Debra Lynn
Jedi
Last night I had a dream with a large bear wandering around inside the house. I was not really afraid of it for some reason. I went and sat in my rocking chair and the bear lumbered over and crawled into my lap. I was startled at first and felt like it would crush me but it seemed all it wanted was for me to hold it and cuddle it so I did the best I could. Later on I was in the kitchen with my daughters partner and through the skylight I saw the bear jumping from a tree and over the skylight in the kitchen. That concerned me so I left the room thinking the bear might fall through the skylight. It did. Then it went over to my daughters partner and started mauling her. I started to go over to pull the bear off of her because I did not think the bear would hurt me after our cuddle and then I woke up.
Yesterday before the dream I had switched my reading to Castaneda feeling I needed more tools to navigate my life at present because things are getting more intense around here and I am becoming somewhat exhausted. Since my daughter had her vaccine injury the rest of us have had to take on more and her partner is starting to show signs of anger and resentment. She can be a bit of a petty tyrant at times and make life real miserable for the rest of us and I see that starting to stir up again. There is no way out of what is happening right now though. I'm also feeling some anxiety at having to leave the house more often to do various tasks my daughter used to do. It's just so weird out there right now and I am never sure what to expect at the stores and other places. And if they start requiring vaccines to get into places I won't be able to carry on with this. So far so good but I am feeling some anxiety about it all.
And then a huge bear enters my dreams. I'm hoping it means added strength to carry on, but it worries me it was attacking my daughters partner because that is the last thing I would want. Maybe subconscious desires? This feels somewhat silly to write about but I am curious about other meanings the bear could have. I am feeling more determined than ever to hold to my stance with everything even with the anxiety and petty tyrants in the home and out in the world. I'm reviewing the Castaneda material right now. Seems I need it. And then I read we need to be thankful for what the petty tyrants are showing us. What is the bear showing me I wonder? I have never had a dream with a bear in it before that I can recall. It would be amazing to acquire a bear totem to help navigate through these times if that is what this is about. Not sure.
Yesterday before the dream I had switched my reading to Castaneda feeling I needed more tools to navigate my life at present because things are getting more intense around here and I am becoming somewhat exhausted. Since my daughter had her vaccine injury the rest of us have had to take on more and her partner is starting to show signs of anger and resentment. She can be a bit of a petty tyrant at times and make life real miserable for the rest of us and I see that starting to stir up again. There is no way out of what is happening right now though. I'm also feeling some anxiety at having to leave the house more often to do various tasks my daughter used to do. It's just so weird out there right now and I am never sure what to expect at the stores and other places. And if they start requiring vaccines to get into places I won't be able to carry on with this. So far so good but I am feeling some anxiety about it all.
And then a huge bear enters my dreams. I'm hoping it means added strength to carry on, but it worries me it was attacking my daughters partner because that is the last thing I would want. Maybe subconscious desires? This feels somewhat silly to write about but I am curious about other meanings the bear could have. I am feeling more determined than ever to hold to my stance with everything even with the anxiety and petty tyrants in the home and out in the world. I'm reviewing the Castaneda material right now. Seems I need it. And then I read we need to be thankful for what the petty tyrants are showing us. What is the bear showing me I wonder? I have never had a dream with a bear in it before that I can recall. It would be amazing to acquire a bear totem to help navigate through these times if that is what this is about. Not sure.