sevensama
Padawan Learner
Hey everyone :),
several things have been on my mind lately, so I thought I'd put them here.
First of all - as a student, I'm very dependent of my mother on some areas (- financial, mostly). Luckily, her and I get along really well and I've noticed that as I'm making all these changes to my life (- finally started EE, adapting my diet by the day, etc. -) she is suddenly become more 'aware' of things too. I don't try to 'force' my lifestyle on her, but I guess that seeing how these things influence me positively (also in my behavior towards her and issues that come up within our family) she is slowly but surely steering herself towards the 'right' direction as well. She has also voiced her interest in meditation and EE, so I think we'll be trying the program together soon.
I've always found myself highly sensitive to my mother's emotions, as if though they were my own. It has occurred to me lately that we go through somewhat of the same patterns. Recently we both have highly emotional dreams, often involving topics such a death, physical and emotional suffering and blind panic - the past couple of weeks we have both been waking up multiple times a night, sometimes slightly panicked, other times feeling extremely tired and headache-y. Meditation and breathing practices seem to help a little, but the dreams still keep on coming. Both of us haven't actually had dreams we could remember for a while as well, but now we usually start our day by sharing our dreams of the previous night.
Yesterday we went on a trip together to Amsterdam by train, to visit the Archeological museum (- very nice collections of Egyptian and Roman pottery and art!). Though I'm used to traveling up and down the country by train (- my school and apartment are located in the south, whereas my mom's place is more north-east), the journey was extremely tiresome to us both. Walking around Amsterdam was also very tiring and I have the feeling this has to do with the general 'feeling' of that city itself. Nevertheless, upon returning we were both exhausted beyond belief and went to bed early.
Again, we both had very strong dreams. I woke up at least five times during the night, a throbbing headache lulling me back to sleep but also keeping me awake every now and then. My mom voiced having the exact same trouble - the weather last night was also pretty violent for our area, a heavy storm going off and on.
I understand that some of these things could be influenced positively by changing our lifestyles and habits more, but it seems that through these changes our emotional bound becomes stronger. Also, on my side these dreams types of dreams and these strong headaches did not happen until I really started focusing on doing EE and began eliminating evil foods. I guess in retrospect, it all feels somewhat like a roller-coaster ride.
I've been wondering if there is a 'right' way to approach sleep - my usual pattern is drinking a cup of herbal tea, doing some meditation and then going to bed. Nowadays I try to keep a dream journal, but waking up tired more often than not is getting extremely bothersome. Also, the headaches which I never really had before now occur during the day as well.
My mom also told me that sometimes, she feels like 'something' is pressing her down and cutting off her breathing - this results in her waking up gasping for air. Personally I've never experienced that, but I have been having a lot of dreams where I wake up 'falling', like when I fall off something in a dream, I wake up abruptly and gasping for air.
Due to our financial budget, we only take omega-3 and melatonin supplements. perhaps we would benefit from a higher dosage of melatonin, or perhaps there are other things that might be beneficial for us?
I'm quite sure I could have phrased some things better here and there, but whilst I'm typing this up I'm also experiencing a strong headache yet again. Keeping the faith nonetheless and thank you all for providing such a wonderful community. I do feel that this has all been a very positive development, even with all the hardships that come with it. Perhaps some of you will be able to highlight something or point out something that I've been missing?
Hoping to always learn more,
yours truly.
several things have been on my mind lately, so I thought I'd put them here.
First of all - as a student, I'm very dependent of my mother on some areas (- financial, mostly). Luckily, her and I get along really well and I've noticed that as I'm making all these changes to my life (- finally started EE, adapting my diet by the day, etc. -) she is suddenly become more 'aware' of things too. I don't try to 'force' my lifestyle on her, but I guess that seeing how these things influence me positively (also in my behavior towards her and issues that come up within our family) she is slowly but surely steering herself towards the 'right' direction as well. She has also voiced her interest in meditation and EE, so I think we'll be trying the program together soon.
I've always found myself highly sensitive to my mother's emotions, as if though they were my own. It has occurred to me lately that we go through somewhat of the same patterns. Recently we both have highly emotional dreams, often involving topics such a death, physical and emotional suffering and blind panic - the past couple of weeks we have both been waking up multiple times a night, sometimes slightly panicked, other times feeling extremely tired and headache-y. Meditation and breathing practices seem to help a little, but the dreams still keep on coming. Both of us haven't actually had dreams we could remember for a while as well, but now we usually start our day by sharing our dreams of the previous night.
Yesterday we went on a trip together to Amsterdam by train, to visit the Archeological museum (- very nice collections of Egyptian and Roman pottery and art!). Though I'm used to traveling up and down the country by train (- my school and apartment are located in the south, whereas my mom's place is more north-east), the journey was extremely tiresome to us both. Walking around Amsterdam was also very tiring and I have the feeling this has to do with the general 'feeling' of that city itself. Nevertheless, upon returning we were both exhausted beyond belief and went to bed early.
Again, we both had very strong dreams. I woke up at least five times during the night, a throbbing headache lulling me back to sleep but also keeping me awake every now and then. My mom voiced having the exact same trouble - the weather last night was also pretty violent for our area, a heavy storm going off and on.
I understand that some of these things could be influenced positively by changing our lifestyles and habits more, but it seems that through these changes our emotional bound becomes stronger. Also, on my side these dreams types of dreams and these strong headaches did not happen until I really started focusing on doing EE and began eliminating evil foods. I guess in retrospect, it all feels somewhat like a roller-coaster ride.
I've been wondering if there is a 'right' way to approach sleep - my usual pattern is drinking a cup of herbal tea, doing some meditation and then going to bed. Nowadays I try to keep a dream journal, but waking up tired more often than not is getting extremely bothersome. Also, the headaches which I never really had before now occur during the day as well.
My mom also told me that sometimes, she feels like 'something' is pressing her down and cutting off her breathing - this results in her waking up gasping for air. Personally I've never experienced that, but I have been having a lot of dreams where I wake up 'falling', like when I fall off something in a dream, I wake up abruptly and gasping for air.
Due to our financial budget, we only take omega-3 and melatonin supplements. perhaps we would benefit from a higher dosage of melatonin, or perhaps there are other things that might be beneficial for us?
I'm quite sure I could have phrased some things better here and there, but whilst I'm typing this up I'm also experiencing a strong headache yet again. Keeping the faith nonetheless and thank you all for providing such a wonderful community. I do feel that this has all been a very positive development, even with all the hardships that come with it. Perhaps some of you will be able to highlight something or point out something that I've been missing?
Hoping to always learn more,
yours truly.
