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Padawan Learner
voyageur said:Does anger not have a polarity, a negative and positive, seen and used correctly it seems to play on the higher centers.
Think the polarity of anger dominates this, anger is an influence and not necessarily a blocker of free will, it may even be an essential emotional center component that reacts to internal and external shocks of free will.
Everything has negative and positive aspects. It is subjective. And depends of point of view.
But there are features that can be described w/o emotions.
Anger is a way to defend self, by creating a wall between, with a goal to restrict other in some way. So it has natural function of "increasing distance between". It is not what STS really wants. STS person wants that everything is turning around him/her. So anger is followed with conditions where aggressor "open a door in the wall", makes you even more controllable.
If there are parents and children and one of them serve to children and other "serve" and manipulate the way she/he think everything should be, there is natural tendency to increasing distance with "angry" one, and decreasing distance with one who accept. It is my own experience.
About defence. There are physical and psychic attacks. It is known fact and one should have awareness to identify those.
But most of times "not acceptance" means that there are "internal breaks" in body, where energy flow is blocked with some prejudice. And removing these "breaks" is the way to advance.
voyageur said:Can you summarize this?
First of all I made intention to serve other. It was really hard in the beggining. Cause there were tendency to influence to everything around and because of misinterpritation of what is STO means.
I had a plan and method - mind balancing.
First you look close on some prejudice you selected to learn and count negative and positive aspects.
Second you examine reverse conception of your prejudice and also identify negative and positive aspects.
Third and Fourth you are listen to other, what they think of your prejudice and reverse conception.
It is natural way we learn and it is way to remove prejudices/distortion (term of ra material) and balance your mind.
I used forums to talk with those who have different opinions than I have. And do not talk with those who agree with me, because I dont learn this way.
Tendention to accept and serve led to changes in my body.
First my chakras were burning (4,2,3), followed with "cold wind" through it.
Second my cheeks and ears were burning - it was effect of opening up 5th chakra.
After reading this material I added "no anticipation" rule to my practice. I have to control my mind during 24 hours a day with this method. It was really tough, and I even lied in the bed a lot to restore my life force. After some breakdown there was effect of "wind blowing" in agnya. It is natural state now when I am calm. I do not need to do anything, even meditate to reach this condition. All I have to do is relax.
So, I can summarize, that mind balancing and learning opens up your energy potential.
And it is best way to defend self. No need any anger.