Heavy attack

Galaxia2002

Dagobah Resident
This month has been terrible for me, I'm definitely under heavy attack. I lost my friendship with my best friend because of misunderstandings and gossip of a group of friends in which one should definitely be some kind of psychopath behind the curtain pulling the strings. And worst of all, 8 months ago my family and I were finally able to rent a comfortable apartment where each had their own space, used to live in a concierge, we were 4 people in one room. The person who rented us the apartment does not live in our country, but was known as my mom and my mom was sick with cancer gave us a good price for rent, but something started to stink from the moment that the woman began to delay signing the contract.

Well now the woman decided to sell the apartment because her dad is sick even though she had recently sold a home. They are people who have a good economic situation and what I think he's afraid of a new law that came out of rents indicating that 5-year lease the landlord must give the option to purchase the apartment tenants. Now thanks to this law apartments for rent are expensive and scarce. And just two weeks I have to submit after many postponements of the university terrible test to get a place as prpfessor. All at once !!!!! I have not stop to do the program and whether EE has helped me not fall into despair I could not help but mourn today.
This has upset many things and his plans for the future. How important is having a place to live!
I already catch why few days ago I see many times 9 11 in my alarm clock, I was alert those days, but what help can give that notices of the awareness if few can be done...

Edit: I have not stop to do the program
 
Hang in there Galaxia2002, brave the storm.

I think pipe breathing in spite of it all would help more than what it presently may seem to you.

Are you under pressure to move immediately?
 
Count Morona said:
Hang in there Galaxia2002, brave the storm.

I think pipe breathing in spite of it all would help more than what it presently may seem to you.

Are you under pressure to move immediately?

Thank you! we still don't know. In the last three months I gave the EE to four persons, maybe the attack is related to that because I give one of the programs to my friend that we are now upset. I have few time to return to the group and I thought that could be a good way apart the translations I do occasionally. I soon thought to contribuite more because after that exam I will have more time, but this change everything. The control system definetively don't want me to move an eyelash. Since an weird episody with a printer in which I printed some material of health from Sott to give it to a friend I applied the estrategic enclosure and closed my mouth. Well I just speculating about the nature of the attack...
 
Galaxia2002 said:
I lost my friendship with my best friend because of misunderstandings and gossip of a group of friends in which one should definitely be some kind of psychopath

Galaxia2002 said:
And worst of all, 8 months ago my family and I were finally able to rent a comfortable apartment where each had their own space, used to live in a concierge, we were 4 people in one room. The person who rented us the apartment does not live in our country, but was known as my mom and my mom was sick with cancer gave us a good price for rent, but something started to stink from the moment that the woman began to delay signing the contract.

I hope that things get better for you Galaxia2002.
 
Hi Galaxia2002,

I would also encourage you to do the EE exercises regularly - even more so now! I takes less than an hour each day and the changes are likely to be profound. I have been doing the EE program regularly for about two years and until recently I had the impression that nothing had changed at all! I was still the same dork, etc. But recently I noticed, that I am much, much calmer and don't get flustered as quickly as before, which in my case is a really good thing.

This is probably one of the main advantages of doing the EE from a very practical point of view - it will make you take life's challenges with more calm and more serenity. And for me this is one of my main goals in life - to take whatever life throws at me as a challenge, as a lesson, as an opportunity to grow, calmly and serene. And not as a nuisance, as a punishment, as god's wrath over myself as a sinner ... In this respect I wish you all the best!

Another suggestion is to employ the "you create your reality" C-style - which is totally different from the new age YCYOR. Like Laura described in this forum somewhere, but I have been unable to find that particular thread ... help anyone?

In this thread she describes how she and her crew tried to "facilitate" finding a house to rent - her situation was really desperate. So they started all to visualize them sitting in their new house, how lucky they had been that this particular house "popped up", how nice it was etc. The important thing is, that you have to do this in a absolutely open way, without putting any direction in it, without locking in details etc. Not like the usual YCYOR crowd that just "thinks positive thoughts" and expect the universe to just deliver. It's a complicated thing and you need to be absolutely sure what you are doing, otherwise it might backfire spectacularly ....

Anyway, just me twopence worth of ideas - hang in there, all the best!

PS: If someone remembers the link mentioned above, I would be very grateful (for my own perusal)!
 
Discipline is the only thing may help you on this Galaxia. Just hope you luck and patience.
 
