Green Diamond Explosion

[Aya]

Last weekend I had a vivid dream and I still remember all the details what happened in it. It is unusual for me to have an intense dream where I can recall the whole story so I decided to share with you.

That night, Toronto crew (Fabric, Turgon and I) watched a series of “Bleak House” and we did some karaoke. We went to bed really late and I remember I fell asleep quickly.

Here is what happened in my dream:

I woke up at night in my bed; I heard some noise so I opened the door and checked what was going on in the hallway. It turned out 10 or more young drunk people just “came back” from clubbing. Of course, I didn't expect the bunch of strangers to show up in my house so suddenly and I was very shocked. Everyone was holding beer or alcoholic drinks and they were all talking very loudly. I was worried that they would wake up Fabric and Turgon since they were tired of the long day we had.

One of the guys holding beer in his hand called my name. He mentioned to me something going on the forum and told me that he had received 1200 private messages from the members of this forum including super moderators, because he got the credit for something he did. (I don't exactly remember what he did.) I was perplexed and thinking, “How come I did not know about this?” Then, I asked his forum name. He answered “—“, which was somewhat similar to a name of the one of forum members, but I do not think it has anything to do with this person.

Another drunken girl started talking to me and I remember she said “I have read your posts on the forum. I remember few of them are good.” I was thinking in my head “few? okay that is fine. But why these people are not following the diet. Why on earth they are in my house?” There were two apparent forum members in the group and the rest of people were drunken partygoers.
Then I realized that some of the people were invading our bedrooms. A couple of people were jumping on a bed where Fabric was sleeping and some of them were bugging Turgon. I was yelling at them trying to stop, but the environment was too noisy and out of control.

All of a sudden, one of the girls suggested me to go outside so I followed. There was a huge Alhambra looking castle right next to the house, and then she took me to the plaza where people were gathering. There, I saw three people were arguing about something. After a while, they decided to challenge each other. One person pulled out a huge green diamond and tossed it in the sky, as three people tried to catch it to win the game. I was just watching in a crowd what was going on. One lady caught the diamond and she stomped on it and rubbed it with her feet on a pavement. The super big dark green diamond was crushed slowly and she was sniggering telling everyone that now nobody else would be able to get it. I was observing the whole thing astounding and discomfort from watching the nasty little fight. Then, the old man next to me raised his voice saying “It is going to explode.”

I ran with the old man and the crowd far away as I could from the lady with the diamond. When I looked back where she was, the diamond exploded loud and whoosh! (btw the sound was like the comet explosion.) The first thing that came to my mind was that I had to go back to my house. So, I ran with the old man through the castle. It was like a maze where we had to crawl and jump going through all kinds of obstacles, trying to get back to the house the fastest way.

When I saw the little house in far away, I knew it was my house. I opened the door and I found Fabric. I woke him up and said, “Listen, there is a fire at the castle. You need to take out gold and valuable stuff from the safe and RUN.” so Fabric went downstairs. Next I woke Turgon up and took him outside; I saw a grey smoke coming out from the castle. I knew that it was too late so I told Fabric not to worry about valuables and to run fast. Fabric said, “Okay, I can do this.” and kept trying to get the stuff from the safe.

I ran with Turgon and the old man far away from the castle. We had to go through the modern building next to our house. Security people were screening everyone, but Turgon explained to them that we were allergic to the spray they were using, so we passed through it quickly. We ran further and I looked back again, I saw a flood of people were running towards the same direction to escape from the fire and smokes. I searched if Fabric was in the crowd, but I could not find him. “Where is Fabric? Where is Fabric?!!” I started crying in my dream…

Then I opened my eyes. I was relieved that it was a dream, but it felt real and weird.

The interesting about this dream is that I clearly saw a huge green diamond and it exploded. I rarely have a dream with any kinds of gems or jewellery so I was curious what the symbolism for a green diamond was.

Dream Moods dictionary says:

Dark Green: Dark green indicates materialism, cheating, deceit, and/or difficulties with sharing. You need to balance your feminine and masculine attributes.

Diamond: To see diamonds in your dream signify the wholeness of the Self. You may be finding clarity in matters that have been clouding you. Alternatively, it represents vanity, conceit, and your unchanging or unyielding nature. You may be distancing yourself from others. To see a diamond shape in your dream symbolizes the many directions that you can take in life. You need to evaluate your goals and how you are going to achieve them.

