “it is important because I’ve spent too many years working on it”.

(4) Academia: Where Originality Will Hurt You
The good, healthy mentality would naturally be to work on research that we believe is important. Unfortunately, most such research is challenging and difficult to publish, and the current publish-or-perish system makes it difficult to put bread on the table while working on problems that require at least ten years of labor before you can report even the most preliminary results. Worse yet, the results may not be understood, which, in some cases, is tantamount to them being rejected by the academic community. I acknowledge that this is difficult, and ultimately cannot criticize the people who choose not to pursue such “risky” problems.

Ideally, the academic system would encourage those people who are already well established and trusted to pursue these challenges, and I’m sure that some already do. However, I cannot help but get the impression that the majority of us are avoiding the real issues and pursuing minor, easy problems that we know can be solved and published. The result is a gigantic literature full of marginal/repetitive contributions. This, however, is not necessarily a bad thing if it’s a good CV that you’re after.

(5) Academia: The Black Hole of Bandwagon Research
Indeed, writing lots of papers of questionable value about a given popular topic seems to be a very good way to advance your academic career these days. The advantages are clear: there is no need to convince anyone that the topic is pertinent and you are very likely to be cited more since more people are likely to work on similar things. This will, in turn, raise your impact factor and will help to establish you as a credible researcher, regardless of whether your work is actually good/important or not. It also establishes a sort of stable network, where you pat other (equally opportunistic) researchers on the back while they pat away at yours.

Unfortunately, not only does this lead to quantity over quality, but many researchers, having grown dependent on the bandwagon, then need to find ways to keep it alive even when the field begins to stagnate. The results are usually disastrous. Either the researchers begin to think up of creative but completely absurd extensions of their methods to applications for which they are not appropriate, or they attempt to suppress other researchers who propose more original alternatives (usually, they do both). This, in turn, discourages new researchers from pursuing original alternatives and encourages them to join the bandwagon, which, though founded on a good idea, has now stagnated and is maintained by nothing but the pure will of the community that has become dependent on it. It becomes a giant, money-wasting mess.

(6) Academia: Statistics Galore!
“Professors with papers are like children,” a professor once told me. And, indeed, there seems to exist an unhealthy obsession among academics regarding their numbers of citations, impact factors, and numbers of publications. This leads to all sorts of nonsense, such as academics making “strategic citations”, writing “anonymous” peer reviews where they encourage the authors of the reviewed paper to cite their work, and gently trying to tell their colleagues about their recent work at conferences or other networking events or sometimes even trying to slip each other their papers with a “I’ll-read-yours-if-you-read-mine” wink and nod. No one, when asked if they care about their citations, will ever admit to it, and yet these same people will still know the numbers by heart. I admit that I’ve been there before, and hate myself for it.

At the EPFL, the dean sends us an e-mail every year saying how the school is doing in the rankings, and we are usually told that we are doing well. I always ask myself what the point of these e-mails is. Why should it matter to a scientist if his institution is ranked tenth or eleventh by such and such committee? Is it to boost our already overblown egos? Wouldn’t it be nicer for the dean to send us an annual report showing how EPFL’s work is affecting the world, or how it has contributed to resolving certain important problems? Instead, we get these stupid numbers that tell us what universities we can look down on and what universities we need to surpass.

(7) Academia: The Violent Land of Giant Egos
I often wonder if many people in academia come from insecure childhoods where they were never the strongest or the most popular among their peers, and, having studied more than their peers, are now out for revenge. I suspect that yes, since it is the only explanation I can give to explain why certain researchers attack, in the bad way, other researchers’ work. Perhaps the most common manifestation of this is via peer reviews, where these people abuse their anonymity to tell you, in no ambiguous terms, that you are an idiot and that your work isn’t worth a pile of dung. Occasionally, some have the gall to do the same during conferences, though I’ve yet to witness this latter manifestation personally.

More than once I’ve heard leading researchers in different fields refer to other methods with such beautiful descriptions as “garbage” or “trash”, sometimes even extending these qualifiers to pioneering methods whose only crime is that they are several decades old and which, as scientists, we ought to respect as a man respects his elders. Sometimes, these people will take a break from saying bad things about people in their own fields and turn their attention to other domains – engineering academics, for example, will sometimes make fun of the research done in the humanities, ridiculing it as ludicrous and inconsequential, as if what they did was more important.

