I can't find my FOTCM certificate and arrival package from 7 years ago anymore. When sorting my documents last year and tidying up stuff, I had it in my hands last. And according to my memory I put it back somewhere, but can't remember the place - have been looking about everywhere I could think of during searches in the course of the last couple of months.
I fear I inadvertently put it among some of the old paper stuff that went into the bin last year.
But maybe I have to run just another search, which is more detailed than the previous ones, taking out all the documents from each portfolio in every compartment and shelf in my living space. Maybe it slipped somewhere in between.
So I decided to write about it here as I didn't know where else to put this. And as to my experience, in the past I have found missing things after driving myself crazy about not being able to find them and then being able to let go at some point. So, maybe this happens this time as well, and especially after having written about it (though that could be magical thinking). The Universe has it's funny little ways... (A little side story: Years ago I missed my set of keys and had to get a new one. After receiving the new keys I found the old set on the surface of a little shelf - it must have been engaging in "mimicry"
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Also, I have been thinking about asking for a new FOTCM certificate which displays my current state in the Fellowship, and as a symbol to renew or update the bond after 7 years. In this vein, I committed myself to re-reading the Fellowship principles in the newest version. But I don't want to put extra work on someone only because I can't find my arrival package and the certificate anymore.
This makes me feel really bad, and I am not sure what to do about it right now as there's some hope left that it must still be present somewhere in my living space. However, just writing about it here is another approach to the problem, and maybe there will come an answer within the next search.