I´m sorry you have to go through all this hardship. I just can tell you to keep doing EE and if you can do the dietary changes, also keep doing them. Keep doing POTS whenever you feel like and reading SOTT to not loose the focus.

nicklebleu said:
Hi Galaxia2002,

I would also encourage you to do the EE exercises regularly - even more so now! I takes less than an hour each day and the changes are likely to be profound. I have been doing the EE program regularly for about two years and until recently I had the impression that nothing had changed at all! I was still the same dork, etc. But recently I noticed, that I am much, much calmer and don't get flustered as quickly as before, which in my case is a really good thing.

This is probably one of the main advantages of doing the EE from a very practical point of view - it will make you take life's challenges with more calm and more serenity. And for me this is one of my main goals in life - to take whatever life throws at me as a challenge, as a lesson, as an opportunity to grow, calmly and serene. And not as a nuisance, as a punishment, as god's wrath over myself as a sinner ... In this respect I wish you all the best!

Yeah, I agree, taking things as a challenge and as lessons to be learnt. It is not easy, because we are programmed to believe in punishment from "above", bad luck, etc..

nicklebleu said:
Another suggestion is to employ the "you create your reality" C-style - which is totally different from the new age YCYOR. Like Laura described in this forum somewhere, but I have been unable to find that particular thread ... help anyone?

In this thread she describes how she and her crew tried to "facilitate" finding a house to rent - her situation was really desperate. So they started all to visualize them sitting in their new house, how lucky they had been that this particular house "popped up", how nice it was etc. The important thing is, that you have to do this in a absolutely open way, without putting any direction in it, without locking in details etc. Not like the usual YCYOR crowd that just "thinks positive thoughts" and expect the universe to just deliver. It's a complicated thing and you need to be absolutely sure what you are doing, otherwise it might backfire spectacularly ....

Anyway, just me twopence worth of ideas - hang in there, all the best!

PS: If someone remembers the link mentioned above, I would be very grateful (for my own perusal)!

Maybe such excercise is better done in a group context?
 
Would it help if we all tried to focus on your problem during Monday EE before meditation?
 
cassandra said:
Would it help if we all tried to focus on your problem during Monday EE before meditation?

I think it is a good idea, if Galaxia2002 wishes it. And I think it is a good idea to do it with any member of the group that is having a heavy problem in their lives, if they so wish and ask.
 
Galaxia2002 said:
And just two weeks I have to submit after many postponements of the university terrible test to get a place as prpfessor. All at once !!!!! I have not stop to do the program and whether EE has helped me not fall into despair I could not help but mourn today.

Hi Galaxia2002, I think EE will definitely help you here. In fact I think the EE breathing program its an essential element in dealing with overwhelming events in our lives. That's why it's really important to do it consistently so that when 'attacks' do occur you'll be ready for it in both mind and body.

Your breathing is affected by the suddenness and intensity of these events that are unfolding in your life but with consistently practiced EE your breathing will regulate itself, automatically, with respect to your feelings of anxiety, despair and any feelings of being overwhelmed by these events. Your breathing will regulate itself, you get calm, you think clearer as you get advice and you can take on each problem one at a time without being overwhelmed by it all.

Then you wait and be patient as you deal with the problems. New opportunities may very well present themselves in the future, possibly based on your internal attitudes towards what's happening to you right now in the present moment.

If you deal with the events in an entropic way by being reactive and overwhelmed, then that may very well set the conditions for future events that are entropic as well. If you deal with these events calmly and patiently and with sound common sense (this is where EE comes in) then this might very well allow for future possibilities that seemingly appear out of nowhere, but yet, the basis of these new possibilities are dependent on how patient you are and how you are internally aligned with respect to these events that are happening now. In other words, the possibilities and 'events' that are in the future may very well be based on your inner attitude towards these events that are happening now and how you externally deal with.

This 'attack' or 'attacks' can be a lesson(s) to further develop your conscious awareness, understanding and compassion as you deal with it or they can be just ordinary events that just 'happen,' just as everything else that happens repeatedly and automatically in ordinary entropic mechanical life
 
Thank you all!!!l I really appreciate your replies!!
We just talked with a lawyer and he said that will be very difficult to her to throw us out of the house for many reasons, this relieves the pressure a bit. I love some much this house that is at least in a relative good area where you can walk at night without danger of rob and is near my job.


Graalsword said:
cassandra said:
Would it help if we all tried to focus on your problem during Monday EE before meditation?

I think it is a good idea, if Galaxia2002 wishes it. And I think it is a good idea to do it with any member of the group that is having a heavy problem in their lives, if they so wish and ask.

