Dream: 'Fight' in 4th Density.

bjorb

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A while ago I had a dream which I truly found interesting. It’s a bit long but bear with me. Maybe it holds something important.


Somehow all confused, I was sitting, together with a lot of other bunch of people what seemed to be in a old army pick up truck. I was not driving it still it went somehow to the direction I wanted it to go. After a while, I ‘remembered’ what I was doing there. We where approaching ‘the wave’ Riding towards it, to catch it. Thinking that this situation contradicted what the Cassiopeans said. I just accepted it and thought: What to do in 4th density. What can I expect? How do I fight against the STS faction.

So I tried to remember what could be useful.


[quote author=Cassiopeans]Q: (L) Well, you once said something about the transition to 4th density creating a 'level
playing field.' Then, the people will wake up and there will be a battle between the humans and aliens...

A: Yes.
[/quote]

[quote author=cassiopeans]Q: (L) Why are they planning to now?

A: They want to rule you in 4th density.
[/quote]

[quote author=Ra]Questioner: Could you amplify the meaning of what you mean by the “failure to accept that which is given?”

Ra: I am Ra. At the level of time/space at which this takes place in the form of what you may call thought-war, the most accepting and loving energy would be to so love those who wished to manipulate that those entities were surrounded and engulfed, transformed by positive energies.

This, however, being a battle of equals, the Confederation is aware that it cannot, on equal footing, allow itself to be manipulated in order to remain purely positive, for then though pure it would not be of any consequence, having been placed by the so-called powers of darkness under the heel, as you may say.

It is thus that those who deal with this thought-war must be defensive rather than accepting in order to preserve their usefulness in service to others. Thusly, they cannot accept fully what the Orion Confederation wishes to give, that being enslavement. Thusly, some polarity is lost due to this friction and both sides, if you will, must then regroup.

It has not been fruitful for either side. The only consequence which has been helpful is a balancing of the energies available to this planet so that these energies have less necessity to be balanced in this space/time, thus lessening the chances of planetary annihilation.
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Bringing up those 3 quotes I had an theory that this battle will somehow take place where the 4STS faction will try to manipulate us. The only thing I had to do and all who make it to 4th density is to not to give in. To not accept what they try to give us, being enslavement.

Making up my strategy of what I maybe could expect. I saw those other people in the truck getting along just fine, having all kind of opinions. Discussing things and giving to it strong emotions towards there subjects to support it. I interrupted them and told everybody mine theory and with that, that if I am somehow correct. Then there is probability that all our emotions and subjective views will just be used against us... Nobody really listened. I tried to get them focused on what may happen and if they could share there own theory's. But they just ignored me.

Driving along. The truck slowed down and stopped. Before me I saw a lot of apple trees. I noticed that there where some people standing near it making a argument about something. Suddenly a man who stood in that group picked up a shotgun, I believe and came towards us. Seeing the danger I stood up, jumped out of the truck and tried to stop this man whom I believed was about to try to kill us all. When I came close to him he shot me. I felt dead and after some time I realized that I just lost my body. Standing where I was killed. For some reason I don’t know I walked towards the army truck and behind it was standing a girl who obviously could notice me when the rest could not. She told me she was willingly to give her own body to me so that I could live on. Here reason was that after she heard me speak she was convinced that I would stand a chance against the STS fraction when she could probably not. After hearing this I gave her mine thanks and took her body, becoming a ‘walk in’.

Having this body being alive again. I looked around me, the situation really didn’t chanced. Some people where out of the truck, standing against it. Being relax. The man who just killed me was still there but wasn’t focused on everything. I presumed everybody was safe so I decided and told everybody to move on. They all jumped aboard and we where driving again. Suddenly after some time the road went more up hill, we where approaching a mountain. When almost being at the top. We stopped. I guessed this was our destination. Here we needed to somehow catch ‘the wave’ The surroundings, it had the impression of the Middle Ages somewhere in France. The weather was like it was from the beginning. Calm and clear. The sun was going under. Nightfall stood before us.