Explosion: To see explosions in your dream symbolize your repressed anger. The rage that you have been holding in has come to the surface in a forceful and violent manner. Your subconscious is trying to get your attention.

Hmm, was I running away from my own repressed anger? It is possible that my feeling of anger is finally starting come to surface because I learned to suppress my anger from very young that I hardly express anger in front of anyone. In fact, I rarely get angry (and so I believe) but maybe I have accumulated all the furious feelings inside of me and they are finally starting to explode?!

Another thing that brings me attention is the castle. I have had three dreams with castles in it ever since I visited France. The first one was a white marble castle, which I saw in my dream while I was staying in France. The second one that I had recently was a yellow castle. And this one was a castle made with bricks.

Castle: To see a castle in your dream signifies reward, honor, recognition, and praise for your achievements. You are destined to a position of power, wealth, and prestige. Alternatively, the dream indicates your desire to escape from life's daily problems.

I am not sure what my unconscious mind trying to tell me. But I have been having some intense dreams recently. Most of them I don't remember the details but some of them are giving the sensations that I am living in those dreams. It is also interesting that I see more forum members in my dreams, too.

Thank you for reading.

 

[Turgon]

Aya,

I've been wondering what the symbolism of your dream might be and from the way you've described it on here it kind of sounds like a sort of premonition type dream. Where the green diamond may actually represent a comet exploding and your concerns or fears regarding possible future scenarios when we all need to get up and leave quickly, although there might be some elements from your subconscious playing into the theme's with the house and maybe feeling like you don't have your own 'space'? Your trying to yell at and tell the partygoers to leave and them not listening could be an indication of not having your voice being heard?

Have you tried journaling about this too, you know just seeing where the associations in the dream take you as far as thoughts or feelings that might arise when writing about it.

Just some thoughts.

 

[Aya]

I was also thinking that this dream might have been a forewarning for the future. The way that I didn't kick the invaders out and let them stay until they went crazy, probably indicates that I am still not strong enough to stand up and protect against manipulation or deception, being too nice, and let things happen until they get out of my control.

Also, smoke in a dream indicates some sort of trouble that is entering life. So escaping from that maybe means I am running away from confusion or anxiety for the future.

It was definitely not a very happy dream. Like you've suggested, journaling is probably the best idea for understanding the dream, myself, and releasing of emotions.

Thank you for your advice, Turgon.

 

[Archaea]

I'm by no means an expert on interpreting dreams, but I had a few thoughts about what your dream could mean and I figured I'd share them.

I think maybe your dream is highlighting some sort of cognitive dissonance which you are experiencing relating to the forum. The drunken forum members would be the people on the forum who haven't yet taken it upon themselves to make the changes in their diet and in their thinking, for whatever reason, which this forum strongly suggests they make before getting involved in the discussions here.

So I think this might be perceived by your subconscious mind as an unwelcome intrusion which creates a conflict of some sort. This conflict might have been represented in your dream as the fight over the green diamond which was destroyed and forced you to leave your home, which I think could be a representation of your schema of what the forum actually is.

If that's an accurate interpretation, then I think what's happening is that your ideas or feeling towards the forum are changing, and this change is being brought about by the members of the forum who haven't yet made the switch the ketogenic or even the paleo diet, or who don't agree completely with the ideas and conclusions that the Cass team have come to.

I also think the colour green is interesting as well, Ra say's that it's the colour of the heart chakra, so, again if my interpretations are accurate, then I think the solution is to have a heart so to speak. As long as people here work together to find the truth then I think it will all work out just fine in the end.

 

[Aya]

I appreciate your reply, Archaea.

I think your interpretation is correct to some extend, maybe the recent events that has happened in my life is changing the ideas or feeling towards the forum. It is interesting how you interpret those intruders are the sign of conflict in my subconscious mind, where I perceive it causing me emotionally confused and distress. I can say that neither I have met any forum members behaves obtrusively in real life nor I have had any bad experience with this forum before. However, I am still having a dream about members who are not really doing the work, makes me think that I am challenged to test my will while I am in a such contradictory situation. I do not think a lot has changed about me, but unwelcome intruders were still intruders to my eyes in the dream because of what I practice and think it as moral. I hope this is also the sign of progress. It is interesting how my unconscious mind is played out in the dream indeed.