Of course I am agree! so as with any other member with heavy problems. In a normal context of religion prayer I will said no, but this is so different, plenty of awareness and much persons in this group knows what free will respect is. Thank you so much!! I think that it would be a good idea to consult to the group if we can open a thread about people that need that kind of help and if really doesn't imply a free will violation.
kenlee said:
Galaxia2002 said:
And just two weeks I have to submit after many postponements of the university terrible test to get a place as professor. All at once !!!!! I have not stop to do the program and whether EE has helped me not fall into despair I could not help but mourn today.

Hi Galaxia2002, I think EE will definitely help you here. In fact I think the EE breathing program its an essential element in dealing with overwhelming events in our lives. That's why it's really important to do it consistently so that when 'attacks' do occur you'll be ready for it in both mind and body.

Your breathing is affected by the suddenness and intensity of these events that are unfolding in your life but with consistently practiced EE your breathing will regulate itself, automatically, with respect to your feelings of anxiety, despair and any feelings of being overwhelmed by these events. Your breathing will regulate itself, you get calm, you think clearer as you get advice and you can take on each problem one at a time without being overwhelmed by it all.

Then you wait and be patient as you deal with the problems. New opportunities may very well present themselves in the future, possibly based on your internal attitudes towards what's happening to you right now in the present moment.

If you deal with the events in an entropic way by being reactive and overwhelmed, then that may very well set the conditions for future events that are entropic as well. If you deal with these events calmly and patiently and with sound common sense (this is where EE comes in) then this might very well allow for future possibilities that seemingly appear out of nowhere, but yet, the basis of these new possibilities are dependent on how patient you are and how you are internally aligned with respect to these events that are happening now. In other words, the possibilities and 'events' that are in the future may very well be based on your inner attitude towards these events that are happening now and how you externally deal with.

This 'attack' or 'attacks' can be a lesson(s) to further develop your conscious awareness, understanding and compassion as you deal with it or they can be just ordinary events that just 'happen,' just as everything else that happens repeatedly and automatically in ordinary entropic mechanical life
Thank you!! I am trying to do the breathing exercise in the day and the POTS at the night. The first days I couldn't concentrate in the phrases because my mind was thinking in the problem, but now I am doing an effort to stop those thoughts and focus in the prayer.
 
Galaxia2002 said:
I think that it would be a good idea to consult to the group if we can open a thread about people that need that kind of help and if really doesn't imply a free will violation.

I like the idea :thup:
 
After reading Freedom of association, smoking and psychopathy, I thought that I was something paranoid because All these events that I described above in this post and more started when I recommended the EE program to some people. I didn't mention it before because I thought it was just my imagination.
See this, I tell to a friend that has a problems with control the stress that I will teach her a way to breath that would help her with this. When I tell this to her she was relatively fine, but three days before she was very sick, almost like a general colapse of her body. This is the time that I didn't see her (one and a half month), she is with her mother that is taking care of her. Casually she is the boyfriend of a person that "magically" touch my printer when I was printing some information about health from the sott page for give it to my friend and it was damaged it (some internal parts or the printer appeared changed in a way that nobody could do it, and only I have access to the printer in my office) as describe here
http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,22094.msg234823.html#msg234823

I applied strategic enclosure as was suggested, but it seems like the control system don't want I move a finger nor said anything.

It is until now that I feeling a bit better, I felt very weird, I am suffering a kind of postraumatic disorder because I couldn't sleep well and I was nervous all the time since the events I describe. One of the things that not let me sleep was how I lost my best friend friendship (is not the same that get sick) because of misunderstandings and gossip of a group of friends in which one should definitely be some kind of psychopath behind the curtain pulling the strings. I cut the contact with the sociopath, but another people has do it because he was unmasked. The weirdest thing is that last time I talk with my ex best friend she had gaps in her memory about the events that helped to broke our friendship, is like she forgot the most important events. she told everything to this psycho and he drained her and wash her mind, I could detect it. Now she hates me for something that didn't happened in the way she said (is the version of the psycho through her), and when I remembered her the way things really happen she ignored it. :mad: I feel a mix of anger, sadness...
thankfully I did it very well on the exam I had to present to get a permanent job in my work as a university professor (I prepared for 6 months). But the adrenaline goes down and I started to feel bad, I get pains in my body that was overcome in the past and now I had gastritis.
Recently my mother, my brother and I can't sleep well and sometimes fell that I need to go out here to take fresh air.

I am continuing doing EE and slowly I am feeling better, and overcoming the trauma and recovering my health. I am slowly introduce the paleo diet, but with my delicate stomach, the meat is not well digested.
 