Everybody was searching for a clue of what to do next. When walking I noticed something. A small grave on a cliff. The tombstone had something written on it. I don’t know exactly what It was, something French I believe. Not knowing the language all that well, still somehow I could read it. What I can remember are the words, sky and light. I immediately looked up towards the sun. Before I knew it everything went white. This white light was pulling me towards something. I assumed that I solved that clue.

Suddenly I was standing somewhere. This white light disappeared, but very slowly. Around me I could see a of old toys, video games and quite a few consoles I played with in my childhood. When looking around me, out of the blue before me I saw two being. I couldn’t identify what they where, the white light was still to sharp. I assumed that this was 4D even that the environment was 3D. I prepared myself to get a confrontation. Saying to myself that I finally arrived and with that, I was eager to see what this new 4D body of mine could do. Completely ignoring my theory. I ran towards them and punched one in the face.

When standing close at them. I immediately saw that this where not some aliens but two friends of mine. The guy I punched was quite angry. I explained to him that I saw him for something else. He responded with the words: ‘Do you see a tail, well do you!’ Referring to a reptilian being. We had a little laugh, Then one of them pointed me at all those old video games that where lying around. He wanted us to play with them. To get some good old childhood memories. The other was quite enthusiastic, I wasn’t, told them this wasn’t the time for it and also I told them mine theory. They agreed. One of them did let me know that we arrived quite early and that the rest will appear soon. I wasn’t that sure saying to him that I was to late to tell me this finding I did, the clue I solved to how to catch ‘the wave’ and arrive in 4D. They responded that at time more people will show up and probably than this ‘battle’ will begin.

Exploring the surroundings somewhat more people indeed showed up. After a while it was quite busy. Suddenly it got to me. What happened to this body this girl offered to me. Obviously I had my own again, did I shape shift?

Everyone arrived. The surroundings kept chancing. But then it stopped. It was time. Looking around me it resembled something like a canteen, they’re where tables with chairs everywhere, it even had a restaurant where you could pick up food. It had one big entrance. Which was also the exit. The doors of it stood wide open. You couldn’t see how the environment looked like after those doors. It was pitch dark. After a while there came people throught the entrance. Those people walked to those who were already arrived. They went talking to them. The mood what was first quite positive chanced dramatically. Not knowing exactly what this people who came to visit us where saying to them. It surely had an big impact on those people.

It got to me that this is probably some kind of an illusion, set up for us. Those people are trying to make us emotional. What if they make some kind of a deal with those people, who are visiting us. What if they walk with them through the exit. Does that mean that the manipulation is complete? Surely the STS faction knows what makes us thick. Most likely they know us better than we do ourselves,

So I walked to the exit and screamed mine theory to everybody. Some listened but most where already so emotional that they didn’t even hear me. After having my little speech I walked through this canteen trying to find a seat I guess, Suddenly I saw a man walking towards the exit following some of those visitors. Surprised by this I asked him what hell he was doing. He didn’t respond. Than I yelled at him, saying. : You will fall into enslavement, you will just be some slave!’
He stopped, looked at me and told me: ‘Is it slavery when you get what you want!’
‘ Than he continued and walked through the exit. Somehow I knew I couldn’t stop him, it was out of his own free will.

After walking some time I finally found a chair to sit on. I was thinking to myself. With a lot of confidence. There is no way I let myself be manipulated. Saying to myself, I might enjoy it. Maybe they bring up mine old girlfriend. Seeing here smile and such. I was even disappointed. Thinking, is this really all they got. By the way where are they. Doesn’t it fit the manipulation to show themselves?. I never saw my ‘enemy’ did I.

For some reason I had this urge in talking with the ‘enemy’. So I went to the restaurant. Somehow I assumed that when speaking to one of the waitresses I could speak with them directly, Having a conversation. I knew they most probably would react, trying to manipulate me. Still I wanted to. I needed to challenge them.

I asked: Am I a wanderer?

