An odd day

[Eva]

Sunday night I woke up for what seemed like a minute or two before going back to sleep. This isn't something that normally happens to me, when I fall asleep I wake up in the morning without interruptions.
When I woke up, I opened my eyes completely and felt totally awake. I looked around in the room and saw it as if from different eyes. I knew this was my house but it's as if I saw it for the first time. I nodded, thinking 'aha, yes, this is the place I chose'. I can't possibly describe the feeling at the time. I felt strong and knowledgeable in a way I never feel normally, and I thought - a very distinct thought , almost resounding in my head- the following :
'be grateful for suffering, it exists to wake you up'

When I woke up in the morning, I noted the incident, thought that it could refer to the way I look upon my past but couldn't figure out why I woke up and most importantly, the strange feeling of being so powerful and (for once) free of doubts so I tucked it away. The day went by and I cought myself acting in a very different manner than my typical in a number of situations.
In general, I was being a lot more firm than usual. I even raised my voice to a security guard, who proceeded to understand me perfectly in a matter of seconds.
Yet, I was calm throughout the day, it's as if I played the part I was expected to play, I raised my voice because this is how people communicate sometimes and I could do it without feeling one hint of anger. Inside I was smiling at the guy but externally I acted as I have never acted before, and it worked...
This is totally new for me. I will usually just shut up and leave without ever trying to push things even when I know that I'm losing time/opportunities that could be to my advantage.

Later in the afternoon, I tried to log in a site I recently registered for (a vitamins-supplements site) and my account didn't work. I always write down my password/email combination for new sites I register so I looked it up, and it just wasn't working. When I asked the site for a password recovery, they sent me back info that didn't match what I had written down!! Now this is something that has never happened to me before so it gave me pause.

In the evening I had a pretty horrible bout of backpain, to the point that I couldn't stand/sit or lie down. I was just drifting in a sea of pain. I did EE and round breathing which helped a lot because I fell asleep soon after POTS.

I'm trying to follow a new way of looking at things lately, a way of noting everything without becoming part of it or giving it extra meaning. I added this day in the shelf of 'strange days'. I could see positive explanations but also negative ones. I could see this as a positive shift in consciousness ie. learning to put boundaries and act in an effective way, but also, I could see it as the beginning of losing the ability to put myself aside in favour of the well-being and peace of mind of others.
I suspect this may have to do with my be-nice program which I've been trying to recognise and overcome. At the same time I feel I'm treading on thin ice concerning my subjective views and explanations of incidents so I thought I'd share it with an objective audience.

 

[Gilda0]

Seldom in my life I thought that feeling of "look otherworldly" things, but never sleep. It is not often, but when it does leave me thinking a lot. I have no sense of enlightenment, but when I reflect on it, I left with the feeling of wanting to know more.
I regret not giving more explanation and I'm starting fresh and I'm looking for knowledge. But it seemed appropriate to make this post my concern for those who want to contribute, to grow in knowledge networking.
I do not speak English. I use a translator.

Pocas veces en mi vida me ocurrió esa sensación de "mirar desapegadamente" las cosas, pero nunca en sueño. No es muy frecuente, pero cuando sucede me deja pensando mucho. No tengo la sensación de iluminación, pero cuando medito en ello, me deja con la sensación de querer saber más.
Lamento no darte más explicaciones ya que estoy empezando recién y yo también estoy buscando conocimiento. Pero me pareció conveniente poner en este post mi inquietud, para quienes quieran aportar, a fin de crecer en conocimiento en red.
No hablo inglés. Yo uso un traductor.

 

[Alma.Innovadora]

Write what you experience on a day like this, could be productive. There are times when an external circumstance makes the mind travel by ideas not normally thought, there is a focus, a greater concentration on something in particular. At first they may not have many connections, then comes the urge to seek, investigate, according to the restlessness that is. On the other hand, more attention despite the "nice" feeling.