pneumaticmatt
The Force is Strong With This One
Okay, I thought I would turn to SOTT for some feedback.
Over the last three or so days I am having some barely controllable issues with my emotions.
It seems to be greater but not limited to home. I am also having an extremely difficult time concentrating at work. I am unable to figure out what the heck is going on. Even writing about this makes me well-up. I rarely cry and when I do, there is always a pertinent reason.
I been through some difficult times over the past five years and I have had some damn good reasons to cry but couldn't or didn't.
I did have a full blown uncontrollable crying spell back in September of 2007 (first time anything like this has ever came over me). But I attributed this to the fact that I had not been home to visit in 17 years. When I "lost" it that night I felt as though I was responding to my own frustrations of passing judgment on my brother. I started crying when I realized I was passing judgment on someone else and I got very emotional towards myself for making these judgments. "Who are you to pass judgment on someone else...don't you have enough to work on about yourself?" I probably cried uncontrollably for 30-45 minutes, sobbing and trying to catch my breath. My brother was fairly understanding, although he had no idea what was taking place until I finally calmed down enough to tell him why I was crying.
When I returned home to Austin, Texas I confided in my friend what had happened. As we were talking I was thinking back about that night and I had this feeling or thought that maybe part of what had happened could have been some negative entity or energy in the space we were in and that I was absorbing or reflecting this energy. I guess I was trying to make some sense out of this crying spell.
Currently there is plenty of the usual stresses in my life yet I do not feel that these are causing me any abnormal stress. I guess my question to ya'll (Texas slang), is might this be some 3D or 4D negative activity? Or should I just chalk this up to the time of the month for me (tongue in cheek as I am a man)?
Has anyone else had this type of uncontrollable crying spell but is unable to explain what or why it is happening?
Over the last three or so days I am having some barely controllable issues with my emotions.
It seems to be greater but not limited to home. I am also having an extremely difficult time concentrating at work. I am unable to figure out what the heck is going on. Even writing about this makes me well-up. I rarely cry and when I do, there is always a pertinent reason.
I been through some difficult times over the past five years and I have had some damn good reasons to cry but couldn't or didn't.
I did have a full blown uncontrollable crying spell back in September of 2007 (first time anything like this has ever came over me). But I attributed this to the fact that I had not been home to visit in 17 years. When I "lost" it that night I felt as though I was responding to my own frustrations of passing judgment on my brother. I started crying when I realized I was passing judgment on someone else and I got very emotional towards myself for making these judgments. "Who are you to pass judgment on someone else...don't you have enough to work on about yourself?" I probably cried uncontrollably for 30-45 minutes, sobbing and trying to catch my breath. My brother was fairly understanding, although he had no idea what was taking place until I finally calmed down enough to tell him why I was crying.
When I returned home to Austin, Texas I confided in my friend what had happened. As we were talking I was thinking back about that night and I had this feeling or thought that maybe part of what had happened could have been some negative entity or energy in the space we were in and that I was absorbing or reflecting this energy. I guess I was trying to make some sense out of this crying spell.
Currently there is plenty of the usual stresses in my life yet I do not feel that these are causing me any abnormal stress. I guess my question to ya'll (Texas slang), is might this be some 3D or 4D negative activity? Or should I just chalk this up to the time of the month for me (tongue in cheek as I am a man)?
Has anyone else had this type of uncontrollable crying spell but is unable to explain what or why it is happening?