Her responds was:

[quote author=‘Cute’ waitress]You caused pain to people most special to you. For what? A mission. Your anger and hate where you own. How could it be otherwise. Being so young. Learning all of it. Joy wasn’t there, right? You choosed the opposite. Being in pain isn’t that a strategy to keep going. To keep you focused.

You say we manipulate you, what about us trying to give you sight. Giving another view of creation. This mission of yours is it truly so selfless. The pain you caused to others is that just collateral damage. And now paradise awaits? Truly for who? Not for those close to you. They be all dead. Horrible, really? Isn’t that subjective, Isn’t it! Paradise. Just there view of it. Sayings such things how disgusting. It’s all to late now. But mission accomplished!!! How do you feel. What justice? STO doesn’t recognize subjectivity. Being the ultimate sacrifice.

Saying to others they just be a slave. Being STO what freedom you have. Really such freedom they don’t want or feel anything. All they do is what objective ‘love’ is asking from them. A slave to creation itself. It was your STO nature that brought you here. It only gave pain to you, to others. But you did actually what creation demanded from you. How is this Free Will. You actually believe that!

We are all slaves. You think we like to live like parasites. Feeding on others. It’s creation causing all of this. It’s creation who has given you all this pain. Still it asks not to give it names. You aren’t that being who decided on that mission, not any more. See this as an opportunity. A revelation, a second chance. All those things you refused. Being loyal to creation. To there views.

The only justice is the one you take, You are a God now and so you can act like one. Choose from your own free will.
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I stood there, looking at her. Her expression was sad but also angry. Exactly the way I felt. I walked away she continued working. I went to the back of the canteen. I wanted to sit for a while. Arriving there I saw him, my dad and also next to him my little brother. I felt I had control again, I was focused. Really surprised I told him them they did a good job. They being a STO candidate I never though of it. But they weren’t all that enthusiastic really, Still I was. Have a seat my dad told me so I did right next to him.

I noticed that they barely showed any emotion. I saw it as a good sign. Thinking to myself, you guys are right emotions are the last thing we need right now! After some time my dad began to talk. He told me that this couldn’t continue must longer and with that most probably there energy, meaning the STS faction was depleting. The only thing they could do is making a ‘hell on earth’ To keep harvesting the necessary energy to keep this illusion alive. There manipulating games would soon end. Victory was nearing. Still, he said, real sad of your mom. Which I assumed was on earth.

This just left me more frustrated than before. Asking myself what should I do, actually I became tempted in making some kind of compromise with them, the STS faction, a deal.

And with that I woke up. The dream I experienced felt so real. The first thing I though was that I screwed up, Feeling the emotions who where strongly still with me I picked up my phone, on it I wrote everything that was said to me, when I still could remember it quite clearly I didn’t wanted it to go to a waste. When doing this I though to myself this wasn’t all quite right. Who where all those people, my dad was there even my little brother. Those friends also? It didn’t make any sense. Also right from the beginning I was really confused. Then it hit me. Was it all an illusion right from the start? Was I the only real one? Everything that happened what was said to me, they knew exactly where to hit me, what to say, how to push mine buttons and I mean exactly.


With this dream the situation itself I tried to see why I felt so tempted into making a deal with them, Trying to find the programs who where running this show. I had and keep having a lot interesting findings about myself. This dream was truly helpful.



Mine reasons of sharing this: Can there be any truth in mine assumption, the theory I described earlier about how this ‘fight’ in 4D will be played, also do you guys noticed something symbolic in this dream.
 
bjorn said:
Mine reasons of sharing this: Can there be any truth in mine assumption, the theory I described earlier about how this ‘fight’ in 4D will be played, also do you guys noticed something symbolic in this dream.

Hi bjorn. I have no idea how a 'fight' in 4D will be played, but I imagine there will be attempts at manipulation by any and every means possible, energy drains of any and every kind possible as well as mental coercions that will test your knowledge and your faith in that knowledge. Why do I think that? I don't know - probably paranoia, but I think it would be good to be prepared for attack in any way that you can currently think of.

