I had a strange but brief experience last night during EE. I was pretty tired and feeling down because I got caught up looking up stuff on the web. I also skipped my cold shower because I was running late for EE and then bed.
I usually fall asleep somewhere during beatha. I noticed that I had a dull localized pain in my thigh. I thought it might be the soreness I get from a long day of sitting at work. I'll notice this in the car too. But I was laying down late at night and without much pressure on my leg, so I thought it was odd that the pain would come about then. And it was in a slightly different location ( maybe an inch or two) of the "sitting pain".
Anyways, I just let it go thinking it would go away, which it did. I fell asleep after the first round of beatha I think, and I had this ominous and threatening feeling. It seems I was half dreaming and I felt the presence of some kind of malevolent dark figure looking over me. It seemed like it wanted to harm or drain me. As I woke up out of my semi-sleep state I had feelings of opposition and just wanting to force this thing away. It was only a matter of a few seconds to wake, and when I was fully awake obviously nothing was there. The feeling went away as quickly as I woke up. But there really was something like, "There's a threat here, I must head it off." I went back to sleep and had the same feeling again, but to a lesser degree around the time right before the POTS.
I fell asleep with the headphones through the whole night, which I sometimes do when I'm really tired. And I had weird dreams, some of which were like a war video game. Battles and being shot at and shooting enemies. I'm taking 4 drops of 5% Lugol's twice a day, and haven't had weird dreams like others have reported. My dreams are just as weird as they are normally. In the past before the forum and dabbling in astral projection and that sort of thing, I would always have an oppositional or violent stance when I thought I was being messed with, with much physical flailing at those moments.
I had made an Outlook reminder at work when reading that session about the Golem and Elisa Lam, 7th November, 2015. It was simply titled "Awareness", meaning to keep that in mind for protection's sake. It's kind of become just a word without much meaning now. But last night had me wondering, that since this kind of dark figure thing doesn't happen much to me, that I should make an effort to keep more aware. And it could have been some subconscious representation of myself. I just wanted to post this to kind of put it out there, as I think networked awareness is kind of amplified. Any thoughts on this? Thanks for reading.
I usually fall asleep somewhere during beatha. I noticed that I had a dull localized pain in my thigh. I thought it might be the soreness I get from a long day of sitting at work. I'll notice this in the car too. But I was laying down late at night and without much pressure on my leg, so I thought it was odd that the pain would come about then. And it was in a slightly different location ( maybe an inch or two) of the "sitting pain".
Anyways, I just let it go thinking it would go away, which it did. I fell asleep after the first round of beatha I think, and I had this ominous and threatening feeling. It seems I was half dreaming and I felt the presence of some kind of malevolent dark figure looking over me. It seemed like it wanted to harm or drain me. As I woke up out of my semi-sleep state I had feelings of opposition and just wanting to force this thing away. It was only a matter of a few seconds to wake, and when I was fully awake obviously nothing was there. The feeling went away as quickly as I woke up. But there really was something like, "There's a threat here, I must head it off." I went back to sleep and had the same feeling again, but to a lesser degree around the time right before the POTS.
I fell asleep with the headphones through the whole night, which I sometimes do when I'm really tired. And I had weird dreams, some of which were like a war video game. Battles and being shot at and shooting enemies. I'm taking 4 drops of 5% Lugol's twice a day, and haven't had weird dreams like others have reported. My dreams are just as weird as they are normally. In the past before the forum and dabbling in astral projection and that sort of thing, I would always have an oppositional or violent stance when I thought I was being messed with, with much physical flailing at those moments.
I had made an Outlook reminder at work when reading that session about the Golem and Elisa Lam, 7th November, 2015. It was simply titled "Awareness", meaning to keep that in mind for protection's sake. It's kind of become just a word without much meaning now. But last night had me wondering, that since this kind of dark figure thing doesn't happen much to me, that I should make an effort to keep more aware. And it could have been some subconscious representation of myself. I just wanted to post this to kind of put it out there, as I think networked awareness is kind of amplified. Any thoughts on this? Thanks for reading.