(8) Academia: The Greatest Trick It Ever Pulled was Convincing the World That It was Necessary
Perhaps the most crucial, piercing question that the people in academia should ask themselves is this: “Are we really needed?” Year after year, the system takes in tons of money via all sorts of grants. Much of this money then goes to pay underpaid and underappreciated PhD students who, with or without the help of their advisors, produce some results. In many cases, these results are incomprehensible to all except a small circle, which makes their value difficult to evaluate in any sort of objective manner. In some rare cases, the incomprehensibility is actually justified – the result may be very powerful but may, for example, require a lot of mathematical development that you really do need a PhD to understand. In many cases, however, the result, though requiring a lot of very cool math, is close to useless in application.

This is fine, because real progress is slow. What’s bothersome, however, is how long a purely theoretical result can be milked for grants before the researchers decide to produce something practically useful. Worse yet, there often does not appear to be a strong urge for people in academia to go and apply their result, even when this becomes possible, which most likely stems from the fear of failure – you are morally comfortable researching your method as long as it works in theory, but nothing would hurt more than to try to apply it and to learn that it doesn’t work in reality. No one likes to publish papers which show how their method fails (although, from a scientific perspective, they’re obliged to).

These are just some examples of things that, from my humble perspective, are “wrong” with academia. Other people could probably add others, and we could go and write a book about it. The problem, as I see it, is that we are not doing very much to remedy these issues, and that a lot of people have already accepted that “true science” is simply an ideal that will inevitably disappear with the current system proceeding along as it is. As such, why risk our careers and reputations to fight for some noble cause that most of academia won’t really appreciate anyway?

I’m going to conclude this letter by saying that I don’t have a solution to these things. Leaving my PhD is certainly not a solution – it is merely a personal decision – and I don’t encourage other people to do anything of the sort. What I do encourage is some sort of awareness and responsibility. I think that there are many of us, certainly in my generation, who would like to see “academia” be synonymous with “science”. I know I would, but I’ve given up on this happening and so will pursue true science by some other path.

While there was a time when I thought that I would be proud to have the letters “PhD” after my name, this is unfortunately no longer the case. However, nothing can take away the knowledge that I’ve gained during these four years, and for that, EPFL, I remain eternally grateful.
My sincerest thanks for reading this far

The whole letter is really gold on the experience of one person. I have to say it makes me pretty discouraged to look into grad school to further my qualifications and do professional research. :/

Are any of you in academia at the moment? Do any of you have experiences which relate to those had by this individual?
 
I quit a PhD program in biology about 14 years ago, taking a master's instead. I never looked back with regret at the research career I left behind, it was not a good fit for me. I would have had more opportunities for teaching should I have finished the PhD, but there was no way for me to pull it off at the time due to severe burnout and family circumstances.

I agree with everything the author says. Surprisingly, I had a particularly strong reaction to #7, because of recent work experience dealing with researchers. It was eye-opening to see how immature, brazenly rude and downright vicious people are when reviewing the work of their colleagues. The comparison of the whole gaggle of scientists in my field to children who want to play with their toys no matter what, has been on the forefront of my mind for a while now. You can see it in every discourse on public health or ag and food policy.

He touches briefly on how the academe is a pyramid but doesn't go into too many details. To me that was probably the strongest factor in my decision and remains so today. PhD takes 6.5-7 years in my field of study and is followed by no less than 2 postdocs. That means, basically, subsistence-level living for 7+years and low income afterwards, doing highly intense and qualified labor for 70+ hours a week, and multiple moves across your country or, often, the world. This can be great for a single person but much harder for a family. Afterwards, assistant professorship no longer guarantees tenure, as universities increasingly move towards adjuncts for teaching and find other ways to cull people form permanent employment. In between, many factors (landing a bad project, another lab beating you to the punch in their work) can compromise your standing, and in that field, it puts you out of the game completely. I realized I just didn't love this work enough to stake everything on these risks.