Concerning something symbolic, I'm not good at interpreting other people's dreams, but for me, I seem to have better luck thinking about the emotions in the dreams. The visual stories that play out are sometimes just clues to the emotions that I need to deal with. And that is what we are mostly concerned with right now anyway, releasing emotional blockages through the meditation exercises.

Have you thought about how the physical aggression in your dream may be related to emotions of fear (regarding STS attacks)?
 
[quote author=Buddy]Have you thought about how the physical aggression in your dream may be related to emotions of fear (regarding STS attacks)?[/quote]

STO wasn’t the way how I could get what I want. That would be STS. Losing them, those people close to me. I just couldn’t accept creation how it was. I saw an opportunity, make a deal, and safe them. Like they where trying to say:

STO gave you nothing but pain, why not create your own paradise. Reject creation and choose freedom, surrender to your emotions. Choose STS and they might stand a chance. You can safe them!



Some daily activities, I recognized some programs from it. How I try to counter this fear of losing them.

A computer game I play, called ‘Command and Conquer 3’ It’s a strategy game consisting of three factions. The setting is a pre apocalypse world. I prefer to play with either one of the two sides, Who are human. The third are named, ‘the Scrin’ It’s alien, who have there eyes sets on Earth. When playing online multiplayer and it appears that my enemy is ‘The Scrin’. I always feel exited. I never play defensive against them, I always choose from the very start to be offensive. Even if this strategy can put me in a disadvantage

Somehow I feel in control when I do, That army I am controlling, my opponent: the aliens (the scrin). The fear is gone with brings excitement. Excitement of having a chance to protect.


A while ago I posted a drawing: http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=12927.0/

This hierarchy, That by recognizing them, Drawing it. I had some feeling I was in control. That I can be a part of it. To have power, Power I need. Because like being exited when controlling that army. I can protect.


My motivation of doing ‘the work’ seems to be intertwined in this emotional program. This fear of losing the people that makes me special, and that motivation, trying to protect them, turned to be in a weakness.



Than there is this avatar of mine. It’s from the manga, Naruto. This character name is Uchiha Sasuke. He is someone who at a very young age saw his parents and clan being completely wiped out by his brother. Now he does everything for revenge. This picture, is at the moment he achieved to get the mangekyou sharingan, which can only be awakened by ears of his bloodline through extreme trauma. It gives him new powers.

I overcame a depression. This pain which is no longer with me, it could only be done if I could get insight in seeing my own subjectivity. It was the right motivation, By this I achieved like that character ‘powers’, ‘Powers’ by using pain.


Why does it makes me special, why do I choose that? Like the waitress said, sacrifice. Saying that I am, I choose to have a excuse, not to look at certain things from mine past. The things I have done. Telling myself that it was necessary, that I couldn’t help it and that’s exactly why I asked her, the waitress: am I a wanderer?

I wanted to have a answer to this. To get away from the doubt I needed to be sure and by asking them than maybe I could get that. Because being sure I could give more energy to have this excuse, to not confront this pain.
 
Perhaps you should stop playing computer games? Read this
and this - if you're actually interested in waking up, of course...
 
The scenario’s they play out. The story’s the adventure. Getting us in fantasies. The missions which there psychopathic nature to it. When still saying you did good. It’s mind programming.

And it affects so many of the population. It’s really serious.



Stop playing computer games instantly? Ignoring it, setting it aside not giving it any attention. Isn’t that a opportunity wasted?. This is a method with really works for me. Let me try to explain myself. In another topic I posted:

http://www.cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php?topic=12999.0/

[quote author=bjorn]I started to make notes of myself trying to describe my feelings. I did this all in Microsoft Word, every day for 2 hours. I did make several of them hundred of pages long I didn't look how well it was written I just went describing everything I felt, bringing it to the surface.[/quote]

In every activity I under take I almost all the time write my feelings down when under going something or afterwards.


