Feeling so angry its unreal.

[andi]

Thanks melatonin and Bud for the link and intro. I highly recommend to watch.
Garbot Mate explains it so well,I got glued to my seat.

 

[KTC]

Hey melatonin,

I often find myself feeling frustrated with just about everyone around me.. and my FB 'friends". I often post articles on my FB profile from SOTT, about EE breathing and Dot Connector and hardly anyone ever comments on what I feel is really important issues concerning all of us. But, if I post on my profile something totally irrelevant ie. 'I feel happy' then I'll get so many 'likes' and replies that it just blows me away. To me this indicates that none of my 'friends' are even looking at the important stuff that I am posting or they just brush it aside and pretend not to see it. In fact I have now gotten over the feeling of frustration and I realise sadly that all of these people are actually asleep and that they live in a totally different reality to myself and, even sadder in fact, we're not really friends after all. In fact, the more I learn and explore, the more distant those 'friends' are becoming.

Yes, I keep posting these articles, etc in the hope that maybe, just maybe this information will spark some sort of interest in someone who has mattered to me in my life enough to keep in touch though social networking. I live in hope, but without expectation. And yes, it did hurt, and was pretty upsetting to ponder this, but in the end I am secure with following my quest for truth, learning and putting the work into practice.

And I think that although I may never meet the people on this forum, and although we come from far and wide, this is the closest many of us are to get to interacting with like minded folk where we can sit in on discussions that matter.

 

[melatonin]

andi - I agree, its a great video. I sense that he has great intentions and is a very good person aswell, from how he talks and his manner.

batty76 - Thanks for sharing how you feel, makes me feel a bit less alone. Some of these awareness's are too big to hide, thats the problem for me. Its like most of my conversations with people are false. Im rarely true to myself now. Its as if i have to have 2 identitys - the one that plays in the system, earns money, talks superficial etc etc. And another - thats the true me, that wants to try and talk about very deep complicated subjects, and try to pick apart things.
1 part thats so angry at the world for how it is, how the system is.
Another that has to be part of that very system to socialise and survive.

Of course i can see the benefits to some superficial exchanges, that they can be enjoyable. Its just that now ive become aware, my concious wont 'let me be'.
I feel very driven, but with no outlet, and very very few people to talk about this stuff with in 3D.
Id say i have 2 3D friends who i can talk with about stuff like this, thats it.

Seeing so many people on here and knowing ill never meet them in 3D makes me feel pretty crap tbh.

 

[Talas]

Learn about the Two Minds,Look at others with Honest eyes and try and see there motivation in there own lives,cleanse your anger with understanding/Knowledge
and try not to waist time on the way others act..all the worlds a stage and your part is there for you to make your very own.

Let the anger go and transform this :( to :) i did. :)

 

[melatonin]

Im trying Talas.

Its getting bad. 'They' arent even hiding their agenda anymore. I get so angry when people cant see why things are happening. Although id never claim to know what is happening, im pretty sure what isnt.
For example - Lybia invasion is to save citizens, blar blar blar = BS.

Somehow (your right) i need to channel this into something positive for myself. Ive yet to find it though.
Sometimes i think this positive channneling is just another form of denial and escapism.

 

[anart]

Im trying Talas.

Its getting bad. 'They' arent even hiding their agenda anymore. I get so angry when people cant see why things are happening. Although id never claim to know what is happening, im pretty sure what isnt.
For example - Lybia invasion is to save citizens, blar blar blar = BS.

Somehow (your right) i need to channel this into something positive for myself. Ive yet to find it though.
Sometimes i think this positive channneling is just another form of denial and escapism.

What about writing articles to inform people? What about making a video for youtube to inform people? If the people in your immediate circle are too blind to see then make something for others to see. Also - be careful about determining the needs of others or expecting others to be like you. They're not. Only you are you and it's up to you to decide what you can do to be part of the change that you know needs to happen in the world. Large changes must begin on the small scale and times a'wastin'

 

[dannybananny]

Id say i have 2 3D friends who i can talk with about stuff like this, thats it.

Consider yourself lucky!

Your anger gives you great power and righteousness but it will eventually destroy you,it will eat you alive if you let it to control you.

 

[melatonin]

anart - Thanks for your reply. Im not very creative tbh. I couldnt do a youtube video, and my writing sucks a bit. Im too muddled (so much info to process on this on-going situation) to put anything together in writing. Its as if my world view changes daily.
Your right though, i need to focus on myself, ive always had issues with focusing on others and trying to fix them, when really.......... the work i need to do is on myself. Its a bad habit, and a way of avoiding hard work on myself.

dannybananny - Very true. I used to think anger could be used in a creative way, now i see that all anger is bad. When im angry im never doing (or seeing) anything from a balanced perspective, regardless of how i channel it - its negative.