I think that in other fields, where you are not tied up to experimental work, you can go through the process faster and with less strain, but the employment and income potential, should you succeed, is also even smaller.

Whether getting a PhD is a good idea for you personally, only can ultimately decide. I can only say that no all graduate school programs are created equal, and PhD isn't the only kind of program available. If your goal is to teach at a college or work at a research organization in a leading capacity, PhD is the way to go. Otherwise, a masters or a professional degree can get you to places, e.g., management, for which PhD hopelessly overqualifies or mis-brands you.

Another thing to consider is that, even in a country such as the US, where people pay for higher education, you shouldn't have to pay for your PhD. Your institution will provide teaching or research assistantships to cover living expenses. Other graduate or professional degrees will likely involve tuition. Compared to that, PhD may sound like a good deal; nevertheless, you would be losing income potential and career advancement during the years spend in school. Again, only you will be able to compare these paths and figure which one works best for you.
 
After I completed my master's degree, I worked part-time for a PhD for 3 years. I eventually quit because my adviser was essentially using me as a dogsbody to do all her work for her, and I was expected to try to cobble together disparate pieces of work into a coherent thesis. After a career in hospital management, I would like to go back to research, but the anatomy department at the local medical school no longer has a research program, they reverted to a teaching-only school a few years ago. One of the reasons they did so was because of too many complaints about poor supervision of graduate students!
 
What a great way to describe what is going on in the Academia, thanks whitecoast.

I never even started a PhD when I was offered to do so. It was to work for a professor that I knew was not honest (to say the least). He wanted me to do work on a field that was not very well researched on phonetics. He promised tons of stuff, but I could see how he treated his PhD students, and then took credit for what they did, not to mention the meager salary for lots of hours of work. Before refusing, I asked if I could work on something more "tangible", based on reality, and not on one tiny domain that would lead nowhere in the increase of knowledge, and he pretty much laughed at me. Nope. I never regretted the decision, to be sure. I would hate to work for a system like that. But I guess it does depend on where you fall.
 
http://www.sott.net/article/266422-An-aspiring-scientists-frustration-with-modern-day-academia-A-Resignation

Sott ran the story a couple of weeks ago.
 
I have just been reading a couple of memoirs by the ant-expert and evolutionary biologist E. O. Wilson. They were interesting because they show the pursuit of "pure science" as a social battleground.

In The Diversity of Life (1992) Wilson had a quote from someone about how ideas progress "one funeral at a time", meaning that an idea can maintain dominance within a scientific discipline until the point when the last of the original proponents of the idea has died, and then alternative ideas of a younger cadre can gain wider acceptance.

In his more autobiographical book Naturalist (1994), he goes into more detail about his early life and undergraduate and postgraduate studies. In the chapter "The Molecular Wars" he writes about clashes between the molecular biologists, headed by James Dewey Watson, and a group including Wilson who were more interested in the ecological level of biology.

Here are some quotes from the chapter "The Molecular Wars" [E. O. Wilson, Naturalist (1994)]:

Without a trace of irony I can say I have been blessed with brilliant enemies. They made me suffer (after all, they were enemies), but I owe them a great debt, because they redoubled my energies and drove me in new directions. We need such people in our creative lives. As John Stuart Mill once put it, both teachers and learners fall asleep at their posts when there is no enemy in the field.