A year ago I played quite a few games, to some I even was addicted to. Now I hardly play, sometimes. I don’t have a strong urge and can easily set it aside.

The thing is, If I would ignore it, but still have a strong urge. How would I know why I do? When undertaking the activity, the emotions are strong with me. The reason why we play, why this urge is there. It’s betraying itself. When you don’t listen but just ignore. You have to search for it. Instead of searching I try to listen and then search.

Also when having a really strong urge. Don’t fall to it immediately. Describe everything. Then after a while undertake this urge than stop for a moment, describe it again and then continue.

Just like petty tyrants, don’t just set them aside. Use them from what they are.

In time, When you discovered something new about yourself. The urge will weaken. You will enjoy it less. Step by step.

I like to add that if there are things, like certain games or movies that you absolutely don’t like for whatever reason. Try to undertake them also. Describe your feelings.



I have seen in myself when I was depressed. That playing games watching certain movies, anime. It was mostly all for me to fill in some gap. Something I needed to get redemption, to instead of seeing my pain, saying that it made me special. Also to search a way out. Or just that being good at something playing a certain game all the time, an attempt to forget my pain.

Now that my depression is gone. Not haunting me anymore. The urge to fight against it, being it turning subjectivity against subjectivity. A lot of obsessions disappeared which I first desperately defended.



Yes mine intentions are that I stop playing this videogames entirely. Also this Manga I described earlier and everything else. Mine only interest should be which is universally interesting. Objective truth. Especially now, I try to get as far as possible.
 
bjorn,

I have a hard time understanding the point you're trying to get across here. On the one hand you seem to imply that video games can be an "opportunity" for emotional release, yet you contradict yourself by saying that it is "mind programming" and that your intentions are to stop playing these games. I'm having a hard time seeing what other opportunities other than "mind programming" exists in these games.

The emotions you feel while playing these are likely part of that mind programming, I would assume. I'm not an expert in psychology or video games, but from what I've read these games tend to contribute to poor psychological health in general. Even if you do manage to get some emotional release out of these video games, it seems that there are much safer and proven methods of gaining insight about your self through emotional releases.

It is true that all experiences present opportunities to learn, but if you've really learned your lesson, they why aren't you moving on to other lessons instead of being stuck in the same ones (e.g. addictive video games)? Or maybe you already have, but it sounds like you still do play these games based on the way you wrote your post. Maybe I'm misinterpreting it though.

Ryan
 
[quote author=RyanX]I have a hard time understanding the point you're trying to get across here. On the one hand you seem to imply that video games can be an "opportunity" for emotional release, yet you contradict yourself by saying that it is "mind programming" and that your intentions are to stop playing these games.[/quote]

when something is mind programing and the person is undergoing that certain activity, knowing that it can affect him. How it that contradicting? Seeing the danger, being carefull, applying the method. I see it as a opportunity.

[quote author=author]I'm having a hard time seeing what other opportunities other than "mind programming" exists in these games.[/quote]

It's not particular about the games it's the method, If one ignores his emotional attachments to certain activities because of him seeing that there are more important things at hand. That's fine. Still the programs are there. Instead of ignoring I sudjest that if you undergo the activity and tend to listen to yourself. The emotions, the programs which are activated will show themselves more easily. Making it easier to find them.

Undergoing emotional attachment. Applying the method. Finding out why. This in order to never have a urge towards it again.




[quote author=RyanX]but if you've really learned your lesson, they why aren't you moving on to other lessons instead of being stuck in the same ones[/quote]

[quote author=bjorn]Somehow I feel in control when I do, That army I am controlling, my opponent: the aliens (the scrin). The fear is gone with brings excitement. Excitement of having a chance to protect.[/quote]

It wasn't about the video game, but this fear of mine. That's mine lesson I need to undertake right now.




