RedFox said:
As you've posted in The Work section I presume you mean 'will power in reference to the Work'?
If so, will power is a tool for achieving our Work aims.
It may include joy, need, pain etc and a whole host of emotional/physical drives. In the context of the Work they are irrelevant as its about working towards an aim.
Say your aim goes against an addiction, exercising Will requires discipline and you will experience conscious suffering (and a range of 'negative' emotions/thoughts).
You may later experience joy on overcoming the addiction.
Say your aim includes things you find enjoyable, exercising Will would be easier and you may experience joy in anticipation (before exercising Will) and during exercising Will.
At a mechanical level our drives (and I would not call it Will) come from both 'pleasure seeking' and 'need', as well as 'pain avoidance' and whole host of other things.
Is this what you mean by "Is your will an expression of joy or an expression of need?"
I guess my post wasn't clear. I posted the thought in a bit of haste. Things were a bit busy at the time, but I thought is may be a good thought to bounce around with the forum.
By will, I meant application of 'free will'. But in rereading my post, I think I was speaking of intent and process, of the work. So, perhaps a there's a clearer way to state what I was thinking. Perhaps this is better:
Is our perception of the process, our intent, our actions, our expression projected upon the world, one of need to self-centeredly obtain something---or the joy of the unending creative process?
But, I guess I'm assuming that a creative process is outgoing in favor of all---as in 'STO'. I just realized, it doesn't have to be, does it? I could just as easily be a 'wishful thinking'. Though, I'm pretty certain that my personal intent is that I work on things for the purpose of sharing, and resonating positively for all.
I find, that I'm quite joyed by the entire challenge. I'm a musician and I'm very aware of the fact that I'll never be a master of music. That's because, the process of learning has no end. If anything, aside from adding knowledge to my base, the thing that actually gets better over time is more fundamentally the ability to get out of my own way, learn to channel the muse and let the universe express itself. That works via my intent and action of picking up a saxophone, in spite of the pains (mental, physical and emotional) playing and of learning. For years, I felt that I 'needed' to be better than I was. And in fact, I meet musicians all the time, who complain about the pain of not feeling they're good enough at present and deny the beauty of their true expression, the love and joy of the undertaking---the endless process. Their need gets in the way of experiencing the joy of process. And I think that the joy of process enables you to get out of the way, not egotistically own anything and opens the doors of expression.
In the same way, there are times that I personally get obsessive (though less these days than the past), to reach a point of consciousness that would be what I'd consider emotionally and psychically stable...a mastering. But of course, that's not the nature of things. It's the same as music...an unending and infinite process. And in the moments that I'm consciously aware of that, I feel a joy to all aspects of the process. That includes the successes and the impediments. When in that headspace, I feel my expression is more flowing, intuitive, far reaching, resonating with the rest of the world and useful. My expression seems to be more expressive of the world, thinking of others, being more in tune with the expression of the world.
So, the neediness to get somewhere, as opposed to the joy of process, is probably more to the point of what I was thinking when I posted earlier.