James Dewey Watson, the codiscoverer of the structure of DNA, served as one such adverse hero for me. [. . .] He arrived with a conviction that biology must be transformed into a science directed at molecules and cells and rewriteen in the language of physics and chemistry. What had gone before, "traditional" biology - my biology, was infested by stamp collectors who lacked the wit to transform their subject into a modern science.
[. . .]
At department meetings Watson radiated contempt in all directions. He shunned ordinary courtesy and polite conversation, evidently in the belief that they would only encourage the traditionalists to stay around.
[. . .]
Watson's attitude was particularly painful for me. One day at a department meeting I naively chose to argue that the department needed more young evolutionary biologists, for balance.
[. . .]
"Anyone who would hire an ecologist is out of his mind," responded the avatar of molecular biology.
[. . .]
After this meeting I walked across the Biological Laboratories [Harvard] quad on my way to the Museum of Comparative Zoology. Elso Barghoorn hurried to catch up with me. A senior professor of evolutionary biology, he was one of the world's foremost paleobotanists, the discoverer of Pre-Cambrian microscopic fossils, and an honest man. "Ed," he said, "I don't think we should use 'ecology' as an expression anymore. It's become a dirty word." And sure enough, for most of the following decade we largely stopped using the word "ecology." Only later did I sense the anthropological significance of the incident. When one culture sets out to erase another, the first thing its rulers banish is the official use of the native tongue.
[. . .]
There is a final principle of social behaviour to help keep these developments in perspective. When oppressed peoples have no other remedy they resort to humor. In 1967 I composed a "Glossary of Phrases in Molecular Biology" that was soon distributed in departments of biology throughout the country and praised - by evolutionary biologists - for capturing the strut of the conquerors. My samizdat included the following expressions [. . .]:

Classical Biology: That part of biology not yet explained in terms of physics and chemistry. Classical Biologists are fond of claiming that there is a great deal of Classical Biology that individual Molecular Biologists do not know about; but that is all right because it is probably mostly now worth knowing about anyway, we think. In any case, it doesn't matter, because eventually it will all be explained in terms of physics and chemistry; then it will be Molecular Biology and worth knowing about.

Brilliant Discovery: A publishable result in the Mainstream of Biology.

Mainstream of Biology: The set of all projects being worked on by me and my friends Also known as Modern Biology and Twenty-first Century Biology.

Exceptional Young Man: A beginning Molecular Biologist who has made a Brilliant Discovery (q.v.)

First-rate: Pertaining to biologists working on projects in the Mainstream of Biology.

Molecular Biology: That part of biochemistry which has supplanted part of Classical Biology. A great deal of Molecular Biology is being conducted by First-rate Scientists who make Brilliant Discoveries.

Third-rate: Pertaining to Classical Biologists.
 
I work in academia, I've been blessed with the opportunity to work with friendly people (for the most part). However, I pursued my master's with the expectation of getting a commensurate raise led on by my superiors. I went to NYU and found the classes utterly lacking. I still racked up 70k in debt, in addition to the 27k I had from undergrad. When I followed up about my raise I was told it wasn't possible, the situation itself was even stranger, with my PI blaming his higher ups and HR blaming him. So I stopped taking classes 8 credits and 13k short of finishing my masters.

I decided I wanted to be a writer, so I'm working on that instead. The day-job still pays the bills, but I've completely lost interest for a variety of reasons, including many already listed.
 
What a great description of the farce academia has become and the systematic, thorough corruption of science - TRUE science with so much potential, so much hope for humanity and the planet.
 
I agree with everything that the author wrote. Particularly, number one (along with dark networking aspects).

While pursuing for BA in History less than 10 years ago, I was really enjoying doing the research and the sleuth work and wanted to pursue Master's in Medieval History (with some focus in Museum Studies). I was discouraged to do so because I didn't "know" anyone to sponsor me and I had such a low GPA (which can be fixable). And, I started to notice the political aspects of department plus I wasn't comfortable with a number of professors who disagree with what I had discovered through my research (e.g., an implication of a possibility that Black Death wasn't really caused by Rattus rattus) and they were trying to get me to see things "their way." Later on, I thought about going into Master's in Literal Arts, which is a broad program with any concentration that I can choose (and I can create a "course" of my own) and I saw some fun potentials there, but I again was discouraged because of its lack of marketability in the "real world" and it was a worthless degree. Recently, I was trying to get into the Master's program for Library Science and found myself discouraged by some of the professors' attitudes at the local universities while found myself enjoying the courses and the teachers at the community college.

I've found the community college to be more practical and the teachers were more helpful than the four-year university. I took so many courses there that were intriguing to my curiosity with some great encouragements from the teachers (who actually enjoyed teaching rather than the politics), and I ended up with a few associates' - a goal that I didn't make initially and didn't care for. It was actually fun. My experiences at the latter university were kind of distressing and discouraging, which made my aim for either Master's or Ph.D almost impossible.
 
