Black cat meaning?

[know_yourself_1234]

Thank you so much Bud!

I would like to tell you that I vibrate with the following:

... a 'schema' that relates to a particular way of interpreting a current experience (frightening?) as it may relate to a previously trained-in experience or experiences. Someone else may call it a reaction similar to terror or the fight vs flight instinct.

I used to wake up after terrific nightmares for more than 12 years now, and I think that there is a 'schema' deeply rooted, related to terror, and affecting me. The 'trained-in experience' concept seems so true! Thank you for these tracks!

Can you do some kind of controlled breathing or exercise until you feel much more calmer when this happens?

The point is that it is a kind of 'permanent' state of being.. I quite have no clue of what 'relaxing' means Sometimes I have to force myself for remaining still, and it feels great! But what a great deal of effort to allow myself to feel this, even if I know that it is good for me and that I will feel better It is so hard to 'do myself some good' - it is like it is forbidden.

know_yourself_1234, have you tried doing the Eiriu Eolas stress reduction, detoxing and healing program yet? It is a breathing and meditation system that helps us to reduce our stress (fight or flight response), become relaxed and calm and to help bring up our repressed emotions and past psychological traumas, work through them and let them go.

Thank you for your answer Nienna Eluch! I WILL go back to EE..

I tried and this is what 'started the process of change' this summer; it was like 'opening a Pandora box', facing some 'truth' and not just relating to imagination for 'healing'. :)

Well at first I did not did EE the proper way but much came out. And now I am like 'frightened' to move on, and I feel it difficult for me to go back to it again. There is really an uncomprehensible fear about it.

It is like one 'foot' chose the way of improve but the other one remains with the fears, comfortable to itself but hurting my whole; and this last one has so much power! What is this foot who does not want to follow?!

May I ask a question to the forum?

Where does the difference lie between a false personnality (emotionnal related) and an entity attachment? I mean is there any 'clue' that might help to discern these 'cases'?!

Thank you :D

 

[Buddy]

Sometimes I have to force myself for remaining still, and it feels great! But what a great deal of effort to allow myself to feel this...

Then you do have some experiences of relaxing and feeling good. That's a good thing. That means Nienna Eluch's suggestions will help you, OSIT. Even if you only do the pipe-breath, if you will do it long enough and often enough, you might be surprised how fast it will work when you need it.

It is like one 'foot' chose the way of improve but the other one remains with the fears, comfortable to itself but hurting my whole; and this last one has so much power! What is this foot who does not want to follow?!

The foot that does not want to follow might be the one that is attached to the old comfortable habits. It's like trying to leave a friend you have known all your life to go meet new people. Hard to decide, huh? :/

Well, you can have both for awhile. You just need to use the EE to learn how to relax and make connection with Divine Cosmic Mind first perhaps. If you will practice the relaxing parts of the EE until your body recognizes and likes it, you will be in good shape to self-observe and focus on other things.

This is just what I think based on some of my own practice. Maybe it's worth trying?

May I ask a question to the forum?

Where does the difference lie between a false personnality (emotionnal related) and an entity attachment? I mean is there any 'clue' that might help to discern these 'cases'?!

I think I may have had an entity attachment one time (maybe more, I don't know). I could not tell the difference because so much seems to be tied in with the false personality very closely.

Have you read the online Wave where Laura describes the physiological basis of the predator's mind and describes examples of 'programs'?

If you can read "The Myth of Sanity", you will find that Ms. Stout gives some space to the physiology and the psychology of alter formation. Whether experienced as inside or outside oneself, alters are considered inner voices or hallucinations that can be described as subnetworks of the brain, centering more in the amygdalan network than the hippocampal.

At any rate, I'm not saying that any of this necessarily applies to you, but I am trying to point out the importance of becoming familiar with the recommended reading material. :)


ref:
Martha Stout, The Myth of Sanity: Divided Consciousness and the Promise of Awareness. New York: Viking, 2001, p. 17.

 

[emilien512]

This is weird, at the precise moment when I was about to call my mother for a very very important question (and there is always a damn problem with my mother), I saw a dead black cat on the street, lied down on his left side, it looked like it has been recent, knowing some of the manipulatives attempts from 4D STS, it could have been just put there, but even if this was just a cat, what could this possibly means?