[quote author=RyanX]instead of being stuck in the same ones (e.g. addictive video games)? Or maybe you already have, but it sounds like you still do play these games based on the way you wrote your post.[/quote]

[quote author=bjorn]A year ago I played quite a few games, to some I even was addicted to. Now I hardly play, sometimes. I don't have a strong urge and can easily set it aside.[/quote]

This activity, playing this game was just a minor part of me trying to counter mine fear, I have plenty small ones left which should be dealt with. But that wouldn't be the right approach. Trying to understand why this people close to me, makes me feel special. Why I choose that and with trying to see why I am so afraid of losing them. That should be mine focus for now.
 
bjorn said:
when something is mind programing and the person is undergoing that certain activity, knowing that it can affect him. How it that contradicting? Seeing the danger, being carefull, applying the method. I see it as a opportunity.

It appears to be an opportunity to lie to yourself and nothing more.


bjorn said:
It's not particular about the games it's the method, If one ignores his emotional attachments to certain activities because of him seeing that there are more important things at hand. That's fine. Still the programs are there. Instead of ignoring I sudjest that if you undergo the activity and tend to listen to yourself. The emotions, the programs which are activated will show themselves more easily. Making it easier to find them.

Undergoing emotional attachment. Applying the method. Finding out why. This in order to never have a urge towards it again.

It sounds like an addict explaining why he is cutting down and not quitting. Gaming IS an addition - I know, I've been there. Bjorn, I think you're a smart guy. Try re-reading what you've written here as if someone else wrote it. What would you advise that person to do?


[quote author=RyanX]but if you've really learned your lesson, they why aren't you moving on to other lessons instead of being stuck in the same ones[/quote]

bjorn said:
It wasn't about the video game, but this fear of mine. That's mine lesson I need to undertake right now.

Then stop playing video games and focus on the fear, at least that's my sincere take on it - you may disagree, and, after all, it's your choice. :)
 
[quote author=Anart]It appears to be an opportunity to lie to yourself and nothing more.[/quote]

Petty tyrants give us shocks, which worked for me truly remarkable. Somehow this method of mine I think seems to appear ‘alien’ I found it logical that by searching your programs why not provoke them. Like petty tyrants provoke you. When they are at the surface it's easier at mine experience to work on those programs. trying to get rid of them.

I see how you say it's a opportunity to lie to oneself. Even if there is doubt asking it sounds justified. Because the way how it looks, it can be an excuse. Especially when this method of mine, I described seems to be to the reader, not correct.

But I am not addicted. Playing that game is quite rare for me. I told that before. Lying to others would only be me denying myself a lesson. Lying to myself is even more dangerous.


[quote author=Anart]Try re-reading what you've written here as if someone else wrote it. What would you advise that person to do? [/quote]

I had some problems before in trying to explain myself on this forum. I know that and will take that into consideration. Next to that I would had given the same feedback as you just did.



When depressed I was only focused on myself, my pain. Nothing else. Mine behavior was 'disgracefull' at certain moments. This is what I mean:

[quote author=bjorn]Like the waitress said, sacrifice. Saying that I am, I choose to have a excuse, not to look at certain things from mine past. The things I have done. Telling myself that it was necessary, that I couldn't help it[/quote]

Now not being depressed anymore. I take others into consideration. But I never had a stronger motivation by doing so. Trying to protect others. This subjective love. This fear of losing them. I know I need to get rid of it.


I appreciate all the input, I always do. That's because I need you all. I limited myself long enough saying that I could do the work alone. Being each others mirror is truly usefull.
 
bjorn said:
Trying to protect others. This subjective love. This fear of losing them. I know I need to get rid of it.

Something that has been helpful to me is going back to the online Wave and restudying how we are made addicts in our own skin. This is one of the ways the predators mind allows us to lie to ourselves. We can get stuck in an emotional, self-referencing loop. We can justify or rationalize that we are afraid to lose someone or we are afraid that we won't be able to protect them, when the truth may be that we are simply afraid and don't really know why. Or maybe we are afraid that we simply don't have enough 'BEing' to survive any loss.