Thank you whitecoast for this post. What a wonderfully refreshingly, honest account of the true farce of upper academia. It must have taken eminence courage for this great man to shine the light of truth on the darkness prevailing this profoundly corrupt part of the system. I wonder how many professionals in higher academia privately share the same mind-set of this brave man, and will they someday consider his brave example and come forward in truth for the sake of humanity. If they were all to take this leap in truth what a wonderful new beginning of a new world it would be. Am I naive to think this might be a sign that our collective consciousness is actually evolving to the extent that this possibility could be within our reach? One can only hope.
 
Thank for this, it really helped a friend of mine. She is working on her PhD in linguistics and sociology for 6 years now, and recently she was telling me that she has thoughts about quitting after she had her latest meeting with her supervisors. She said that their comments didn't make sense to her, and felt that they didn't even understand the subject themselves. But, she felt guilty about all the time and the money she spend so far on it, and being so close to finishing. After we talked, I saw this testimony and sent it to her. She replied thanking me, she said that this person is expressing things she had seen as well in academia all these years, she felt a huge relief to see she was not the only one.

She doesn't know what she will do yet, but I trust she will do what's best for her. The thing is, for the last 6 years, as I have observed her, she transformed from an excited, curious researcher, to a stressed and always out of money person with very little social life and other interests, because all her time when she is not at her full time teaching job, and money, go to this research. I don't remember where I read it, it was many years ago, but for me it confirms a line that compared academia to Cronos and how he ate his children.
 
This letter has gone across academia like a shot across its bow. It has resonated with a lot of people, striking a lot of nerves, and provoking highly polarized reactions ranging from "yes! I'm not the only one!" to sneering dismissal.

I'm definitely in the former group. If there is any criticism to be made of the letter, it is that it is too polite, and too careful. Academia is rotten to its core.

Alana said:
Thank for this, it really helped a friend of mine. She is working on her PhD in linguistics and sociology for 6 years now, and recently she was telling me that she has thoughts about quitting after she had her latest meeting with her supervisors. She said that their comments didn't make sense to her, and felt that they didn't even understand the subject themselves. But, she felt guilty about all the time and the money she spend so far on it, and being so close to finishing. After we talked, I saw this testimony and sent it to her. She replied thanking me, she said that this person is expressing things she had seen as well in academia all these years, she felt a huge relief to see she was not the only one.

She doesn't know what she will do yet, but I trust she will do what's best for her. The thing is, for the last 6 years, as I have observed her, she transformed from an excited, curious researcher, to a stressed and always out of money person with very little social life and other interests, because all her time when she is not at her full time teaching job, and money, go to this research. I don't remember where I read it, it was many years ago, but for me it confirms a line that compared academia to Cronos and how he ate his children.

Yes. Oh god, yes. I have seen this too. In myself, and in so many of my friends. After a few years in academia we feel like hollowed-out shells, intellectual shadows of our former selves. Since embarking on this project I've struggled with depression, alienation, poverty, near-constant stress and anxiety ... it chews away at you, gradually, sucking away the life. The Master's wasn't so bad (although at the time I thought it was). The Ph.D. has been brutal.

What strikes me is that so much of it is completely un-necessary, no, counterproductive, to the learning process. For instance, the poverty: we now know that survival anxiety makes you dumber, especially when sustained over a long period. Yet we put those who are notionally meant to be the next generation of brilliant researchers and scientists in a position where, for several years, their intellectual functioning is severely impaired by lack of funding. How does this make sense? Well. I know exactly how it makes sense ... and that knowledge sickens me.

And yet, I've stuck with it. I'm not always entirely sure why ... part of this is that, when I look at the other options out there, academia seems like the least bad of them. I refuse to participate in the corporate world. Government service does not interest me. And I can't see myself becoming a farmer or some such. But these are really just excuses ... they aren't positive reasons to stay.

I have found ways to keep it together. Probably the most important was cultivating relationships to the community around me, by which I emphatically do not mean the department ... I did not want my entire social circle to also be my competitors. My friends were all from other faculties, and non-academics from various backgrounds. Getting involved in activist and artistic scenes helped a lot with that. And of course, this forum ... technique like EE, dietary practices, and just general awareness of the global context, have been invaluable.