Galaxia2002 said:
After reading Freedom of association, smoking and psychopathy, I thought that I was something paranoid because All these events that I described above in this post and more started when I recommended the EE program to some people. I didn't mention it before because I thought it was just my imagination.
See this, I tell to a friend that has a problems with control the stress that I will teach her a way to breath that would help her with this. When I tell this to her she was relatively fine, but three days before she was very sick, almost like a general colapse of her body. This is the time that I didn't see her (one and a half month), she is with her mother that is taking care of her. Casually she is the boyfriend of a person that "magically" touch my printer when I was printing some information about health from the sott page for give it to my friend and it was damaged it (some internal parts or the printer appeared changed in a way that nobody could do it, and only I have access to the printer in my office) as describe here
http://cassiopaea.org/forum/index.php/topic,22094.msg234823.html#msg234823

I applied strategic enclosure as was suggested, but it seems like the control system don't want I move a finger nor said anything.

It is until now that I feeling a bit better, I felt very weird, I am suffering a kind of postraumatic disorder because I couldn't sleep well and I was nervous all the time since the events I describe. One of the things that not let me sleep was how I lost my best friend friendship (is not the same that get sick) because of misunderstandings and gossip of a group of friends in which one should definitely be some kind of psychopath behind the curtain pulling the strings. I cut the contact with the sociopath, but another people has do it because he was unmasked. The weirdest thing is that last time I talk with my ex best friend she had gaps in her memory about the events that helped to broke our friendship, is like she forgot the most important events. she told everything to this psycho and he drained her and wash her mind, I could detect it. Now she hates me for something that didn't happened in the way she said (is the version of the psycho through her), and when I remembered her the way things really happen she ignored it. :mad: I feel a mix of anger, sadness...
thankfully I did it very well on the exam I had to present to get a permanent job in my work as a university professor (I prepared for 6 months). But the adrenaline goes down and I started to feel bad, I get pains in my body that was overcome in the past and now I had gastritis.
Recently my mother, my brother and I can't sleep well and sometimes fell that I need to go out here to take fresh air.

I am continuing doing EE and slowly I am feeling better, and overcoming the trauma and recovering my health. I am slowly introduce the paleo diet, but with my delicate stomach, the meat is not well digested.

Yeah, I think everyone has felt some pressure from the system on some level, even if they aren't conscious of it.

I've lost a good friend to a psychopath once before, moreso do to his getting lost in her wanton manipulations, guilt-trips and overall emotional entanglements. I was hurting for almost a year. When our situation exploded, I decided to write a long letter to him. My goal was to explain as much as possible what was going on. How he was being manipulated, why he has no reason to feel guilt, what her crimes were, how her psychological deviancy was poisoning everything, et cetera. That could be something you could do. At the very least, you could say your piece and leave it at that if it doesn't work out well.

It didn't work for my situation, FWIW. As sad as that was, there was nothing more for me to do.

According to the Cassiopaeans, those who are deceived allow themselves to be deceived. We can offer advice and instruct if we are asked, but we shouldn't try and alter the lessons people are engaged in learning.

That being said, the "magical" touch of her boyfriend damaging your printer is a sign (in my opinion) that she may still be able to be reached. Because if your efforts were doomed from the start, why would further interference from the general law be necessary? That could be a sign that your efforts won't be fruitless if you keep pushing. But please don't take this as a license to have wishful thinking about whether your best friend can be saved or not.

Just keep fighting. That's all you can do when the system tries to clamp down on you again.

Have you considered try to help her indirectly, like by sending her more information on psychopathy? Such as the Defense Against The Psychopath video? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MgGyvxqYSbE Even if you can't reach her about her specific situation, some information may sink in and allow her to see more of what is going on around her. Knowledge protects.
 
That being said, the "magical" touch of her boyfriend damaging your printer is a sign (in my opinion) that she may still be able to be reached. Because if your efforts were doomed from the start, why would further interference from the general law be necessary? That could be a sign that your efforts won't be fruitless if you keep pushing. But please don't take this as a license to have wishful thinking about whether your best friend can be saved or not.

Just keep fighting. That's all you can do when the system tries to clamp down on you again.

Have you considered try to help her indirectly, like by sending her more information on psychopathy? Such as the Defense Against The Psychopath video? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MgGyvxqYSbE Even if you can't reach her about her specific situation, some information may sink in and allow her to see more of what is going on around her. Knowledge protects.

Thank you whitecoast for the input, I didn't explain myself well. I lost my Best friend in a serie of events, and she didn't talk to me. there is nothing to do for the moment. The girl involved with the "printer" in a another one, she is a coworker and friend too. This happend after I give her an article about coconut oil for her to read because I commented her if she knew where to buy it, in this way started our conversation.
 
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