Whatever the particular situation for a given individual, if we believe in Laura's work and the 4th way Work, we will likely find that unless we are acting from a position of gaining knowledge, of giving when asked, and respecting freewill, then we are concerned with nothing but ourselves.

This is my understanding at the moment, but I'm open to correction.
 
Buddy

Over time, I think rereading the wave isn't a bad idea. When having learned more about our own subjectivity we can also see more how it is and has played tricks on us and how this is influencing us, trying to be objective.


Overcoming emotions entirely. Achieving 'Objective Love', to not judge creation but to see how it is. Having a STO profile. Working towards this, that is my understanding.
 
bjorn said:
But I am not addicted. Playing that game is quite rare for me. I told that before.

Well, I think you cannot be sure that you are not addicted. There is only one way to prove to yourself that you are in fact not addicted and can stop easily - STOP playing for one year. Then you will know for sure.
 
bjorn said:
It's not particular about the games it's the method, If one ignores his emotional attachments to certain activities because of him seeing that there are more important things at hand. That's fine. Still the programs are there. Instead of ignoring I sudjest that if you undergo the activity and tend to listen to yourself. The emotions, the programs which are activated will show themselves more easily. Making it easier to find them.

From my perspective it seems as if you're trying to do the Work via your interaction with virtual reality, when the *only* way to do Work, at least according to the Fourth Way, is via your interaction with *reality* (or with something that's as close to reality as it's possible to get). Yes, this 3D "reality" we all live in is an illusion, but why would you want to interact with a computer game which is essentially an illusion within an illusion?
 
[quote author=3D resident]but why would you want to interact with a computer game which is essentially an illusion within an illusion?[/quote]

computer games are mind programming. Distractions and manipulations like this should be avoided. But being aware of this, being careful, Than it can protect him.



What was posted before:

[quote author=bjorn]Somehow this method of mine I think seems to appear ‘alien’ I found it logical that by searching your programs why not provoke them. Like petty tyrants provoke you. When they are at the surface it's easier at mine experience to work on those programs. trying to get rid of them.[/quote]

Undergoing an activity for the sole reason to provoke your programs. Instead of searching they betray themselves. Finding them makes this easier.

[quote author=bjorn]Just like petty tyrants, don’t just set them aside. Use them from what they are. [/quote]

[quote author=bjorn]In time, When you discovered something new about yourself. The urge will weaken. You will enjoy it less. Step by step.[/quote]

[quote author=bjorn]I started to make notes of myself trying to describe my feelings. I did this all in Microsoft Word, every day for 2 hours. I did make several of them hundred of pages long I didn't look how well it was written I just went describing everything I felt, bringing it to the surface.[/quote]

[quote author=bjorn]In every activity I under take I almost all the time write my feelings down when under going something or afterwards.[/quote]

In every activity. Not only computergames.
 
bjorn said:
Undergoing an activity for the sole reason to provoke your programs. Instead of searching they betray themselves. Finding them makes this easier.


I can see the correspondence between the dream, the video games and the above quote. They all seem to represent the idea of going on offence against 'the enemy'.

I considered that technique when I read Don Juan's story about his petty tyrant. I deliberately placed myself in a situation that I knew would stimulate a 'program'. To make a long story short, it didn't work for me. I identified with the emotions and stayed in a bad mood the rest of the day.

I decided I didn't have enough BEing for that, because I couldn't maintain the self-observer and self-remembering long enough to get any positive results, but I keep the technique in mind for when I think I'll be ready.


bjorn said:
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I assumed that this was 4D even that the environment was 3D. I prepared myself to get a confrontation. Saying to myself that I finally arrived and with that, I was eager to see what this new 4D body of mine could do. Completely ignoring my theory. I ran towards them and punched one in the face.

This could be one way of trying to express the obvious end result of an aggressive technique of playing games with your emotions instead of trying to see them for what they are and just 'let them be'.

About computer games - I'm sure you know the enemy's actions are all controlled by mathematical algorithms, so the parameters of engagement are already defined. Not so in life - at least not to that extent.
 
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