For a while I thought all this would insulate me from the worst effects. Not so sure of that anymore, though. Increasingly, it feels like all I managed was to slow the degradation. When I look ahead at what academia has in store for me ... postdocs, adjunct professorships, etc. ... there's no future in that. But then ... is there a future worth living anywhere in the world as it currently is?
 
Many people don't know what is ahead of them when become part of the advanced studies in academia, they only promote the nice aspects and in the middle or last part of the studies some people realize what is really all about. Sometimes when I see some of my students and some of them show desire to do a PhD, I tell them generalities about the system and how difficult is to accomplish this kind of studies without resources. I remember the faces of a pair of students that assisted to a meeting about teachers/researchers salaries and the states of the buildings etc, when they heard what were our salary their faces were :jawdrop:.

I think that part of the discussion is to be clear what kind of science (if we are talking about science) you are doing, basic or applied science? even the borders between them are diffuse. I have seen many times people scorning the work of others because they don't see immediate usefulness. Much people don't realize that they are working to do databases that a third person in a future time could use, you don't always know who you work for. A different thing in my opinion is to do lead a research that is supposedly applied, but the researcher knows that's not the way. Even so, you don't know if something good will result if you persist in a line that apparently doesn't conduce to nowhere, (Edison and the light bulb comes to my mind for example). So I think that sometimes a broader perspective is necessary.

It is not also easy to change your research line when you have many people who have devoted their lives to study a field and become very specialized and you have also to buy new, sophisticated and expensive equipment when there is no money, at least this is my experience in my work. That are some of the reasons (my reasons) for not to adapt quickly to the demands to do something "useful" that help people to resolve real life problems. I think that's the work of the engineers rather than "pure" scientist.
 
psychegram said:
And yet, I've stuck with it. I'm not always entirely sure why ... part of this is that, when I look at the other options out there, academia seems like the least bad of them. I refuse to participate in the corporate world. Government service does not interest me. And I can't see myself becoming a farmer or some such. But these are really just excuses ... they aren't positive reasons to stay.

I have found ways to keep it together. Probably the most important was cultivating relationships to the community around me, by which I emphatically do not mean the department ... I did not want my entire social circle to also be my competitors. My friends were all from other faculties, and non-academics from various backgrounds. Getting involved in activist and artistic scenes helped a lot with that. And of course, this forum ... technique like EE, dietary practices, and just general awareness of the global context, have been invaluable.

For a while I thought all this would insulate me from the worst effects. Not so sure of that anymore, though. Increasingly, it feels like all I managed was to slow the degradation. When I look ahead at what academia has in store for me ... postdocs, adjunct professorships, etc. ... there's no future in that. But then ... is there a future worth living anywhere in the world as it currently is?

I think you just have to do what you can do, and develop skills at the same time, meet people, prepare for different eventualities, and keep your eyes open. I agree that nowadays there isn't much to look forward to in terms of jobs. But, perhaps there is hope in the gathering of knowledge, in working together, spreading truth, and just trying to live as consciously as possible. Maybe one day you'll look back, and everything will make more sense. Maybe even your work in the Academia will have been worth it for something you can't imagine now. But keeping your eyes open and preparing for "different" futures is always useful. Like you said, "we now know that survival anxiety makes you dumber, especially when sustained over a long period." So, it's better to work on reducing that as much as possible, no matter where you work. Or so I think.
 
Thanks for sharing.

whitecoast said:
Are any of you in academia at the moment? Do any of you have experiences which relate to those had by this individual?

Yes, many things I heard of myself (from friends who are writing on their PhD), some things I experienced my self (points 1, 2, 4 and the rest I can imagine that it exists). Some people who are really good at and trying for example to help people, trying to achieve something good with their research are confronted with closed-minded authorities, scientists or science bureaucracies. But I think there are many exceptions too and it is not always bad, but it really depends on the knowledge of the people you are working with and the institution. Also here it maybe is problematical as kind of with every job you are applying for, you will never know everyone beforehand, unfortunately.
 
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